May 2021

Hello Saints!

Our God, hands down, is the most holy One, the most worthy One, and the uttermost faithful One in the whole universe and beyond! I pray this song, Great is Thy Faithfulness is stuck in your head for days!!!

So much has happened this month! Remember the woman I asked you to pray about that I was waiting on to come here? She came. She was sick the whole first day. The second day she seemed to be a little better but not quite steady. On the third day, she got up, seemed to be ready for a fresh start, was looking forward to the day. I went to the store to get some things she’d asked for. It took a little longer than I thought because someone else had asked me to pick them up and take them to the store also. By the time I got back, she had packed her things and went back to her boyfriend, that she’d just escaped from. The next day she was texting telling me she’d made a mistake and could she come back. I said no. I didn’t want to start a revolving door service, where someone can come here, get clean for a few days, go back to using and come back when the drugs are gone and they need a place to crash until they can figure out how to get more money to do the same thing again. It felt like failure. Since I wouldn’t take her, she went inpatient to a rehab facility and after more than a week of detoxing, she was accepted back into the halfway house I had first met her at and now I’m getting to see her every Tuesday again when we go there to do crafts. She has since thanked me for not letting her come back. The Lord is doing a marvelous work in her. She normally is constantly moving her legs back and forth with anxious energy. Yesterday when we went to do crafts, there was a peace over her. She made me a beautiful picture of seashells in the sand with a flower as the sun in the upper corner and birds in the sky. So beautiful! Thank you for praying! The Lord answered our prayers! And we’re seeing this over and over again right now! Keep pressing in! Keep waving the banner. Our Rescuer sees and is actively on the move!

She left here on a Wednesday. The next Wednesday, a homeless man slept on my couch one night. He was one of the ones who helped move me in here. I prayed about it first and definitely sought the Lords advice. My first answer was NO. Then about 20 minutes later after talking to the Lord, I texted the person back who had asked me if he could come here and said okay. He left the next morning before I got up.

The Next Wednesday, another woman came from yet another shelter! She stayed 10 days. She was a joy to have here. She loved the Lord so much!  We prayed together, and spent hours rejoicing in His goodness as we shared the things He has done for us. What a delight! She then moved into the house of the woman who let me share her house for a year and a half after I came back from Alabama at the beginning of 2019, so her story continues…. J

This past Sunday as I was getting ready at 6 a.m. to go to the outside service, a spasm went off in a my back that took my breath away and bent me over. There was no standing, no walking, no going anywhere. I crawled into bed and it was 7 hours before I could get up. It honestly felt like a 911 emergency. I wanted to call everyone! But I told the Lord I wasn’t calling anyone but Him. A little over an hour later, my dear friend Naomi, who has never called me at 7:17 a.m. on a Sunday morning, called me. Tears just rolled down my face, (I was so relieved there would be someone to find my body J, have you ever felt like that?) The Lord had her call me to pray with me and to let me know He seen me and would not forsake me. I love Him so much!

 

Dad always said, “You can’t lose with the stuff we use.” God will always come through for us. Throughout the morning as I laid there, I was thinking of all the places I was going to have to notify to cancel everything for the week. Then I realized, even though I was in pain and couldn’t get up, that if I started canceling everything, I wasn’t even giving God a chance to move. That afternoon a woman at a shelter, where everything was going wrong, texted me. Her and another girl couldn’t take the confusion that had been going on there for more than a week and asked could I please come get them so they could go put a tent up somewhere and sleep outside where they could have peace and feel safer than they felt at that shelter. I told her I couldn’t come right them but that I would come the next day, even if I had to come in my pajamas. The next day as I moved about cautiously, I was grateful to be upright. I did go get her and not in my pj’s. The other one came yesterday. One of them is on a blow up mattress and the other on the couch. And by yesterday, two days after being unable to walk, I took the two of them up to Auburn with me, where we met Pam Harvey, and did crafts with the ladies from Grace House. I had no symptoms whatsoever! My biggest concern was getting the supplies out to the car and the Lord sent me not one, but two helpers who carried everything for me!

I only wanted to relay this to you to let you know that in the midst of glorifying the goodness of God, in doing everything we think is right, in believing with all our hearts that He is Who He says He is, we still have days full of tears and pain that seem unexplainable. But the Hope never disappears. How horrible it would be to go through those things with no hope. And when He shows up….oh my goodness, is there anything greater?!!!!! Today in my prayer time my heart was twirling and dancing and leaping!

I honestly have never seen myself as one bringing people into my home, especially in an apartment where the rooms are a little closer than in a house, but this is a new season. When I first moved in here, I kept asking the Lord, “All this space just for me?” It seemed huge! It gets a little smaller when you add people into it, but just like when the Israelites left Egypt the Lord gave them all kinds of material treasures, just so they could give it back to him in the desert to build the Tabernacle, so I think He gave me all this space just so I could give it back to Him.

I can’t tell you how blessed and honored I am to be a part of the family of God. So many people on our mailing list have been hands on in our ministry that it’s amazing to me. It’s not just a mailing list, it’s a family tree. We’re all grafted into this One Branch, this beautiful olive tree, Whose oil flows out through each of us. Never, ever, ever, would I have thought there would be so many people that I love who love me back! Who would have thought that your life is better with people in it! Who came up with this crazy idea of making us family and being in community???? The King of Glory, that’s Who!!! And we get to do this for eternity! Its only going to get better! We get to rejoice with one another in His Presence over His goodness and be floored by His excellence! What a mighty God we serve!

May His love and His peace and His joy wash over you in waves of refreshing!

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam

April 2021

 

Greetings Saints!

Doesn’t that verse thrill your soul! You can feel the goosebumps that must have run through their souls when the angels said, “Why do you seek the living among the dead? He is not here, but has risen!” (Luke 24:5-6) Hallelujah! And herein lies our whole hope. We do not serve a dead god but a living God! Who came for us, who made a way for us into the Holy of holies, who did for us what we could not do for ourselves. He redeemed us from every imaginable snare. Made a way for us to be set free from anything that could possibly entangle us and keep us from reaching Him. This is why we are without excuse. If we were still responsible for offering a sacrifice for our sins we could say, I have no transportation to get to the temple, my flight was canceled because of Covid. Or, until my stimulus check comes, I just can’t afford a lamb. And then when it does come, we could say, well so many other bills were due, there just wasn’t enough left over to pay for the sacrificial animal. Or, every time I go to the temple that priest is so arrogant and rude to me, I’ll never step into that place again, they’re a bunch of hypocrites. But because He is risen, we are without excuse. As my pastor said this past Sunday, our High Priest is already in heaven! The sacrifice that ended all sacrifices has been made! We don’t have to wait until we’re righteous enough, we simply have to accept His Righteousness. The highest priest could only enter into the Presence of God once a year, that’s how Holy He was and still is. His Holiness has not changed or diminished. He humbled Himself for our sake & said He will forego the honor He is worthy of anytime anyone enters into His Presence and will accept us coming to Him in arrogance and with accusations when we feel He has not held up His end of the deal. He is the same Holy God. After our pastor’s sermon yesterday on Hebrews 9, I’ve really been awestruck by how amazing it is that we can come before God as often as we want to. How great the moment was when the veil was torn in two!

This picture was taken this past Sunday down at Friemann Square. The woman I’m talking to was very tearful, has a lot of anxiety and fear. Her and her husband are living in someone’s basement. Her husband is not a Christian and she has a lot of mental and physical issues. I’m going to pick her up and spend some time with her this week. I don’t think it was quite 7am at this point, so not very many people had shown up yet. We had an awesome service with great worship even though we got sprinkled on and the wind picked up to the point that volunteers had to hold down each leg of the tent. We should have been singing, I’ll Fly away! The man who gave the message was speaking about how great and awesome the whole universe is and how God created it and how His whole Word is true. He said if you don’t like the truth in the Word and want to create your own truth, then create your own universe! J Good word!

Here’s the side view of one of our new 10 x 20 tents. We only put up one since it was in the 40s & we didn’t need the heaters, but it was certainly great to have this over the food when it started raining!

As I’ve mentioned Pam Harvey and myself have been going to a women’s shelter and a women’s halfway house (for women in recovery from addiction) and have been doing crafts with them. We’ve done crocheting, made jewelry, and now we’re painting rocks. This rock was painted by one of the women at

the shelter! She did it in just under 2 hours. She first drew it in pencil on the rock then set out painting. When we see a homeless person, we so often don’t consider their talents and abilities. Four of the homeless guys just helped me move 10 days ago. After moving my stuff in, they then went with me somewhere else to pick up furniture that was given to me. These guys moved couches, love seat, recliner, dining room table and chairs, after already moving in my bedroom furniture and personal things, as well as a ton of ministry stuff; books, paperwork, folding tables, tent, and coffee pots, slow cookers, its a lot! And they did it without complaint. They were such a blessing! Two of them are coming over this week to help me with a few other things around here. A homeless guy who lives in a tent, came up to me Saturday when we took the food downtown and brought me a bag of utensils for my kitchen since he’d heard I had just moved. In it was a strainer, a meat thermometer, a hand potato masher, whisk, serving spoons, all kinds of stuff. He’d found them in an alley where they’d been thrown out. I have no qualms about where they came from. I put them in the sink, washed them up & put them in the drawer! What a great family!

Jesus made the way for everyone of these to come to the throne, into the Holy of holies. We have the privilege of leading the way if they don’t already know, or of reminding them that the door is still open. I’ve been waiting since yesterday for a woman who’s trying to get off drugs to come here. She says she wants to leave her boyfriend and get clean. She keeps texting saying it’ll be just a little while and she’ll try to leave. I offered to go get her and then she told me to wait, that she’ll make it here. Even though I don’t want to put her name in here, please pray for her, that she’ll accept the sacrifice that was made for her freedom.

I’ve moved into the downstairs of a duplex that’s in a great location for ministry. I’m less than a mile from downtown where we have our Sunday morning outside service, and there’s a church a few houses from me that fixes bicycles for the homeless. The women’s shelter we go into on Thursdays is ½ mile from me to the south and there’s 2 other women’s halfway houses even closer than that to me! I’m praying the Lord will use this place to bless His Name! That it will be a place to have these women over for coffee, prayer, and a good time of soaking in the Lord.

Thank you so much for your contributions to all that we do. Thank you for your prayers. Thank you for being family. May the Lord bless you as you enjoy this Resurrection Sunday. Rejoice in the Lord always, again I say rejoice!

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam 

 

March 2021

Hello Saints!

From the time I wrote the February newsletter, to the time it reached you, our treasurer passed. It all happened so fast, it just seemed like a whirlwind hit and then it was gone and so was he. And we’re left with the wind knocked out of us, trying to get our footing to take the next step. Loss is so hard. He and his wife have a home in the country. The day he died, the well went dry and she has not had running water since. We know there is going to be a phenomenal message out of all this, but his wife is definitely not to the phenomenal part yet. She did make the discovery that it takes an unusually long time to melt enough snow to flush the toilet. If you’ve ever seen a baby colt trying to take it first steps, that’s where I see his wife right now. Her name is Beth. She works at a woman’s halfway house in Auburn and has a beautiful heart to rescue women. So now you know how to pray for her – I’m putting you on assignment.

As I was reading in Deuteronomy this morning, I was struck by all the offenses listed that I would have been put to death for, even rebellion as a teenager. God had no tolerance for that at all! For any of you who would like to let your children know how fortunate they are to be alive it’s in Deuteronomy 21:18-21. Many of us would not have lived past the age of 15! Its very humbling to serve a God who had so much mercy that He sent His Son to take our place.

Here are a couple of pictures from what we call the Friemann Square church, because normally it’s held in Friemann Square Park in the spring, summer and fall. This is where dad would still be preaching if he had of hung around. The morning these were taken, I think it might have been 9 degrees or so. In the top picture, the 3rd guy from the left, in the overalls is Mark Harvey. Him and his wife, Pam, have a powerful music ministry and they’ve shared this in Friemann Square for a number of years now. They’ve supported and participated with our ministry for more years than I can keep track of.

In the bottom picture, the guy on the right in the green coat, isn’t homeless as he looks. His name is Chief, (Steve Delarosa). He’s not only one of our board members, but he does worship and alternates with other men who give the Sunday message at this ministry. Chief brings the tents, the sheets of plastic to put up as sides, a generator, and some salamander heaters and that’s what makes this a real party.  I wish I could introduce you to all the volunteers, they are a phenomenal group of people.

“Coffee Dan” brings coffee, Ms. Glady brings homemade cookies, sausage sandwiches, and a ton of hugs, which she has done for multiple years! All the guys love her. Some men from a gas station bring donuts, milk and juice. What’s so unique about this, is that in different seasons, different people just show up, bringing their own flavor to the pot. There’s no committee, no board meetings, God is the overseer and the director.

This is the first winter, since we began participating with this ministry in 2010, that the services have remained outside all winter.  We’ve knocked on some doors and they’ve stayed shut. I honestly don’t know how the guys who live outside make it. After being out there with them for a few hours, I go home feeling traumatized.

We’re there from approximately 7 a.m. to 9:15 a.m., and one Sunday, I honestly did not feel warm until about 4pm! As I was pleading with the Lord one Sunday to please not let me lose any of my toes, (that was before I discovered the insertable foot warmers at Walmart), it didn’t make sense to me what we were still doing out there! Is this what church is really supposed to look like? I was perfectly comfortable getting down there about 7:15 after everything was set up, (after all I’m a girl), but the Lord showed me after that freezing day, that I needed to be more invested. So this last week, I went earlier and was actually the first one to arrive. When one of the homeless guys showed up, I told him to get in, and then a woman walked up, so she got in also. We sat in the car in the dark, it was 6:30 a.m. and talked. There was nothing uncomfortable about it, just sitting with family before church. When the equipment showed up, what unfolded was so beautiful to be a part of. As we worked, more homeless and volunteers came and everyone picked up something and contributed. I’d been part of the tearing down process and honestly thought that was enough for me. But seeing it from beginning to end made me see it totally different. This is exactly what church should look like. When Chief had told me a few weeks before that he was getting down there at 6:30, I thought “you go ahead on brother, I’ll just be finishing my first cup of coffee.” (There’s no need for all of us to be overachievers. J)

This is not to be condemning in any way, shape or form, because we are all called to something different, but we have such a view of how comfortable church should be, that it’s good to be reminded that it’s not about us. Watching the homeless jump in and work along side us, you’d never be able to pick them out from us and it reminds you that they are ordinary men who have talent, skill and value. Through this ministry we purchased two new 10 x 20 canopies this week with sides! Two of the ones we’re using are more than 10 years old and when we put them up some of the frame hangs down in the middle and the legs don’t quite latch right and have to be rigged up with grips to hold them in place. So thank you for continuing to support us because without you, we certainly wouldn’t be putting up new tents this Sunday, and we’re super excited about it. As me and Pam Harvey were on our way into the women’s mission yesterday to do crafts with them, we seen the guy who had sat in the car with me last Sunday morning and I told him about the new tents. He promised me he’d be there to help get them up. The family of God is so diverse, so beautifully unique.

As the verse at the beginning of this letter says, we can do all things through Christ, Who strengthens us. Where would we be without Him? Even in the hard times, it’s just better with Jesus. Have a wonderful month!

 

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam  

February 2021

Hello Saints!

I woke up early this morning thinking, if Jesus sent us a message through sweetheart candy, what would it look like? I’m pretty sure He was the first one who ever thought of asking us to “be Mine”. The other day I was reading the instructions in Leviticus for the priests of laying their hands on the head of the animal to be sacrificed for the sins of the people.  An image came into my head of Jesus on the cross and my hand reaching out to touch Him to transfer my sins onto Him.  It was heart wrenching.  Even though we have been taught it and have read it in the Word over and over again, that made His love so much deeper to me.

He was the original creator of love language. Yet in view of all the Hallmark cards and love songs that have been written, I’m pretty sure He doesn’t get much credit for it. Without Him, where would love have come from? “Beloved let us love one another, for love is of God, and everyone who loves is born of God and knows

God. He who does not love, does not know God, for God is love. In this the love of God was manifested towards us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world that we might live through Him. In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.”  I John 4:7-11  How’s that for a love story! And there’s more!!!  I John 4 gives us a wonderful outline on how to love one another through the love of God. It says when we love one another, God abides in us and His love has been perfected in us. We can walk in true love when we are His! I’ve never seen Valentines Day as a day to honor the Lord, but Who else has exhibited  such unconditional, selfless love for us? Who else keeps His hand extended no matter how many times we have walked past it, too busy to sit with Him, too preoccupied to dwell in His Presence? It’s easy to get so caught up in caring for others even, trying to fit one more thing to do for someone into the day, that I’ll find myself trying to do it all in my strength. I forget that He is the One who created my heart and through rebirth, has given me the compassion to even reach out to them.

I woke up at 3 a.m. and couldn’t go back to sleep thinking about everything that has to be done each day for the next week for the ministry, 3 halfway houses, the homeless, the recovery meeting… my brain was spinning. Then, in an instant, the Lord changed my whole thought process. I look at the calendar and everything on the “to do list”, and think, “what was I thinking?!” While someone else would look at it and become energized and excited at getting it all done. I became so grateful that this is what my life is now. That the challenges are no longer whether I am going to get evicted or not, or how long will I be without running water. But instead there’s this wonderful well of Living water that we have the privilege of being vessels for. He not only first made our hearts, but when we tainted them, He was completely willing to pave the way to remake them for us. So that’s what led me to think of Him as the very One we should honor this month as the absolute best lover of our soul.

He loves us so much, that He calls us His bride. He proposed to us before we were even born. Yes, I guess you could call it an arranged marriage, but the benefits are phenomenal! You may think I’m going a little overboard, but I have to tell you, I have fallen completely in love with This Guy all over again this morning!  I hope as you read this, your heart is crying out with a resounding “yes!” “I will & I do!”   Be  fully committed to the One who is fully committed to you. If you need a reference, I will vouch for Him, He says what He means and He means what He says! He is the Way, the Truth & the Life. He will never leave you nor forsake you. All His promises are yes and amen. “And the Spirit and the bride say, “Come!” And let him who hears say “Come!” And let him who thirsts come. Whoever desires, let him take the water of life freely.” Rev 22:17  FREE!!! Does it get any better?!!!!

And that takes us back to I John 4:19 “We love Him because He first loved us.” His word and His love are complete for us. We are completely cared for, completely held, completely secure because of who He is.

At the time of this writing, our treasurer has declined rapidly. He is only 6 weeks out from his cancer diagnosis and is now on hospice. Please agree with us as we speak against the devourer in the name of Jesus.

(I apologize if any of your end-of-year donor receipts were incorrect. Please do not hesitate to call me for a correction. It’s totally my fault. One of our supporters, who I am very grateful too, called to tell me I had left the amount out completely.) Its hard to understand suffering. Words fail. But Jesus does not. I had a dream a few nights ago. I was looking at this long winding, curvy, hilly road, with severe highs and lows. It was amazing how far I could see. I was on a journey that I was excited about because the destination was a place I’ve always dreamed of being and knew when I got there, I’d never lack for anything and the circumstances were going to be amazing. As I looked at the road ahead, the dips actually made me feel like I’d faint and I wondered if I’d remember how hard the trip was when I got there and all of a sudden all of my troubles would be over. Then I woke up.

He loves us. His plan for us is perfect. The journey is difficult but if we could see what’s ahead, we’d press on with every ounce of strength we could muster because it is going to be fantastic, beyond beautiful, absolutely everything we’ve ever hoped for.  “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.” Romans 8:18

“But if we hope for what we do not see, we eagerly wait for it with perseverance. Likewise, the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.” Romans 8:25-26. I had a dream minutes before the one about the road, of a stranger walking up to me who said he was sent to pray for me. Jesus has not left without One to intercede for us, not only does He intercede at the right hand of the Father, but He sent us a backup, the Holy Spirit.

As for the ministry, we are now going into a 3rd women’s shelter and teaching crafts. And our feeding the homeless has increased dramatically. It’s a busy time! I’m so grateful for all of you who have sown into our ministry. You would be amazed if you seen the crowd you are blessing! I can’t thank you enough for loving the Lord and being a part of our family.

Yesterday, I was on the phone with a dear brother, who actually makes up our envelopes each month. After sharing some of my stress, he prayed for me.  He was a friend of my parents and so it was like getting a fatherly hug through the phone! I didn’t ask for the prayer, he just did it. If the Lord puts it on your heart to pray with someone, don’t question it, don’t worry about it, just do it and He will be faithful to accomplish what He wants done with it. There is no value we can put on being part of the body of Christ, it is priceless!

Have a wonderful month and enjoy loving Jesus!

Your sister in Him,

Pam

January 2021

Hello Saints!

Has there ever been a greater time to rejoice in the presence of our Magnificent God Who is reigning victoriously?!!! He is still on the throne! His plans have not been altered, not one iota! I heard a pastor say there’s coming a time when there will be a sound that no one will be able to ignore.  I Thessalonians 4:16, “For the Lord Himself will descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of an archangel and with the trumpet of God.” As many people as who deny the Lord and say there is no God, in that moment I am 100% sure, no explanation will be needed! Every person on the face of the earth, from one continent to another, no matter what language they speak, no matter their background, rich or poor, democrat or republican, educated or not, sinner or saint, will know that sound! Isn’t that amazing! We are still on the side of victory! We have a God who will not be mocked. I was reading Revelation this morning, (is it any wonder I’m all wound up!) and in chapter 14:18 there’s a time when an angel says for the sickle to be cast into the clusters of the vine of the earth for her grapes are fully ripe. For the unbeliever that will be a terrifying moment. For the believer, an incredible time of triumph. God has declared the beginning from the end. Man can make all the plans they want to for this nation, for our government, for the world, but God’s Word is final.

This past Sunday I drove a homeless man from Fort Wayne to Rockholds, Ky. It’s about 5 ½ hours one way. I’ve taken him down there a few times over the years. He has family there in a couple small towns that will sometimes let him stay for the winter. He’s almost 60 and has been outside at least 20 years. I’ve talked about him in previous letters. He’s kind of famous in Ft Wayne. One winter he fell in the river drunk. Some people who were going around ministering to the homeless at their camps about 10 pm, on a freezing night, saw his head barely bobbing out of the river. They called the fire department. Only his nose and the top of his head was above the water, he was hypothermic and dying. They called me and asked me to head to the ER. I prayed over him as he was wrapped in plastic heated bags to bring up his body temperature. His soaking wet clothes that were cut off of him were lying in a pile on the floor. He was in intensive care for 4 days. I doubt he remembers I was there. No one knew that man had only moments to live but God, and in His mercy, He rescued him. Anyone who’s in homeless ministry here or who has been homeless, usually knows this man. I’ve been told he’s been pulled from the river at least 4 or 5 times over the years. This past Sunday we attended the morning service in the park and then headed south. Since he’d been up all night, he slept most of the way, which gave me a good opportunity to listen to some online messages. During the last hour heading there, I wondered how I was going to make it home. It was a good idea when I started out but at midday, my body was reminding me it was time for a Sunday nap. After dropping him off, on the way home I listened to Jeremiah Johnson and Lana Vawser. Both of them are prophetic ministers who really stir your heart for the things of God and then I began to worship. There’s an energy that flows from the throne that we can tap into. My heart began to soar and tears rolled down my face as I joined my voice to Hillsong worship music and exclaimed the majesty of God. Why do we deny ourselves this awesome experience? At any moment we can choose to turn our weariness into praise, to give our emotions to the one who created them so we can dance in His glory.

Our new treasurer, Jimmy, who replaced mom, (since she chose to desert her post, and yes, I’m still a little upset with her about that) has just been diagnosed with esophageal adenocarcinoma, stage 4. He’s not yet 50 years old. He and his wife have only been married 4 years. This came only 2 weeks after I’d sent out the December newsletter. In it, I’d written about 2 Chronicles 13:14, when Judah looked around and to their surprise the battle line was drawn both in front and at the rear! And suddenly, we were in that moment. How different it is when you’re reading the story, and being elated at seeing God’s hand overtake the enemy. You think, that’s just what they get! They should’ve known He’d show up! But the only way we can truly experience God’s glorious hand of deliverance is to be in the battle. And that moment of the unknown doesn’t feel glorious at all.

Also for the past 3 months, I’ve been dealing with recurring sickness. I’ve been tested for Covid three times, all negative, but cannot shake these cold, flu-like symptoms and it’s become quite draining to get up and make it through a day. Ongoing sickness leads to a slippery slope of trying to be victorious while walking in despair. To add to that, I didn’t think this being the one-year anniversary of mom’s death would affect me but honestly during the week of Christmas I wanted to draw the curtains and sink into retirement. I thought, what difference would it make if I quit ministering? There’s lots of people younger, stronger, more enthusiastic. Also, my sister’s husband continues to struggle with deteriorating health, the greatest guy in the world, why isn’t he healed?!!! With Jimmy now having this diagnosis, maybe we should roll up the carpet and put it away. On that 11-hour drive Sunday, the Lord showed me that what we should be rolling up is our sleeves! He’s not finished!

In Revelation chapter 2, The Lord exalts those who have persevered and have patience and have labored for His name’s sake and have not become weary. And He says to him who overcomes He will give to eat from the tree of life which is in the midst of the Paradise of God!  He who overcomes will not be hurt by the second death. To him who overcomes He will give some of the hidden manna to eat and He will give him a white stone with a new name written on it. He says He knows our works, love, service, faith, and again, our patience. He knows it all! He says hold fast what we have until He comes! “And he who overcomes and keeps My works until the end, to him I will give power over the nations.” In Chapter 3 He tells us that he who overcomes shall be clothed in white garments and He will not blot out his name from the Book of Life, but He will confess his name before His Father and the angels. He then says that he who overcomes He will make him a pillar in the temple of God and He will write on him the name of God! As I was reading in Chapter 8 today about the angel having much incense that he was offering with the prayers of the saints upon the golden altar, which was before the throne, tears rolled down my face. God has all our prayers before Him. He has not lost or misplaced one single one of them. It’s only natural that sometimes we will get weary, sometimes our emotions overcome our senses, but we can’t stay in that place of despair when we serve a God who will not fail! We either believe His word or we don’t.

This morning while praying for Beth and Jimmy the Lord told me this is a mountain we can speak to. When we found out about Jimmy, I’m ashamed to admit it but I honestly felt I had no words of hope for them. During this season last year I was totally believing for mom’s healing and it didn’t happen. Now, how could I give anyone else all the scriptures I had believed in for her? God never failed. His word never fails. We have to trust Him for the things we don’t understand because as He says, His ways are higher than ours. Whatever His reason, that’s His business. If He says speak to a mountain, speak to it! He’s not the God of the dead but of the living.  He then told me that my own health is a mountain I can speak to. I’m happy to say that I have been up for 4 ½ hours, breathing clearly, and have taken no sinus medicine and have no sinus headache! That may sound small, but for me, it’s huge! A little ditty came into my head; Gone, Gone, Gone, cast into the sea, Gone, Gone, Gone, no longer to bother me. Gone, Gone, Gone, the demons have to flee, Gone, Gone, Gone, cast into the sea! Put your own tune to it. Speak it, sing it, believe it! I know it sounds elementary, but we don’t need to be a theologian to use the power of God. I then started singing Miriam’s song, that comes from Exodus 15: “I will sing unto the Lord for He has triumphed gloriously, the horse and it’s rider thrown into the sea! The Lord, My God, My Strength, My Song, has now become my victory!”

In Revelation 17:12-14, the word is talking about the ten horns which is the ten kings who receive authority to be kings with the beast, they are of one mind with evil power & authority. They make war with the Lamb (what are they thinking?) and “the Lamb will overcome them because He is Lord of lords and King of kings, and those who are with Him are called chosen and faithful.” There is no opposition that can stand against our Lord! There is no power on earth that can oppose Him and win! He is the ultimate authority on everything!  It doesn’t matter how many government leaders put their heads together with how many nations, they are going to have a day of reckoning when all their plans will be shattered. The Lamb is the One called Faithful and True! When you look at His power and authority you have to come to the conclusion that in comparison, healing our sicknesses is not a hard thing for Him. Isaiah 53:5 “But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities, The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed.”

Not one word of the bible will ever be made null and void. It’s as valid today as the day it was spoken from the mouth of God.

I did not intend for this to be a long letter, but what a great way to start off the year by proclaiming His word! I so wish I could infuse into you the fragrance of the Lord and His victory and give you what He has given to me over the past 2 days. May He renew your strength and fill your home with His fragrance, may the energy of heaven flow into your spirit and refresh you from the inside out! If this doesn’t work, take an 11-hour drive and listen to the word of the Lord until it soaks you through and through! Another song to lift your spirits, “Oh Victory in Jesus, my Savior forever, He sought me and He bought me with His redeeming blood. He loved me err I knew Him and all my love is due Him, He plunged me to victory beneath the cleansing flood.” If you don’t know the tunes to these old songs, call me, and I will be happy to sing them with you! 260-445-5617. The word says do not forsake the assembling of yourselves together. He tells us to stir one another up! If you feel you can’t get out to get some encouragement, then call me, call a family member, call a friend, call someone! My sister and I have often called one another in distress and once we get to recalling what the word says & what the Lord has done, it won’t be long before we’re both feeling encouraged and the situation starts to look different.

In your weariness know that the Lord has not left you without hope. Know that He sees you. He hears you. He has given you enough strength. You will not only get through today, but you will get through everyday He has purposed for you. Pull up your bootstraps. Clean off your sword. His strength is not only sufficient but it is more then enough. I began writing this letter yesterday, which was when I wrote about rolling up the carpet and putting it away. This morning right before I woke up, I had a dream; I was in a motel and left my room for something, only intending to be away for a few minutes, and somehow I got caught up in this whole day of service work for an event that was going on of helping with food and serving. It was hours later when I was heading back to my room and I was thinking, what a day it had turned out to be! There was a big crowd outside my motel that I was working my way through when a man tapped me on the shoulder. It startled me. I turned around and he was a foreigner, like from Scandinavia (I don’t know why I thought that), and he was holding up this long thin rug, maybe 8 feet long by 3 ft wide, red and gold, unrolled that he was bringing me as a gift! It was obviously tattered and worn, but the message was clear. We need to keep the carpet unrolled! We need to keep receiving whoever the Lord sends to us. Do the next thing the Lord puts in front of you. It may seem small, it may seem like what’s the use, it may interrupt our plans, but He sees it and He will see us through all of it. Its through all of us that He’s working out the details of getting this banquet together!

Saints, we can’t give up! Press on towards the prize! Continue praying for the election, continue claiming the victory for your loved ones, continue believing and thanking God for healing, continue giving all the glory to God!  I feel like I aired all my dirty laundry in pouring my struggles out in this letter, but I want you to free yourself from condemnation for when your faith feels faint, & know that we serve a God who can resuscitate even us! Onward Christian Soldiers!

Father God, I lift up every reader of this letter and ask that right now Your Holy Spirit would activate the giftings You have placed inside each of them. Let supernatural faith arise, special faith, faith that believes You are Who You say You are and that You will do all You say You will do. Let a shout arise within them that feels like fire in their bones. Let healing virtue flow through their bodies and anoint their hands for healing miracles. Open their eyes to see what You see and hear from heaven as they never have before. Let so much joy flow through them that their feet become happy feet and a song wells up from within them. We give You all the glory for being magnificent, for being mighty, for sending us Jesus and making Him the King of kings and Lord of lords. We thank You for the impartation of the Holy Spirit from Whom we receive power. Thank You that we are a blessed people and a royal priesthood. May we honor You in all we do.

In Jesus name, Amen.

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam  

December 2020

Hello Saints!

Oh how we love the picture of baby Jesus in the cradle! The entrance of our Savior into the world. How great and mighty and awesome and merciful is our God! He did not leave us without a remedy. He refused to abandon us. He is the God Who cannot lie, Who will not break covenant with His people. No matter what it cost Him. Imagine watching a show where there is a defendant on trial, who is poor, with no kind of life, who lives with reckless abandon. He has an attorney who has a lavish home with a beautiful wife and perfectly behaved children. They travel, having wonderful holidays. The attorney has many accomplishments, is very well dressed & drives a top of the line automobile. On the day the defendant goes to receive his life sentence, it actually doesn’t appear to be any loss to society because he’s never accomplished anything and more than likely will never be a productive member of society, yet the attorney turns to the defendant and says, “I’ll take your sentence.” Everyone would be astounded at what that attorney was giving up for a man who looks to be less than nothing. Yet that is exactly what Jesus did! Thank You Jesus for coming for us!

I’ve never understood the first chapter of Matthew. What was the point of that whole line-up of Joseph’s descendants? Last week I felt the Lord tell me to read through it again. While reading the names easily recognized from the Old Testament, it dawned on me how rich that history is. Jesus had an earthly father who’s lineage was full of both men who loved and honored God, all the way to the extreme of Manasseh, who was horribly evil, even to the point of satanic practices in the temple of the Lord. Yet Jesus had a heavenly Father that separated Him from all the sins of Joseph’s fathers. Just like us! We don’t have to walk in generational curses from our forefathers because our heavenly Father separated us from all that when we became a new creation in Christ. We received a brand new blood line! Since we were adopted in, we can now claim the inheritance of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.

So this morning I started looking up some of the names of the earthly ancestors of Jesus that I wasn’t too familiar with. In Matthew 1:7, there’s Abijah, a past king of Judah. His story is in 2 Chronicles 13. Israel and Judah are about to have a war. Remember they came from the same family, one nation that became divided. As I was reading it, it struck me how similar it is to our nation today. Picture that the Christians in America are Judah and the rest of our nation is Israel in this story. Vs 9: “Have you not cast out the priests of the Lord, the sons of Aaron and the Levites and made for yourselves priests, like the peoples of other lands, so that whoever comes to consecrate himself with a young bull and seven rams may be a priest of things that are not gods?” Anyone can go online now and become ordained as a minister. I’ve met a few people who in their active addiction and ungodly living have told me how they went online and got a ministers license. One woman told me she did it to perform the wedding ceremonies of her friends. A couple years ago, downtown, there was a day honoring all religions, where each religion displayed their costumes and demonstrated the dances and rituals that were part of their worship to their gods. A public display of pagan worship. I only seen clips of it on the news but was so saddened to see how society wants us to embrace all “cultures”. This was the same thing King Abijah was talking about. Vs 10: “But as for us, the Lord is our God and we have not forsaken Him;…” Vs 11: …..“for we keep the command of the Lord our God, but you have forsaken Him.” Vs 12: “Now look, God Himself is our head”….. “do not fight against the Lord God of your fathers, for you shall not prosper!” (I’m not putting  the complete scriptures for the sake of space.)

Our God is the God of our forefathers and of this nation. This nation can rebel against Him all they want to, but they shall not prosper! We are standing firm in our decision to honor Him,  to say He is our head!  We will not be swayed, nor shall we forsake our belief in Him. Vs 12: “And when Judah looked around, to their surprise the battle line was at both front and rear; and they cried out to the Lord, and the priest sounded the trumpets.” In this season, it suddenly seems like the battle is both in front of us and behind us. Guess who the priests are? We are! I Peter 2:9 says we are a “chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation… that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.” Stand firm saints! Cry out to the Lord! Proclaim His praises! It doesn’t matter what the battle looks like. In verse 15, it tells us the men of Judah gave a shout and as they shouted “it happened that God struck Jeroboam and all Israel before Abijah and Judah.” Vs 16, “…and God delivered them into their hand.”

The word the Lord gave me about this was “in an unprecedented move.” That phrase keeps coming to me. He moved for them in an unprecedented move, just as He is going to move for us in this season in an unprecedented move. Get out your victory shoes and give the Lord a shout! Vs 18: “Thus the children of Israel were subdued at that time, and the children of Judah prevailed because they relied on the Lord God of their fathers.” Imagine the United States of America becoming subdued under the hand of Almighty God and the church prevailing. Can it happen? Do we serve the same God that Abijah served and the founding fathers of this nation? Is the Word of God true? Absolutely, Absolutely, Absolutely!!! Hold on through the shaking. Take your eyes off the chaos. Do not be discouraged if it looks like we’re surrounded because the God Who created all things can never be surrounded or outnumbered. He is the One we put our trust in. He is the One we look to for our deliverance. He is our Provider. He is our Deliverer. He is the One who made trees for the healing of nations. (Why did He do that if nations can’t be healed?) It is still His will that none should perish. He is still the author and the finisher of our faith.

Some ministry news: I’ve started working part-time and volunteering part-time at a women’s shelter. For 15 hours a week, 5pm-10pm, I get paid less than minimum wage, & the rest of the things I do for them during the day: taking them to appointments, the store, laundry mat, parole/probation, or to another town if that’s what their situation calls for, are on my own time; but my time is the Lord’s, so it’s all even in the end. There are a lot of challenges but it’s also very rewarding.  Unique opportunities come up at very unexpected moments to share the love of the Lord with them. A lot of people have no idea how valuable and precious they are to the Lord until we tell them. The only reason I share my hourly wage, is because the money has to be irrelevant when the Lord sends you. Be encouraged if a door opens and the money is not an amount that looks favorable, the Lord will meet all your needs. The way He will enrich your life will be beyond anything you could have hoped for.

May God fill you with awe & wonder as He reveals Himself to you in ways you never expected.

Have a blessed Christmas as you rejoice over the reasons we celebrate Him!

Your Sister in Jesus!

 Pam

 

November 2020

Hello Saints!

“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;  and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” (Phillipians 4:6-7 NKJV). What a blessing He returns to us when we give thanks, peace that passes all understanding, our hearts and minds being guarded through Jesus. If all my thoughts were filtered through Jesus before they hit my brain, I’d be one happy camper! I obviously need to give thanks more often. I don’t know about the rest of you, but it is taking a concentrated effort to not be on pins and needles about this election.  I know I’ve shared with you before how much I love the story of King Hezekiah in 2 Kings, chapters 18-19, but it certainly comes to mind again with all that is going on. King Sennacherib had sent his servant Rabshakeh, (I don’t know how you pronounce that but when I sound it out, I get Rob-shaketh, like the one who comes to rob & shake us), to tell the people all that he would do for them and how the God of Hezekiah could not save them. Sennacherib even wrote it all out. So Hezekiah took his written words into the house of the Lord and spread them out before the Lord and said, “O Lord, God of Israel, the One who dwells between the cherubim, You are God, You alone, of all the kingdoms of the earth. You have made heaven and earth. Incline Your ear, O Lord and hear; open Your eyes O Lord, and see; and hear the words of Sennacherib, which he has sent to reproach the living God.”  Right now a lot of words are being spoken that are a reproach before the living God. We can lay it all before Him and we can say what Hezekiah said in 19:19, “Now therefore, O Lord our God, I pray, save us from his hand, that all the kingdoms of the earth may know that You are the Lord God, You alone.” God responded to Hezekiah that because he had prayed to Him against Sennacherib, that He had heard. We know we have a God that hears and sees and Who is for us and not against us. The Lord sent an angel out in the night that destroyed the enemy while Hezekiah was able to lay down and sleep. We can rest in our Defender. He is the Righteous One. He neither sleeps nor slumbers. How grateful we can be that we know the One Who will rise up and fight for us. Even though we will not know the results this week, or maybe even this whole month, we can spend our days in thanksgiving, rejoicing because the battle belongs to the Lord.  No matter what Washington does or says, our future is sure, our provision is infinite, our security cannot be shaken. We stand on the Rock that has stood before the beginning of time and will remain into eternity long after all this has passed away. If He is for us, who can be against us! Hallelujah!

Earlier this week I went to a women’s halfway house, about 40 minutes from here, where I am teaching a woman how to crochet. She is only four months or so clean from drugs and is about to have surgery on her ankle and foot, so she wants to learn how to do something to help pass her time while she is recovering. My good ministry friend, Pam Harvey, met me there and it was a beautiful time of fellowship and ministry. The woman we were visiting wasn’t feeling well and was teary, so of course, I hugged her and let her cry on my shoulder. Two days later the halfway house called me to tell me she was Covid positive. My friend Pam, who’s smarter than me, had sat across from me and the woman, so avoided the up close exposure. These last two days I’ve felt pretty rough, but am looking forward to a few days from now when I expect to be feeling much better.

Last night, my roommate and I watched a show called “Freedom Sunday, 2020, with Tony Perkins” I’d seen it on the TCT channel and then we were able to pull it up on YouTube to watch it in it’s entirety. It’s a variety of pastors, General Boykin, and Dr. Dan Erickson. They look at what the scriptures say about churches meeting, what the constitution has to say, what physicians are saying, and what the church’s response should be. It’s very informative and uplifting. It exposes the enemy’s plan and encourages us in our position in Christ. One statement that has stuck with me is if we feared sin as much as we’ve feared Covid, we’d have already been in revival! I hope that strikes you the way it struck me. We’ve allowed man to put a fear in us that God has not been able to. Covid may lead to death, but sin definitely leads to death!

They also pointed out how when the churches closed, chaos abounded with the riots and violence that erupted. We may think the churches have not had much impact on society since it seems that sin has been gaining ground, but the absence of light definitely allows the darkness to increase immediately.

We need to believe in the power of the God we serve. We need to work while it is still day (John 9:4). Let us not grow weary in doing good (Gal 6:9). Take courage in knowing how many churches and saints around this nation have been praying and fasting for the hand of God to move in this nation. We are not alone in this! We have a huge family that is seeking God, His wisdom and His mercy that we belong to. It’s a beautiful season of thanksgiving. As I was driving the other day, I thought about how the power of God flows through each home. He gave us the water, He gave us the natural gas, and He gave us electricity. His power flows through every single home and people don’t even realize it! How amazing He is, that knowing we would be a fallen people, He wanted us to have such comfort.

Since the prisons are still closed to us, ministry has looked different but the Lord is definitely not short of suggestions. I’m sure you husbands can relate to this, when you’ve went to do a project around the house and then found out you couldn’t get the materials, in your mind you’re thinking, whoo-hoo free-time! Then you’re wife says, but you could do this…. and this needs done…., and before you know it, the whole day is gone. Many of my days get so busy, it leaves my head swimming. But at the end of the day it’s completely satisfying. We helped a 71-year-old homeless man find an apartment this month, which took a lot of hours of driving from place to place because he had a lot of issues as to why landlords wouldn’t rent to him and we were running out of options. But even when it looked hopeless, I went and got him again and we set out and just kept knocking on doors until the Lord opened one! But you just can’t put someone in an apartment and leave them there, it also involved buying him enough to food to last him until his check came at the beginning of this month. Last Sunday, during our early morning church service in the park, I seen a homeless woman huddled up on a park bench, very cold, and asked her if she’d like to go to church with me so she could sit inside and get warm for a few hours. She said yes. She ended up spending 4 nights at our house this week. We’ve days trying to help her get in someplace. The obstacle is that she has no I.D. and mental health issues. Then yesterday, unexpectedly, the Lord opened a door. We paid for the first two weeks, hoping that during that time she will be able to access her disability check and then be able to pay for herself. It’s just been difficult for her with no identification and all of her focus being on how to survive outside. I spent an afternoon at a women’s halfway house in Auburn, teaching them how to make puppets that we then donated to a woman who was having a craft sale to raise money for expenses for her family as her husband needs a kidney transplant.  I took a homeless, pregnant woman, who has no family here, to her ultrasound, (and sat with her through it) who had considered aborting her baby, but has now decided to keep him. I sat with another woman through her emergency room visit who is once again trying to get clean and get out of an abusive relationship. One weekend I made chicken noodle soup and chicken sandwiches for the homeless. I’ve also continued with the Monday night meetings at Faith Based Mentoring for people in recovery, which has been awesome.

Unexpected things keep popping up. The Lord says this is next and we say okay. It’s praying with people who feel they are out of options or like the storm is going to overwhelm them and watching the peace of God come over them, knowing the battle belongs to Him and He loved them first! As I was praying one day for a homeless woman, the Lord wrapped me in His embrace, letting me know it would be okay because He could hold me and her at the same time and my heart didn’t have to be anxious about whether He would come through or not.

I want to encourage you as you take extra time this month to be intentionally thankful, that you bask in the goodness of the Lord. Think about His natural power flowing through your home through the heat, the water and the electric. How could we not be filled with His goodness! Breathe Him in. Give Him the glory that is due His Name. “O Lord, how manifold are Your works! In wisdom You made them all. The earth is full of Your possessions.” “I will sing to the Lord as long as I live, I will sing praise to my God while I have my being. May my mediation be sweet to Him, I will be glad in the Lord.”                         (Psalm 104:24, 33 & 34)

Be blessed and have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

Your Sister in Jesus!

 Pam

October 2020

Hello Saints!

Grace and peace to you through Jesus Christ our Lord! What a glorious weekend it was in Washington, D.C. On September 26th! I attended the Jonathan Kahn event at the National Mall; The Return, while at the same time Franklin Graham was having the Prayer Walk. Tens of thousands of Christians gathered between both events seeking the Lord for healing for our nation. It felt like an old testament moment. At first, it seemed odd to me that two leaders would be having two separate events at the same time & I wondered why they didn’t come together for one huge event. But while there, it simply demonstrated the unity of the body of Christ, covering a whole city! It wasn’t in opposition to one another. It was for the same purpose, of one mind and one accord, to pray for one nation under God, to push back the darkness that is trying to overtake our country, to claim back what the enemy has stolen, to repent for unrepentance, to kneel in humility and submit ourselves to the ultimate Authority. What a powerful moment when they asked everyone to kneel to repent for abortion. There was such a reverence it caused me to weep. I’m grateful we have a God who is capable of reversing all the evil we have done. He is the repairer of the breach. Through sin, we separated from Him and He sent a bridge in the form of His Son so that none would perish. Even though the breach was our fault, He took it upon Himself to fix it. How mighty and merciful is our God. His love unfailing, never ending, enduring forever. To be in love with Him is to be alive. He separated us from death when Jesus conquered it. “See then that you walk circumspectly, not as fools, but as wise, redeeming the time, because the days are evil.” (Eph 5:15-16) We have the option to walk in wisdom and redeem the time!

Last week during the weekly prayer meeting at our church, I had a vision of being an oil lamp, with oil being poured in from above, and this light shining upward from my core, a beautiful flame burning extremely bright from the richness of the oil. It’s one of those moments you just soak in. The Lord reminded me that the lamp cannot do anything to create the oil, to earn the oil, or to enhance the quality of the oil. Yet the lamp is completely necessary because without it, no one would ever know the light the oil produces, and they’d be lost in darkness. The lamp only has to abide in the house of the One who fills it.

During one of the worship times Saturday, it dawned on me that we were on the East coast and the Lord reminded me of a vision I had several years ago while praying. As I was kneeling, I heard all these voices in heaven, a big commotion of shouting and celebrating. I asked the Lord, “What is going on up there!!!” And the words became clear to me. Over and over they were shouting, “Revival has been granted! Revival has been granted! Revival has been granted! Revival has been granted!” Suddenly I seen myself standing barefoot on a big map of the United States. My feet were on Indiana and this flood of oil was rushing towards me coming across the state of Ohio, it hit my feet and gushed over them heading west. It came from the east!

We are in an exciting season. I heard Dutch Sheets saying that anytime revival has come, it certainly didn’t look like it was coming. This isn’t a time for business as usual. Look for God. Look for ways to bring Him into your situation. Yesterday I had to go meet with a couple and there seemed no hope that it would be a pleasant meeting. During my prayer time, the Lord showed me to start with worship. Which, while you’re home, in worship, sounds like a wonderful idea, but when you walk in someone’s home that you’ve never been in and the circumstances are less than pleasant, seems awkward. However, I know enough about God to know He’s smarter than me, so even though my faith was fading, I asked them if we could spend a little time in worship before we started talking. As the song played and we each began glorifying the Father, everything changed completely. It was like honey had been poured in the atmosphere. Nothing could have been sweeter than the time we spent together. “There remains therefore a rest for the people of God. For he who has entered His rest has himself also ceased from his works as God did from His. Let us therefore be diligent to enter that rest, lest anyone fall according to the same example of disobedience.” (Hebrews 4:9-11) Had I have been disobedient we would not have entered into the rest of God. Had I not have ceased from my works at that moment, me trying to figure it out and having my own agenda, we would not have had such a beautiful outcome. His ways are certainly better than ours.

Later the same day, a friend who has not surrendered his life to the Lord, called to tell me he has a lump on his breast. He’s very concerned. I told him we would just rebuke that in the name of Jesus. He said he’d like it if I could come and pray with him. I’ve known him at least 7 years and although we have had many conversations about God, he has never asked me for prayer. Last night was also our Monday night Faith Based Mentoring meeting for recovering addicts. Since he lives in that neighborhood, I told him I would stop by after the meeting. At the end of the meeting, when almost everyone was out of the building, a woman asked to speak to me privately and she said very quietly, “it’s time for me to give my life to Jesus.” She wanted me to have the man who spoke come pray for her and two of the other mentors joined us. What a beautiful moment!!! Hallelujah Jesus!!! This was totally unexpected! So I got to go from there to pray healing for my friend and by the end of the night, there was nothing to do but to glorify God for His hand moving throughout all those situations. The reason I’m sharing this is because I believe the Holy Spirit is moving to draw people to the Father, even when we don’t be expect it. This is the time for our lamps to be full! Be the light that people are drawn to when they’re looking for someone to pray with.

There was more to yesterday, which could have made it seemed overwhelming, it’s the life we all live, but Jesus changes our outlook. At one point after dropping someone off at home who I had taken to a doctors appointment, I was thinking of what a beautiful day it had been so far, and then realized that it had been shifting between mist and rain all day, chilly, and yet my heart was under the illusion that it had been a beautiful sunny day! How does that happen? Because of Who He is! Look for God in all things. During the night, I had my arms raised over my head, praying, and I started noticing this light fragrance. I said, “Is that You, Lord?” Then I realized it was my deodorant, true story. (But good to know it has that kind of staying power since I had put it on the morning before, I never cease to humor myself.) At one point during the worship in Washington, every time I waved my hand over my head, there was a warm pocket of air directly over my head, cooler on the left, cooler on the right, but warm in the middle. I said, “Is that You, Lord?” J Look for Him! He says when we seek Him, we will find Him and He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.

This weekend I have the wonderful opportunity to join another ministry for a service at the Little Sandy Correctional Facility in Sandy Hook, Kentucky. The prison has agreed to allow a 3-hour service outside the fence, meaning that we will be on the outside of the fence and the inmates will be inside the fence. At this point, we’ll take what we can get and are truly grateful for it. Also ironically enough, someone I had been in prison with during one of my incarcerations, (we spent a few years together) sent me a friend request on Facebook that I responded to last night. We called each other “cousin” back then. She had a 50-year sentence. I’m not sure how long she’s been out. She lives in Indianapolis, which I will be driving through on my way to the prison in a couple days! So we’re going to meet during her lunch break. Isn’t God strategic!

Be blessed dear friends! Enter in His rest. Trust in Who He is and what He has provided for you. Read Hebrews and if that doesn’t help you, read the whole Bible! “Therefore He is also able to save to the uttermost those who come to God through Him, since He always lives to make intercession for them.” Hebrews 7:25 He can save to the uttermost! There’s nothing, no one, no situation He can’t handle! He is interceding on your behalf! He is for you, therefore who can be against you.

Your sister in Jesus,

  Pam

September 2020

Hello Saints!

Bless the Lord, O my soul! O Lord my God, You are very great; You are clothed with splendor and majesty. (Psalm 104:1) Wouldn’t you like to catch a picture of that?!!! It’s too great to even imagine! Our phones would burn up from the image! Every other picture we have ever taken would pale in comparison. If only we thought we could capture it, would we ever dare to focus our camera anywhere else? The sheer beauty would melt your heart and drop you to your knees. The incredible awesomeness of His majesty! Last week in church I had this picture come in my head during worship of the glory of God hovering over the lake behind our church and in an instant, I knew I was breathing in His glory! Imagine it with me for a moment! What would you feel like if every time you drew in a breath, you knew tiny particles of God’s glory were slipping into your lungs? Don’t you feel better already?!!! It’s an incredible thought! As I’ve pondered this throughout the week I’ve thought how do we know we’re not breathing in His glory everyday? How could we not be? He’s been in heaven for all eternity. His Spirit was hovering over the earth at the beginning of creation. Could the particles of His glory ever dissipate? Would they ever disappear into nothingness? What stops His glory that’s radiating from Him right now at this moment from coming through our atmosphere? Can anything stand against His glory? Certainly not! You’ve probably figured out that I’m not a rocket scientist (J), so I have no idea what happens when the astronauts are coming back into our atmosphere and the outer shell of there spacecraft gets burned up, but do you think that would be fierce enough to burn to bits the glory of God? I don’t think so! Ephesians 2:2 talks about the “the prince of the power of the air, the spirit who now works in the sons of disobedience.” So if satan is dwelling in the atmosphere above the earth, could he stop God’s glory from reaching us? Not a chance! We’re always praying and singing, “God show us Your glory,” what if we’re already walking around in the overflow of it and we’ve just been too caught up in everything else to see it? So many times this week, I’ve made myself be aware that I’m breathing in His glory through the air, and every time, instantly, I felt revived! Even when I was driving through the countryside and the air got a little “fragrant” from the farm animals, I knew, even that, could not stop the radiance of His glory.

Exodus 33:18-33 “Then Moses said, “I pray You, show me Your glory!” And He said, “I Myself will make all My goodness pass before you, and will proclaim the name of the Lord before you; and I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and will show compassion on whom I will show compassion.” But He said, “You cannot see My face, for no man can see Me and live! Then the Lord said, “Behold, there is a place by Me, and you shall stand there on the rock; and it will come about, while My glory is passing by, that I will put you in the cleft of the rock and cover you with My hand until I have passed by. Then I will take My hand away and you shall see My back, but My face shall not be seen.”  When God passed by Moses I bet that made Moses’ hair stand on end! Isn’t it fantastic to think about! This is the almighty, powerful God that we serve! The creator of all things! Moses was only a man, overwhelmed by all the responsibility he had at the moment, and he simply let God know he just needed to see His glory and God obliged.

Exodus 24:16-17 “Now the glory of the Lord rested on Mount Sinai, and the cloud covered it six days. And on the seventh day He called to Moses out of the midst of the cloud. The sight of the glory of the Lord was like a consuming fire on the top of the mountain in the eyes of the children of Israel.”  How amazing His glory must be! And yet He gives us access to it! John 11:40 “Jesus said to her, “Did I not say to you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God?” Jesus was talking to Martha, the sister of Lazarus, right as He was about to call Lazarus from the grave. Every time we see someone receive Christ as their Savior, we see the glory of God, as we watch them being called from the grave.

Last night I was at a tent revival being held by Pastor Pat Haskins, from Light of Faith Center. On the way there I had picked up two girls, ages 6 & 7, and took them with me. Towards the end of the service, I took them forward and asked Pastor Haskins to pray over them for protection (because of their home environment), and relief from the nightmares they have. He took it a step further and asked them to ask Jesus into their hearts. After praying the prayer, this beautiful happiness came over both of them. The Pastors wife played a final song and the girls danced and laughed. Their whole countenance had changed. It was the glory of God that had entered into them.

Earlier this year, as I was praying one morning, the Lord told me to stop praying right then and go pray with a woman who I had seen working at a doctor’s office. I did not know the woman, had only said hi to her in passing, so this was a little awkward. I went, praying on the way that the Lord would prepare her heart. I went to her desk and asked if I could speak to her privately. When I told her the Lord told me to come pray for her, her eyes filled with tears, and she said as she was driving to work that morning she asked the Lord to give her a reason to believe in Him. She asked me to pray for her daughter who was a heroin addict. When I asked her daughters name, as the Lord would have it, I know her daughter. We prayed, cried, & rejoiced. Two nights ago, I received a phone call that her daughter had just died of an overdose. I could pause right here for days. It’s the type of thing that leaves you heartbroken and stumped.

Yesterday morning despite little sleep, I knew I needed to get up and go down to the church service for the homeless in the park. I didn’t tell anyone what had happened. During worship the tears started rolling down my face. While my eyes were closed I felt a swoosh as a forceful gust of wind hit the side of my face and another hit the side of my back. I can’t describe it adequately, it came out of nowhere, two separate short gusts simultaneously. I opened my eyes, there was no one near me, no wind blowing. And the thought hit me, did an angel just land beside me? I closed my eyes. They were singing, Holy, Holy, Holy, and in my mind’s eye, I seen this regal, strong figure of an angel kneeling beside me in honor of the majesty of the Lord. The most beautiful awe-inspiring image you have ever seen. Within a few minutes I was kneeling on the concrete also. Such an incredible sense of worship filled my heart that I was sure multiple people were kneeling all around me. When the last song ended, I opened my eyes to stand up and the whole space around me was empty, but there was no doubt in my mind that I was not alone as I knelt there. Something amazing transpired over the next 20 minutes. Normally during the message, multiple conversations are going on all over the place, people moving around, sometimes arguing, or an ambulance might even come for someone having a drug seizure, the distractions are continuous. But this hush had settled on the park. Almost everyone was sitting or standing quietly and they paid attention to the Word! The man spoke from the passage of Jesus being in the boat in the midst of the storm. The peace in that place was indescribable, just as it must have been when the waves stopped as Jesus spoke.

His glory trumps our pain. His glory heals us when we acknowledge it. I heard a preacher recently say that in order to have peace that passes understanding, we have to surrender our right to understand.  I truly believe the Lord sent that angel to show me to take my eyes off the circumstance and put my eyes on Him. He confirmed it with the message, to quit looking at how big the storm is and to remember the authority of the Son of Man to silence it. Throughout the day yesterday I had multiple times when the tears flowed uncontrollably. Of course we’ll feel the pain, and then we learn how to comfort others with the comfort with which we ourselves have been comforted. (2 Corinthians 1:4). But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us. (2 Corinthians 4:7). His word says it all so much better than I ever could.

This month has been full of buying groceries and clothes for homeless and a few people who have recently been released from prison and are starting over, as well as providing multiple rides to appointments for single moms, and even taking a homeless woman to her family in Michigan, after she’s been living here in a tent for a few years, & trying to give hope to those still in active addiction, praying their eyes will be opened to the love of the Father. Every day, we just do what the Lord puts before us. May the God of heaven and earth, the creator of all things, fill you to overflowing as you breathe in His glory!

Your sister in Jesus!

Pam

August 2020

Hello Saints!

Blessing and glory and wisdom, thanksgiving and honor and power and might be to our God forever and ever! Amen! (Rev 7:12) He is Lord. He has not abandoned the throne and He is worthy of our praise!  We all know the scripture about abiding in Him but how great it is to revisit it and dwell on it. Let it sink into your spirit. When we abide in Him, we are in the shelter of the Most High. While meditating and praying into this, I had a picture of a vein deep in the tissue. That vein abides. It is completely protected on all sides while it delivers life-giving blood to the rest of the body. It doesn’t fear attack or fear the unknown, because it is surrounded. It feels the heartbeat of the one it is dependent on with each surge of blood. Can you imagine abiding in the Father like that! That thought transported me completely this morning! It’s totally transforming to see yourself abiding so deep in His presence.

To apply it to our purpose; the people we see who need Jesus are the parts of our body that are suffering an attack from something that was sent to destroy the body. We are the vein that can carry life-giving blood to them. Just as we are dependent on our own veins carrying healthy blood to the diseased parts of our body, needing them to fulfill their role when we are suffering from a sickness, so is the purpose of the body of Christ. There is no other way people can get the life saving blood that was shed to bring the healing they need than through us, the branches. Just think what would happen if when a disease hit our body, if all our veins rolled up and hid trying to protect only themselves, we would surely die instantly. Don’t let fear cause you to roll up during this time, abide in the Father. There’s good reason why the bible says to “Be strong and courageous.” We have a covering. We have a Heart supplying blood to us that will never dry up. We were remade to be vessels of honor and we were remade by the blood! The world needs what we have. Each of us allowing the blood of Christ to flow through us can heal many. Each of us lifting our voices in worship can change the atmosphere. I believe we need to be informed but we also have to balance what we hear with what we know about our Father. What the Word says. Who we believe Jesus is. Why He sent the Holy Spirit. “But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you.” You know what He brought to my remembrance this morning? “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through Me.” The simple gospel.  In the midst of all the news we are hearing and you don’t know what to believe, Jesus says He is the Truth. When you’re struggling to make decisions about how to prepare for the future, Jesus says He is the Way. When you don’t know if you should gather together or how to gather, because you don’t want to become sick or anyone else to become ill, Jesus says He is the Life.

I was thinking of going downtown to the park where the homeless are with a cooler of bottled water sometime this week, and one part of me says, what good will it do, they’ll drink it and later they’ll be thirsty again. Plus it’s so much more bothersome trying to have a conversation through a mask. Certainly the Father understands that. Then the Holy Spirit brought this scripture to my remembrance, “No one comes to the Father, except through Me.” No matter if they understand the true purpose of why I’m bringing the water, if they want to engage in conversation or not, there’s a life-saving blood that they can only receive through Jesus. I should at least offer it.

I have to tell you how my Alabama trip ended! It was phenomenal! On Friday, July 3rd, I was walking through the streets of the neighborhood I’d been witnessing in for the past few weeks, for almost an hour praying. Usually when I did that, I would stop and talk to people and ask if they wanted prayer but that morning the Lord prompted me to stay silent and just walk & pray. As I was approaching my car to leave the neighborhood, I noticed a little yellow house down the street and the Lord said, “Take flowers to my daughter.”

I went and got a vase and flowers and returned that afternoon. As I got out of the car, a man came out on the porch. I told him that as I was walking & praying that morning, the Lord told me to bring flowers to His daughter. The man opened the screen door and said, “Come in and you’ll see why you’re here.” As I went through the door, there was a hospital bed in the living room with his wife in it. She can’t speak or walk and what I found out later was that she had a stroke 3 ½ yrs ago. I told her she was the Lord’s daughter and that He had sent her flowers. She got a big smile on her face and nodded her head. I asked the man if I could pray for her and he said yes. Her name is Ella. His name is Ebner. After praying, I left right away. I was honestly so overcome with emotion I could hardly speak. The only One Who knew that woman needed to hear from God was Him. She can’t tell anyone else. He is incredibly amazing! God hears our heart!

Dan and Fern Utz went to Ebner’s house with me on Sunday afternoon (July 5th) at 2 pm.  Ebner had his grandson and another lady come over. As Dan played the guitar, the 6 of us had church for almost 2 hrs around Ms. Ella’s bed, I should say the 7 of us, because I know Ms. Ella was having church too! The Presence of the Lord was in that place. We met family we never knew we had and we had a glorious time worshiping the Lord together. Ebner told us he has been waiting all this time for someone to come and pray over his wife, and he said he’d told his grandson several times that someone should come there and have church. He said he never thought the Lord would send someone who wasn’t his color. (He was too polite to say he never thought the Lord would send white people.) I told him maybe the Lord didn’t know we were different.

I left to come home the next morning. There is no better finale for a trip than to experience God in such an awesome and powerful way. Ebner used to be an evangelist. He said the morning I showed up, he was really down but when I came with those flowers he knew then that God was going to do something in their situation. Sunday afternoon before we left he was shouting and praising the Lord, like a new fire had just been lit in the furnace! He has no doubt that God is going to raise Ms. Ella up out of that bed.

I can’t tell you how many times I have shared this story in the last few weeks. It amazes me over and over again. Every time I think of it, I fall more in love with God. You will never be in a place where God cannot hear you. You will never have to do anything to earn God’s love. Ms. Ella can’t do a single thing to make herself worthy of a visit from God, but He chose to let her know He sees her and her cries have not gone unheard by Him.

How great is our God. How awesome is His love. Abide in it. Dwell in it. Let if fill you richly.

Your sister in Jesus!

Pam