October 2019

Hello Saints!

                        Glory to God in the highest! Praise be to His blessed Name! Let our faith be stirred up as we remember how great and awesome He is! Galatians 6:9 tells us “And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart”. It may seem like you’ve prayed the same thing over and over, or that a situation just isn’t changing but in Psalm 77, it tells us to remember the works of the Lord. Remind yourself of the situations where He has been faithful, even if you have to look all the way back to Moses! “Will the Lord cast off forever? And will He be favorable no more? Has His promise failed forevermore? Has God forgotten to be gracious? Has He in anger shut up His tender mercies? And I said, This is my anguish; But I will remember the years of the right hand of the Most High. I will remember the works of the Lord; Surely I will remember Your wonders of old. I will also meditate on all Your work. And talk of Your deeds. Your ways O God, is in the sanctuary; Who is so great a God as our God? You are the God who does wonders; You have declared Your strength among the peoples.” Psalm 77:7-14  See how the whole tone changes when you start recalling Who He is? You can start out questioning where He is, wondering if He is ever going to move again, but when you look back at all He has done, your faith stirs up and hope arises within your spirit.

Last night I pulled up some videos on YouTube of the charismatic movement of the 70s. Watching stadiums filled with people raising their hands to the Lord, tears streaming down some of their faces, stirred my faith up. What He did then, He can do again. His mercies are everlasting. He can certainly move across our nation and cause multitudes of hearts to return to Him. He can send His glory down in waves and open the eyes of those blinded by this world, to see the One who created it all.

I say all this after my own faith was wavering this past weekend when Patty and I went to the Luther Luckett men’s prison in Lagrange, Kentucky. I felt like we were the fishermen in the boat pictured at the top of this letter.  From our understanding there were 29 volunteers going to meet us there. When we showed up on Saturday morning there were 4 others who showed up. Had it of been a chapel event, this would have been totally fine, but we were to minister on the open yard. So 6 of us went into a prison of 1200 men with a couple hundred of them on the yard at once. It seemed like a lot of fishing to be done with very few poles and not enough nets! Somehow the instructions had gotten mixed up and even though we were asked to be there that morning, when we were escorted out into the prison yard where the chaplain already was, he said, “I wasn’t expecting you but you’re welcome to walk around the yard and talk and pray with whoever you want to.”  ????? (That’s what my brain said.) We had printed copies of the emails with us that said it was a 2-day yard event, and we could have made an enemy out of him by proving him wrong in front of the inmates with our written proof, but you have to choose between validating yourself or just taking the opportunity the Lord has put in front of you.  He could just as easily have told us to leave and come back the next day. That morning was overwhelming enough, then in the afternoon, the chaplain gave out snow cones in the yard, which is an unheard of occurrence in prison, so there were literally hundreds of men that came out! There was no preaching. We simply walked, around and either sat with them at tables or talked to them standing up. The yard was huge. There was a baseball field, soccer field, volleyball area, weight bench area, and tables sporadically placed throughout.  There was also an outside track that went around the whole thing.  I spent some time walking the track the next morning with a few of them. The first group I walked with told me it was 2 laps to make a mile, then the next guy I walked with told me it was 3 laps. Either way, I did 7 laps that day, so I figured that was enough walking for about a week.

We often have in our mind what ministry should look like. That first day, it looked very unorganized. For the most part we split up because the task was so big and it looked like we could cover more ground if we had individual conversations than if we worked in pairs. You listen a lot in those situations. Patty and I always keep an eye out for one another and can recognize when we need to go to the other one, and sometimes we just get near one another so we can pass the guy we’re talking to off to the other one. (Patty’s got that down to a science!)  By 3:00 pm, when the yard whistle blew for the men to go to their dorms, we were grateful to have made it through the day.  I don’t know how many conversations a person should have with different people in a single day, but if there’s any legislation on the legal limit, I say it shouldn’t be more than 3!

The next day, including Patty and I, there were 20 of us that went in. During the morning time on the yard, we did the same as the day before and moved around talking and praying. During the afternoon, some of the team served hamburgers, chips, and cookies, while some of the team was doing music and speaking on the yard. Patty and I worked the yard, engaging men in groups and individually. There will always be a group of them around the PA system paying attention to the music and speakers, but there were literally hundreds of them standing off, as they stood and ate their food, where the sound of the service could not reach them. It was a blessed time of meeting brothers who knew the Lord and those who did not but were receptive to listen and glad to talk to someone.

The family of God is so important. The other 4 who came on Saturday morning were warriors. They didn’t complain or get bent out of sorts. Their attitudes were so much better than mine! They looked at that field like it was full of hidden treasure.  Seeing their faith, stirred mine up. That’s why we need one another. Standing alone, feeling like you need to be an island, is a deceit of the enemy. We often think that if we don’t reach out to others, we’ll have less chance of getting let down. Often we put our expectations too high on how we expect others to be. None of us will ever have it all together in every area. But that doesn’t mean that each of us can’t be used by God. Patty can reach people who’d never receive it if I said the exact same thing to them. We all have different gifts, talents, ways of saying things, or of showing God’s love, that will uniquely touch someone. Don’t look at anyone and discount them for use in the kingdom, or for the way God will use them in your life. I can walk into a garage, see all the tools laying around, and think, “there’s nothing in here that can help me right now.” A man can walk into the same garage, see the very same things, and start thinking of all he can do with those same tools. Lets not be limited by our own vision, but ask God what He sees.

Let hope arise in your spirit. May you draw from the One who is everlasting with new mercy and fresh anointing. Dip your cup into the springs of living water and drink heartily. He is good. His plans have not changed. He will do what He has said He will do. Remind yourself of all His good works.

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam 

 October Schedule

Oct 3, 4, 5; Little Sandy Correctiional Facility, Sandy Hook, Ky

Oct 7; Faith Based Mentoring, Ft Wayne, IN (pm)

Oct 10: Family Court, as a mentor, Ft Wayne, IN

Oct 12: Stillwater Camp, Retreat for men dealing with addiction and previous incarceration, Yoder, IN

Oct 13: Women’s Work Release Center, Ft Wayne, IN

Oct 14: Faith Based Mentoring, Ft. Wayne, IN (pm)

Oct 19, 20; Westville Correctional Facility, Westville, IN

Oct 21: Hope Probation Court, Ft. Wayne, IN (am)

Oct 21: Faith Based Mentoring, Ft. Wayne, IN (pm)

Oct 24; Family Court, as a mentor, Ft Wayne, IN

Oct 28: Hope Probation Court, Ft. Wayne, IN (am)

Oct 28: Faith Based Mentoring, Ft. Wayne, IN (pm)

Prophecy: UNITED STATES OF AMERICA, I AM BREAKING THE DELAYS!!!

Recently mom and I heard Dutch Sheets read this prophecy. Even though it was given in 2018, don’t think it doesn’t apply to today. Remember in the Bible, prophecies were given long before they were fulfilled. Read this with an open mind and let the Lord speak to you through His Spirit. – Pam 

Lana Vawser, Prophecy from September 2018

Over the past few days I have been feeling a sense of urgency over the United States, and an excitement in my spirit that the King of Glory is stepping in (as I released in a previous word)

As I have leant into the Lord to seek His heart concerning this, I had an encounter with the Lord where I saw the Lion of Judah positioned OVER the United States and He was HUGE. With each one of His paws on the four corners of the United States, HE was covering the entire nation.

As He was positioned over the nation, He opened His mouth and out of His mouth came a LOUD ROAR.  It was a roar of Joel 3:16:

“The Lord will roar from Zion and thunder from Jerusalem; the earth and the heavens will tremble. But the Lord will be a refuge for his people, a stronghold for the people of Israel.”

It was the ROAR of God releasing the FEAR of God across the nation. It was the ROAR of His authority that decreed “NOTHING can stand against My power and who I am”

As this ROAR of the Lion of Ju dah was released I saw John 3:16 exploding all around.

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

His ROAR was being released demonstrating His power and His authority but the ROAR of His heart was RELEASING THE SOUND OF THE GOSPEL louder than before. LOUDER than before that the world would know His great love and His power. A greater unlocking to prepare the nation for a MIGHTY HARVEST of souls.

As the Lord roared loudly, I could hear His loud roar, but I also heard the LAUGH of God. It was SO LOUD it shook EVERYTHING. Nothing could stand against the ROAR and LAUGH of God.

Instantly I heard the verse declared in the spirit from Psalm 2:4: “He who sits in the heavens LAUGHS”As soon as I heard this Scripture the Lord spoke to me: “Psalm 2:4 and Psalm 24:7-9 are keys right now for the United States. NOTHING will stand against My plans and what I am decreeing and establishing within the United States. I am releasing My laugh of VICTORY over the nation. I am stepping in! I am stepping in! Decree it with Me! The King of Glory is stepping in! I am the One who will have the last laugh, for nothing stands against My plans and purposes! I am Yahweh.”

I then heard the Lord ROAR loudly again and this time as He roared I heard the declaration being made in the Spirit: “ALL DELAYS BROKEN! ALL DELAYS BROKEN, NOW I DECREE “ACCELERATE!”

As the Lord roared over the nation, I watched as His power and justice flowed from His mouth and all delays that were attempting to hinder the mighty extension of His Kingdom and plans, were SUDDENLY falling. They were suddenly crumbling. They were SUDDENLY coming to nothing.

He spoke again: Where there has been a BATTLE OF DELAY in some ways, I now declare UNITED STATES ACCELERATE FURTHER INTO YOUR NEW DAY! UNITED STATES ACCELERATE FURTHER INTO YOUR NEW DAY!”

I could feel it in the atmosphere the joyful expectation of the power of God being demonstrated in such significant ways across the nation BREAKING DELAY!!!!

THERE’S A BREAKING OPEN OF THE WELLS – OPEN UP! OPEN UP! OPEN UP!

As the Lord was roaring over the nation I could hear the LOUD SOUND of intercession from the saints that was flowing with His ROAR. I heard Him say: “Many have heard My ROAR. Many have heard the RHYTHM of My ROAR and are interceding what My heart is decreeing and it is CHANGING a NATION from the inside out, it is changing the nation from the inside out”

I watched as HARD ground was suddenly being broken open by His roar. In the “breaking open”, hidden things were being exposed in greater ways and the victory and justice of the Lord was being released. There was a mighty move of the Spirit of God breaking chains of the “hidden things” that have been rooted for so long with their fruit being to cause major delays, these things were being broken.

Where these chains in the hidden things have attempted to cause delay in some ways in the United States, now SUDDENLY they were breaking and I watched as WELLS were opening up.

These wells were breaking open but the thing that struck me was out of the well exploded FIRE AND WATER!!!! FIRE AND WATER!!!

The Lord spoke again: “IT’S TIME FOR FIRE AND WATER!!!! It’s time for the FIRE of My presence, My love, My purification, My revival and the waters of My Spirit to cleanse and flood the nation. It’s time for the FIRE AND THE WATER! The time has arrived!! The FIRE AND WATER FLOOD!!! The United States will be MARKED by FIRE AND WATER!!!! There’s a new day of divine marking and commissioning upon the United States.”

A NEW DAY OF COMMISSIONING

The Lord showed me that there is a new day of commissioning upon the United States. There is another threshold that is about to be crossed over and that is why the Lord is brooding heavily upon His people right now to intercede and to partner with Him to see the birthing of that which He has decreed.

This new day of commissioning upon the United States is about to burst forth and in this new commissioning I saw a MIGHTY DECREE being stamped upon the nation.

“UNITED STATES OF AMERICA! THE NATION THAT CARRIES THE JUSTICE OF THE LORD”

The Lord then spoke to me again: “There shall be MIGHTY DEMONSTRATIONS of My divine justice upon the nation like never before. The roar of My justice that is being released over the nation is not only breaking delay but it is releasing DIVINE IMPARTATIONS of My justice into the land by My spoken Word, that is going to be carried in the nation and RELEASED into other nations by the decree of My people. Many words have been spoken in and over the nation that have decreed injustice. Where words have been used to release injustice, I am now decreeing that the United States of America shall be known as a nation of MY JUSTICE as My people continue to rise up, grab hold of what I am saying and DECREE IT. There is a MIGHTY BIRTHING of My justice taking place and it will not be stopped. It will not be hindered, the ROAR of My justice is being released and the world will hear it!! The SOUND of My justice being released will RESOUND!”

“As My people seek My heart and hear My voice, align with My roar of justice that is going to be mightily demonstrated, there shall be a mighty tidal wave of My justice that will flow INTO and FROM the nation!!!”

AS MY ROAR OF JUSTICE IS RELEASED THERE WILL BE A GREATER ACCELERATION OF RESTORATION

As I continued to watch the Lord roaring over the nation I heard the Lord say: “There shall be NO MORE DELAY in greater breakthroughs of RESTORATION!!! As My roar of justice is released there will be a GREATER acceleration of RESTORATION.”

“I am drawing lines in the sand over the United States and I am decreeing “NO MORE! I am breathing acceleration in the restoration that I have decreed over the United States of America.”

As I heard the Lord decree this, I heard the Chris Tomlin song in the Spirit “How great is our God” being sung all across the nation by the people of God.It was being sung almost as a “SONG OF THE SEASON” over the USA. It was a LOUD victory cry and the time for a greater demonstration of the triumph of God has arrived. In greater demonstrations of His power and outstretched arm there shall be a MIGHTY TURNAROUND!

Our God Is Greater – Chris Tomlin
Songwriters: Chris Tomlin / Jesse Reeves / Jonas Myrin / Matt Redman
Lyrics copied from Google

Water You turned into wine, Opened the eyes of the blind
There’s no one like you, None like you
Into the darkness You shine, Out of the ashes we rise
There`s No one like you, None like you
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power, Our God, Our God
Into the darkness you shining, Out of the ashes we Rise
No one like you, None like you
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power, Our God, Our God
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power, Our God, Our God
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us?
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us?
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?  Then what can stand against?
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power, Our God, Our God
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God

And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us?
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who can ever stop us?
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against? Then what can stand against?

September 2019

Hello Saints!

Our God is so incredibly awesome! We can trust Him with our fears, with our emotions, with our families, with our finances. There is no situation in which He cannot prove Himself faithful. His Word is completely true. He meant what He said and He said what He meant! If He is for you, who can be against you?  “For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:38-39) My heart is so full of love for our God who is immovable, unshakable, and undefeatable that I hardly know where to begin! While praying this morning I thought how are we going to feel when we actually see the God who we have been pleading with for all these years? I was specifying very specifically, how I needed Him to intercept the disease in the body of the son of a dear friend of mine. And I thought, if I could see Him right now, in all His magnificence, would I be so specific? Or would I realize this magnificent God, who towers over the heavens and the earth, who created every fragile thing on the planet, who was so precise in creating everything in our physical bodies to work in harmony, who made the whole universe to be in harmony, might know better than me what actually needs to be done? That’s why He said “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28) Because we will absolutely wear ourselves out trying to figure out all the pieces that need to fall into place to beat a disease. But He sees it from the inside out and He knows the exact process because He created all of it. So we can take our eyes off the situation and put our complete trust in the One who holds it all in His hands. When you drop your car off to a mechanic do you call him every few minutes with a suggestion for something he should try, or constantly text him your thoughts of what might be wrong and how he can try to rewire the dashboard and tell him all the things he might not have thought of? Of course not. You trust that you have left it with a professional who knows more than you do. When you pick it up, you cry a little as you empty out your wallet, but overall you drive away grateful that your vehicle is once again reliable. The only payment God asks of us is our praise. And it’s not even a sacrifice, because He is certainly worthy of it!

We had a phenomenal weekend at Northpoint. There was definitely warfare going on. On our first morning, the staff told us an inmate had just attacked an officer right before we got there. Over the weekend, we learned from the chaplain that inmates have attacked more officers this year than ever before. He said one day an inmate hit an officer so hard, he knocked him out cold with one blow, then took the officers can of mace out of its holster and sprayed two female officers in the face. There are fences inside the prison that separate one recreation yard from another, so that not all the inmates can be out in the same area at the same time. On the second day, from our fenced in area Patty seen an inmate, in a different fenced in area hit another in the face. On the third day, a fight broke out in a hallway of one of buildings between several inmates. This was the first time that I have been aware of, that there was evident violence all 3 days while we were inside the prison. We are in such a time of disrespect for authority that it is only the hand of God holding back chaos. However, in the midst of this, we seen God move! We prayed with men who had tears roll down their faces as God touched their hearts, forgave their sins, washed them with the blood of the Lamb and made them new creations in Christ. One young man told me he didn’t know why he came forward. He’s there for a sex crime and thought this now branded him for the rest of his life. As we talked, God was working on restoring his value. We cannot focus on their crime. That’s not our job. There is only one Judge, and we do not carry that title, nor do we want it. God commissioned all of us to be reconcilers. To show them there is a way to the Father. I was able to provide him with the address of a ministry that was founded by a man convicted of a sex crime who has overcome by the blood of the Lamb and now has a correspondence bible study for inmates. God knew exactly what this young man needed. What’s so beautiful about the family of God, is we all have different backgrounds, different personalities, different ways we communicate, and in the ministry setting, God pairs each of us up with the ones who need what He has given us. “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.(2 Cor 1:3-4)

Patty was a ministering machine on that yard! You should see that girl in action! The only thing missing was her superhero cape. She went from table to table, sitting and talking with the men, giving them the joy the Lord has put in her. She was relentless! There was no shame to her game as she professed the good news of Jesus Christ. Whenever I felt weary, I looked for her. There was no way I was going to let her outlast me!

One man I spoke with was raised by his grandmother, who now has the same diagnosis as mom. This put him and I on level ground. We prayed together and you could see the relief as he was able to share his fear of losing her. In men’s prison, they don’t show fear or emotional weakness. On Sunday morning most of our group, and most of the inmates were in the chapel for the baptismal service. (Patty told me the power of God in there was overwhelming!) Only four inmates were in the yard. The Lord had set that time apart for this young man to be able to talk openly about his grandmother, while no one was around who would ridicule him later. The evening before he almost fell down as the power of God hit him while 2 male volunteers and myself were praying over him. Without a shadow of a doubt, he knew that God showed up for him.  Since I couldn’t be in the baptismal service, here is a post from one of our volunteers who was…. 

By Terry Herman Dorohoff:”12 baptisms on Sunday! Many more touched by the power of God’s Truth and Holy Spirit, some had no words to even express what they experienced. One young man who accepted Jesus as LORD and Savior said he was so grateful to us for coming to them and when he tried to put it into words why, he said he could not even find the words to describe what God had done for him this weekend. ❤️   Nothing compares to watching a hardened man come up out of the water changed and praising the One True God!! It was nothing less than pure GLORY this past weekend as we watched men with hardened hearts fully consider what it would mean to invite Jesus in as the Lord of their lives while incarcerated and make the choice to Follow Him. It was nothing less than pure GLORY as we watched the Truth of the Gospel supernaturally fling open the eyes of their understanding and change the hardened man’s heart right before our eyes. To watch the Truth through the Holy Spirit open a Muslim man’s understanding to Christ the Messiah, who grew up in a Muslim community and that being all he ever knew. Watching God move on a completely wounded and destroyed heart and through his Spirit soften, love on, begin the process of healing and deliver the hardened man from anger towards God to a place of wanting to forgive God, others and himself. I am honored that God would even allow me the opportunity to be a vessel used by him in this world. I myself owe God EVERYTHING for delivering me from hell to heaven!”   Thank you all for praying for us and for making it financially possible for us to do this ministry. It’s the best job in the whole world!!!

Mom wants to thank everyone who has sent cards and prayers. It has meant so much to her. She just spent five days in the hospital but is now back home. God showed up in a mighty way to strengthen and encourage her. While in the hospital, her and I watched a message from Dutch Sheets. In it, he read a prophecy from a woman in Australia about America. Her name is Lana Vawser. I am enclosing it with this letter.  Please read it and be encouraged! Keep praying for America! God is not finished. We found out with mom this week, God’s word will accomplish what He sends it forth to accomplish! His hand is not too short to save! Apply His scriptures to your life the same as you would vitamins or medicine  – daily! Mom’s ministry is that of an intercessor and she has not stopped her work. I have noticed when her voice has been a weak whisper, once she starts praying, it gets stronger, and when she starts speaking scripture, watch out! The strength of the Lord fills her and raises her up. You have to keep casting your line. Those prayers matter. Speaking the Word matters. His Word will change the atmosphere of your situation. Believe that He is Who He says He is, The great I Am.   Be blessed in Jesus Mighty Name!

Love,

Pam

August 2019

Hello Saints!

July certainly went by in a blur. The first two weekends Patty and I took a small group into the Blackford County Jail for a Friday night service followed by a Saturday morning and Saturday afternoon service. The first weekend was for the men, the second for the women. The weekends went completely different but were completely phenomenal. Pastor Pat Haskins was our speaker. At the end of one of the sessions, he called the men up for prayer, 8 to 10 men came forward (I’m never taking count, so afterwards I’m always trying to figure out the numbers, but who can count when the Spirit is moving?!!!), this was after them saying the salvation prayer, and now they were coming up for healing and deliverance. The very first thing he says is, “Someone needs delivered from lust, whoever this is step into the middle of the circle.” My brain froze! I thought no one is going to admit that! A man immediately jumped into the middle of the circle and I mean, he leapt into the circle! I was so grateful for a man of God who is not ashamed to call out what needs to be called out. It was a great lesson to never underestimate the power of God and what He wants to set men free from. While we’re worried about offending someone, God is wanting to deliver them from the things we are ashamed to name. By the end of the 2nd day, most of the men who attended were truly changed. You could see the impact God had made on their hearts. Our joy when we left there was overflowing!

The weekend with the women had some interesting disruptions to say the least. While Pastor Haskins was speaking one of them would throw out random questions, meant to cause confusion, but he was not shaken. He’d look up scriptures give her Godly answers and then continue on.  It ended up that what was meant to disrupt, caused their attention to be more intent because they could see that there are answers in the word of God. We prayed over all of them individually afterward. The pastors wife, Judy Haskins, had gotten her guitar out while we were still praying and the ones who’d already been prayed for, went and formed a circle around her and were lifting their voices in worship. The atmosphere in that place at that moment was heavenly! On the drive home, we ourselves, could not quit praising the Lord!

Again, we cannot thank you enough for how you support us in this. We were able to take food in for the inmates each session and pay for our travel expenses. Because of how you bless us, I always leave town knowing the van is reliable because for once in my life I have a vehicle where the maintenance is able to be kept up to date. Last weekend I drove by myself to a men’s prison in Kentucky. At those times I’m especially grateful to be a in a reliable vehicle. But even for all the trips during the week of driving around and picking up women who are still struggling with life and all the issues that come with drug abuse, being able to take them by the van full to meetings is such a blessing. I thank God for all of you and how you have supported our family so we are free to minister as God has led us. A couple weeks ago I spent a Sunday evening with a homeless man who said he hadn’t eaten. I went through Lee’s drive-thru and got him a chicken dinner. We sat in the park while he ate. The way he attacked that food broke my heart. Sometimes we talked and sometimes we just sat in silence. And then I drove him to a place where he was going to go into the woods and find a place to sleep for the night. I was frustrated at first because I was supposed to be somewhere else and the way I ran into him, I couldn’t possibly just drive away knowing that he needed to eat. At those moments James 2:15-16 seems to hang over my head, “If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, and one says to them, ‘Depart, go in peace, be warmed and filled’ but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit?” It didn’t feel like I accomplished much that night, but He’s a son of God and God wanted him fed.

 

Something our ministry needed this summer was a couple more canopies, which we were gratefully able to get with your donations. Last Sunday in Kentucky, when it was about 100 degrees and we were out there for more than 6 hours, there were a lot of volunteers, prison staff and inmates who were very grateful for that shade! This month we will be taking those same canopies to the Northpoint Correctional Facility in Burgin, Ky. We will be there for a 3-day event, for which we have already prepaid for cookies and chips for more than 1200 inmates. It may seem silly to spend that much money on snacks but in order for them to get the snacks, they have to come out of their dorms and walk across the yard, where we have music and testimonies going on, as well as volunteers who can interact with them and speak life into them. Mom and dad attended this event for many years. It’s a blessing for me and Patty to go where they have gone before us.

Speaking of mom….At the beginning of July she was diagnosed with lung cancer, which they thought was stage 3. This past Friday we found out it is actually stage 4. It was a pretty devastating diagnosis for us. Through that night and early Saturday, the Lord spoke to me and mom both. He gave mom Hebrews 10:35-38 “Therefore do not cast away your confidence, which has great reward…” and told her not to shrink back. She says she is going to say what He says about her. The scripture he gave me was Isaiah 43:26, “Put Me in remembrance; let us contend together; State your case that you may be acquitted.” So I proceeded to state mom’s case to Him and although His word says for us to put Him in remembrance, He is so gracious to us that He actually brought all the scriptures to my remembrance that I needed to remind Him of! How awesome is that! Our flesh is quick to jump on the sinking boat. And true, it has been an emotional struggle but at some point we have to decide if we want victory, how can we walk in the shoes of defeat? How can we walk and talk as if we’re hopeless, when Hebrews 6:19 tells us “This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast…” We have this hope! An anchor keeps something from drifting away. So this anchor of hope holds us steadfast, unwavering, not drifting off into the murky waters that our thoughts would try to take us into. A dear friend sent us this scripture, Isaiah 46:4-5 “Even to your old age, I am He, And even to gray hairs, I will carry you! I have made, and I will bear; Even I will carry, and will deliver you. God’s promises are lifesaving. We stand on them, cling to them, and rejoice in them. When we think things don’t make sense, Mom has told me before that “God has more at stake.”  Isaiah 55:8,9, “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord, “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts.”  He knows what He is doing and what will be accomplished. It’s up to us to trust Him. “What can we say then, If God is for us, who can be against us?” Romans 8:31. He promises us that although our afflictions are many, He will deliver us out of them all, and tells us not to fear because He is with us and He will strengthen and help us. His ways are perfect, His word is proven. He is our shield and our staff. I’m finding myself wavering back and forth like a flag in the wind trying to find my footing when I know she is in pain and there is nothing physically we can do to help her. And I can’t imagine what those moments are like for her. That’s when your thoughts start swirling and you have to tell yourself, “Wait, We have this Hope!” And once again you secure yourself to the anchor, start rereading the promises and pick up the shield of faith that a moment ago you forgot you were holding and had dropped to the floor.

In Romans He tells us that we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us. In Isaiah He tells us He will uphold us with His righteous right hand, and that when we wait on Him He shall renew our strength, and we shall mount up with wings like eagles, and we shall run and not be weary, and we shall walk and not faint. He goes on to say that when we pass through the waters, He will be with us, and through the rivers, they shall not overtake us, and when we walk through the fire we shall not be burned and that the flame will not scorch us. In Psalms He tells us to look up to the hills because our help comes from the Lord, the One who made heaven and earth! In Hebrews He tells us to come boldly to the throne of grace that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam 

July 2019

Hello Saints!

Have you caught the big one yet? My roommate caught one last night and what a glorious reason to celebrate! She went to do some gutter work for a man she has known a long time. He has a lot of chronic pain and a serious skin condition. Before she left, she led him to the Lord and prayed over him! On an ordinary day, while doing an ordinary job, she led this man into an extraordinary encounter with an extraordinary God! We all want the big revival to come, when we will see hundreds of thousands come to Christ, but to Him, the quiet moments of just one individual surrendering to His embrace is cause for a celestial celebration!

In my last newsletter I promised you a glorious report. Well…..drum roll please….God is phenomenal!!! The event in the women’s prison June 1st, was held in the yard, so the women were scattered everywhere. There are over 900 women there. Most of them came out to get the snacks & soda at the beginning and then a lot of them went back to their dorms. I’m not good at guessing numbers but I think at least a couple hundred stayed outdoors to hear the music and speaking. Patty and I began by walking around the yard talking to women and praying for them. (Patty actually worked the yard the entire time.) There were about 14 other volunteers with us. I honestly was only going to interact on the yard & didn’t know until after we arrived that I was the main speaker. For all the boasting I do in the Lord, my confidence in myself is not so great. My mind went blank. A few minutes before I was to get on the microphone, a male volunteer, one of the singers, looked at me and asked if I was all right. My dazed stare must have given me away J. He asked if he could pray over me and without hesitation, I gratefully accepted. There are so many things I love about God. He never leaves us without help. I shared, shouted, rejoiced in the goodness of God, and at the end it came on my heart to ask them if they wanted to be refreshed, renewed, filled with the fire of the Holy Spirit, to jump up and tell Jesus they were all in. Women all over the yard were jumping up and we were all yelling “I’m all in Jesus!” It was exciting! After we prayed the salvation prayer and ended in prayer over them, the music leader was playing the keyboard and asked everyone to raise their hands who wanted individual prayer. All of us volunteers spent the next 30-40 minutes going from one woman to another praying with them. You could hear women crying, rejoicing, laughing, it was sooo beautiful. The Spirit of God was flowing through that place like living water.

Two weeks later, I was at the banquet in Louisville, Ky for Evangel Prison Ministry, that’s who Patty and I went into the women’s prison with. A woman got up to speak about what happened in the prison that weekend. She didn’t know I was in the audience and she started talking about this woman who came “all the way from Fort Wayne, Indiana” (that tickled me because it sounded like Fort Wayne should be famous), and she said at the end, when I was praying over the yard, one inmate had her hand up, opening and closing her fingers, saying, “Look! Look!”  This woman, (the one sharing at the banquet) went over to see what was going on. She said the inmate had tears pouring down her face and the inmate next to her as well, because the one with her hand up, this same hand had been frozen and she had not been able to open it or to raise her arm. Sometime during the time of them saying they were “all in” and the closing prayer, her hand opened and her arm went up! How awesome is our God!!! He seen her when we didn’t. He knew exactly what the cry of her heart was. More than anything, He wanted her to know how much He loves her and how much she matters to Him.

Two days after hearing this glorious report, my sister-in-law and I were on our way to the children’s camp, Camp David of the Ozarks. It was Sunday morning so we stopped in at a church in West Plains, Mo, called “His Place, House of Worship”. A prophetic word was given in tongues and then interpreted, all about God’s love for us. When the pastor got up to speak, he said “God wants us to know, He’s all in”. How’s that for confirmation!

So, after all that, you probably can’t wait to hear about the kid’s camp. I think this picture sums it up. (in the paper copy of the newsletter, there’s a picture right here of Jonah flying into the mouth of the whale, however I have not figured out how to get that image on here!) One minute you’re catching the big one, and the next you’re inside the belly of the whale wondering what happened. In one swift move you can go from the mountaintop into a landslide. If it wasn’t for my firm

belief that God is Who He says He is, that week would have put me back on medication and a lifetime of counseling. Did I fail? I think so. Did God fail? Absolutely not. My sister in-law, did great. Her team won all the medals, came in first place for memory verses, and bonded beautifully. She is the picture of what a role model camp counselor should look like. Only one person in my cabin memorized one verse for the whole week! And that’s not even the bad part. Like last year, I was supposed to have this cushy position, in a room by myself as the camp grandma, writing notes of encouragement to the campers each day, and going around and interacting with them at various points of the day to see how they were getting along. However… just like last year, not enough counselors showed up and I ended up in a cabin with 6 teenagers, who decided I was absolutely homophobic because the god they know loves gay people. One of my campers was in my cabin last year, and I had shared that nobody is born gay, because God doesn’t make those kinds of mistakes. Last year she tried to start a relationship in my cabin with another girl who was definitely trying to be gay, and the two of them were not happy with me when I had to keep splitting them up. She was quick to share this with the new campers and it went downhill from there. I could write pages from this point on and share with you the roller-coaster we were on every day as we went from struggle to triumph back to struggle again.

I love God so much for giving us that miracle healing at the women’s prison. But when we do ministry that doesn’t end up feeling so good, are we going to praise Him just as much? One of the new campers opposed me so much all week, that I woke up every morning dreading waking her up. The last time she got sarcastic with me was Friday morning about 11:30. They were leaving at 1:00 pm, so my heart was watching the clock! When her ride came, I was saying goodbye to someone else and didn’t see her get in the car. I was walking past it, and she rolled down the window, yelled out my name & when I turned to look, she jumped out the car and ran to hug me. The owner of the camp told me, if I felt confused by it, imagine how confused she is. She desperately wants to be loved, but is so afraid of being hurt, she doesn’t know how to receive it. Its hard to love those who despise us. And yet that’s exactly what we’re called to do. God loved us when we were unlovely. He showed me some hard things, very hurtful things about what the lives of those kids are like, and when you feel like you failed to give the love they needed, you feel like you failed all the way around, to God, to them, and to yourself. I definitely do not feel called to children’s ministry, so did God make a mistake by placing me there? Probably not. He’s good. He’s sovereign. His plans are perfect. When you have a discouraging ministry experience, you have to make a choice, you can stop and stay in a place of defeat, or you can surrender those feelings to Jesus. Why not, He paid for them. We have to learn from it and ask Him to prepare us for the next thing. Skinned knees build character.

I read the most beautiful passage in Isaiah 35:8-10 this morning. Verses 8-9 says, “A highway shall be there, and a road, and it shall be called the Highway of Holiness. The unclean shall not pass over it, but it shall be for others. Whoever walks on the road, although a fool, shall not go astray. No lion shall be there, nor shall any ravenous beast go up on it; it shall not be found there. But the redeemed of the Lord shall walk there…” What stood out to me is “although a fool”. That would be all of us at one time or another. The Lord knows we are going to make mistakes, yet He still has this place for us to walk in, where we won’t go astray, where no lion or any beast can get us. It’s a place of perfect peace, perfect safety, where we will obtain joy and gladness, and all our sorrow shall flee away. It made me think of a vision I had that I shared with you some time ago about me being on a swing with Jesus, & I burst into tears because the relief was so overwhelming. I knew I was safe forever at that moment. From the mountaintop to the valley, He will never leave nor forsake us.

A verse that tickled me while I was at the camp was Isaiah 6:8. “Here I am! Send me.” That’s me being so bold before camp, Then by Tuesday at the camp, I was like Isaiah 6:11, “Then I said, ‘Lord how long?” Ready to throw in the towel and run! Take heart saints. He will give us just what we need for every situation, and before we know it, we will be on the Highway to Holiness!

May God bless and Keep you through it all!

Your sister in Jesus!                                                                         

Pam

June 2019

Hello Saints!

It’s fishing season! And here are your fishing instructions from John 17:18-21“As You sent Me into the world, I also have sent them into the world. And for their sakes I sanctify Myself, that they also may be sanctified by the truth. I do not pray for these alone, but also for those who will believe in Me through their word: that they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in us, that the world may believe that You sent Me.”

Instructions:

  1. Are we supposed to fish? “And He said unto them, ‘Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.’ ” Matthew 4:19  “As You sent Me into the world, I also have sent them into the world.” John 17:18 Jesus has sent us. How often have we stopped ourselves from telling someone about Him because we weren’t sure if God was telling us too? If you wonder whether or not you’re supposed to share Jesus with someone, let’s clear this up right now – Yes! It’s open season!
  1. Do you need a license? He sanctified Himself that we might be sanctified by the truth. This morning. I was asking the Father for forgiveness for my thoughts and a wave of relief came over me that I didn’t have to beg or plead, or figure out what kind of sacrifice I needed, because Jesus did it already! I’m  sanctified because He was sanctified and His truth has ensured my freedom. There is nothing we can do to make ourselves worthy to share this gospel, except the simple act of accepting what He did for us. So are you good enough to share the Word? Absolutely! Not only good enough, but sanctified!
  1. What if you’ve never cast a pole before? In verse 19 He says, not only does He pray for us, but also for those who will believe in Him through our word. He has already prayed that they will believe what we’re saying. He’s praying for us and them at the same time. This actually is a new revelation for me. It gives me more courage and confidence knowing that He’s covered it with His prayer because His prayers carry POWER!
  1. What if it seems like your line is going to break? Then here’s your net; “And I have declared to them Your name, and will declare it, that the love with which You loved Me may be in them, and I in them.” John 17:26 Trust in His Word. “So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; it shall not return to Me void, but will accomplish what I please, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.” Isaiah 55:11 Whether you think it was a good day fishing or not, His declaration, His word, will not return void.
  1. What’s the ultimate prize at the end of this fishing tournament? Vs 21 “that they all may be one, as You, Father are in Me, and I in You” Jesus knows what it’s like to be One with the Father, He knows the awesomeness of that union every single moment, and His heart’s desire is to pull us into that with Him and the Father. We’ve had beautiful high-five moments in our life, those times when everything is right in the world and something happens that puts the icing on the cake, but we have no idea how complete and absolutely over-the-top our joy will be/can be when we are one with Jesus and the Father. For every person who has no hope, who are struggling for everyday existence, who are floundering trying to catch their breath; what a great catch when all of a sudden Jesus fills their lungs with His breath of life and for the first time ever joy wells up in their spirit and spills over into their soul. Yep, it’s fishing season!

Mom and I have been at the Cedarville Community Church the past few Sundays, and pastor Monte Sheets has shared this scripture about the world will know the Father sent Jesus when we are one, John 17:21.  And that resonated in my spirit. If we the body, inside our own body of believers and with believers outside of our church body, were one, not speaking against other churches or other Christians, but being willing to forgive their faults as Christ has forgiven ours, how much more of an impact would that make on unbelievers. Watching the government since President Trump has been in office, I’ve wondered how have they gotten anything governmental done with all the infighting. We don’t want to look like the rest of the world. And we have help with this because Jesus said, “I do not pray that you should take them out of the world, but that You should keep them from the evil one.”John 17:15.  He has prayed that we wouldn’t be taken out by the enemy. We have the power to walk in love when it’s uncomfortable, to be joyful in the midst of a stressful situation, to share peace when there seems to be no answer, to be longsuffering at the grocery store, to demonstrate kindness in traffic, to show goodness to someone who has wronged us, to live faithfully by the word of God, to be gentle while exercising self control, and yes, against such there is no law! Does that stir your spirit? It should, it’s scriptural! Galatians 5:22-23.

Its no different for me than it is for you, my brain was so full that it seemed to be spilling down into my lungs and my belly as I tried to pray this morning. So I had to imagine myself dumping all that out in front of Jesus.  It was a big tangled mess and I knew it looked horrible because there was no way I could organize it and lay it neatly before him, so I gave Him the whole thing as it was and what a relief! We have the freedom to do that! That in itself is worth shouting about!

This weekend Patty and I are off to the Kentucky Women’s Prison in PeeWee Valley, Ky. It’s always fun doing ministry with Patty. She never fails to give me new material for things I can make fun of her about.  And if I’m truthful, vice versa. The first time we went to this prison, we went to look for it the evening before so we’d know how to get there from the motel in the morning. Since it was November, it got dark early. I left the motel and promptly got on the ramp going to the highway, but I turned onto the off ramp, which meant I was going down the ramp in the wrong direction, in the dark, and had to quickly back up around the curve to keep us from getting smashed to smithereens! Since mom and dad had let us take their van on that trip we kept that little mishap to ourselves, sorry mom. Mom’s prayers are definitely our travel insurance.

June 14th, I will be going to the Evangel Prison Ministry Black and White fundraiser in Louisville, Ky, and from there, on June 15th, I will be traveling to Rolla, Mo for another week at Camp David of the Ozarks. Before writing this I reread two newsletters I wrote last year and one of them was from after I returned from that camp. Never, never did I think it would be necessary for me to do this again. I love their ministry, love how many children they reach, and love that they were the ones called to it and not me. Somethings we go out of obedience and then pray we learned whatever God wanted to teach us so we don’t have to do it again. Well, they asked me to come back. I’ll repeat my own instruction to myself, “We have the power to walk in love when it’s uncomfortable”. Next month, I will be giving you a glorious report.
The day I leave there, I’ll drive back to Louisville, and on the morning of the 22nd, will be going into Roderer Men’s Prison in Lagrange, Ky for the all day cookout that Evangel Prison Ministry does there each year. This is the blessed thing about ministry and the body of Christ. You don’t only have to do your own ministry, because it all belongs to Christ.

Exciting news for us is that COPE, Coalition of Prison Evangelists, will be having a regional COPE conference at the Cupbearer Café in Auburn, IN, Aug 1-3. The details and registration will be on the website; copeconnections.org.  This is an event for prison ministries to come together for worship, testimonies, prayer, insight, and encouragement. You don’t have to be in ministry to attend. And if you’d like to go, but can’t afford the registration cost of the whole conference, the evening sessions of worship, testimonies and speakers, is free to everyone. At the evening session on Aug 1st, there will be former inmates giving testimonies about what it meant to them to have ministers coming into the prison and sharing the word of God and the love of Jesus with them. On Friday afternoon, William Bumpus, who was arrested around 30 times I believe, will be speaking. He now runs the Jesus House in Indianapolis, for men coming out of prison, and ministers in prisons across the United States and in Nigeria. Also speaking with him will be a man who spent more than 30 years in prison. These are testimonies about the amazing restorative power of our merciful God.  If you need encouraged, need to see that God is still in the fishing business, this will definitely refresh your faith.

We pray that whatever your circumstance, you will find your peace, hope and strength in Jesus. He is faithful to the end. Thank you for your prayers and support. We appreciate you all so much.

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam

May 2019

 Hello Saints!

He loved us first! We’ve heard that for so long, that it seems like old news but His love for us is alive and vibrant! Has someone ever come up to you and told you that they’ve been watching you and they admire you? All of a sudden you have a connection with this person because you realize they were admiring you when you didn’t know anyone was paying you any attention, and you start paying them attention because you want them to know their admiration was well placed. J When you know they’re in the room you walk a little taller and greet others with more cheerfulness and try and keep a smile on your face, because now you know someone’s watching. God is always watching. And still loves us. I don’t want you to be jealous but I have to tell you how He woke me this morning. While my eyes were still closed, I sensed this presence all around me, loving me, watching me, and I realized it was Him! He was there, waiting for me to wake up. I was in a full glow of warm, beautiful light, although it was 6 am, cloudy & gray outside and only 37 degrees. It surrounded me. He was loving me first. Before my brain could even register a single thought. When I was fully awake and had my prayer time, all I could do was tell him over and over how much I loved Him. In my mind, I said it, shouted it, sang it, and danced it out before Him. He loved me first! It’s so easy to pour love back to someone who’s pouring it out on you. The more you praise Him, the more you open the door to receive from Him, until it’s like one of those water wheels with all the little buckets on it, as some buckets are filling, others are emptying and it keeps the wheel turning round and round. He loved you first. He loves you still. He’s watching you like someone watches a loved one they wish would wake up just so they could talk to them. Let your heart sing to Him with abandonment and unhindered adoration. He loves you!

Now I have a great faith story to tell you! I’m on the board of a recovery meeting called Faith Based Mentoring. We meet on Monday nights, share a meal, and have a message with people who’ve been in trouble with the law and/or drugs. One of the young men who attends has been on a program called Hope Probation. It’s a good program but because of the number of classes it requires the participants to be in, it can interfere with their ability to hold a full-time job. This young man had an excellent full-time job opportunity come up and decided to go ask the judge to let him off the program two months early. While waiting for the court session to start, he ran into two of the male mentors from Faith Based Mentoring. At the same time his probation officer came down the hall and asked what he was doing there and told him that he had absolutely no chance of speaking to the judge or of getting off early.  The mentors, seeing how dejected he was, prayed with him about the situation. He went into the courtroom and sat down. At the end of the day, all the cases had been called and the spectator seats were empty, except for this young man. The judge had turned off the court clock. A lawyer was at the bench talking with her. The prosecutor was gathering his things and talking with one of the mentors. It looked as though the young man was going to walk away empty handed. Yet he still sat there. The judge happened to look around the attorney she was talking to and seeing him sitting there, called the young man forward. As he presented his request to her, the judge asked the two men from Faith Based Mentoring if the young man had been faithful in his attendance, to which they responded, “Absolutely.” She granted the young man’s request. He had already spoken with the employer, prior to coming to court, and had asked them if he could start his new job the next day. He dared to believe God!

God is no respecter of persons! Whether you’ve been a Christian 20 years or are a new Christian on probation, (not with God, but with men.  Hmmm, if God had us on a probation period, what would that look like? Maybe we all are on probation…… this is going to require some thought!) He is the answer to your dilemma! What I love about this, is that this young man made plans as if God had already answered. What a great example of James 2:22, “Do you see that faith was working together with his works, and by works faith was made perfect?” Or like my dad used to say, “Even a mosquito doesn’t get a slap on the back until he starts working.” There are times when God will unexpectedly bless us when we are sitting perfectly still, but what a blessing to step out and find Him already waiting for you when you get there.

On TCT (Totally Christian Television) there was a testimony of a young man who was in prison, walking by the chapel and seen a movie was playing inside. He went in. It was The Passion of the Christ.  He was an active heroin user there in prison and was in a gang, head shaved, tattooed all over, looking like the last candidate on earth to ever become a Christian. God touched him during that movie. As tears rolled down his face, he quietly asked Christ to become his Savior. He is now out of prison, married, and has a ministry helping street people. The power of God is alive & well! It never diminishes!

By both of these stories we can see that honestly God can save the whole world all by Himself. He moved on one young man to believe Him for a miracle and moved on another to make Him Lord of His life. Our involvement is a privilege. And definitely for our benefit! God loves us so much that He lets us in on it! Has it ever taken your breath seeing someone get their answer from God? Or being there when they first realize how much He loves them? It’s soooo beautiful! Hallmark is great for anyone who likes a tearjerker, but there is nothing like the amazing power of the Holy Spirit when He washes over someone and brings the brokenhearted back into right relationship with their Creator.

The Lord gave us an unexpected treat at our weekend with the men at the Blackford County Jail.  We had a good turnout Friday evening and the ministry went very well. When we went back in Saturday morning, an officer came to us and said there were some men in isolation cells who were saying it wasn’t fair that they couldn’t come to the service. The officer explained that they couldn’t be mixed in with the other inmates and wanted to know if there was any way we could minister to them. I told her to bring them on in to the gym. There were only 3 of them. We gave them the whole show, snacks, music, preaching, as if it were an auditorium full of people. At the end, we had a unique opportunity to minister to them individually. The Lord would have showed up even if it had only been one of them. We can’t ever get caught up in numbers when it comes to ministry. When Jesus rescued me, it was only me, sitting in a chair in the living room by myself. It didn’t bother Him a bit that there wasn’t a whole building full of people to see how He moved, and it felt like He stopped the whole world just to speak to my heart. Don’t you love that about Him! We did get to minister to the rest of the men for a short time that morning after those 3 were taken back to their cells, and for a couple of hours in the afternoon. It simply shifted our agenda and reminded us Who’s really in charge.

The following weekend we were able to go into Westville with Sue and Dick Brooks for a weekend of ministry. We were so blessed to be able to join this faithful couple in kingdom work. Their humble steadfast dedication is in inspiration to all who have the privilege of seeing them in action. My best guess is that there were between 160-180 inmates who attended. My favorite part was the Sunday morning worship. You cannot help but be inspired when you see so many men in prison uniforms raising their hands unashamedly to praise the One who came for them. They have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Despite their living conditions, the fact that all their earthly possessions have been stripped away from them, and they are separated from family, they find hope in Jesus. It reminds you what really matters.  When nothing else is left, He remains.

Now that I’ve went on way too long, I may as well tell you a story I heard on the radio today. It was about a middle-aged woman who was having surgery and died on the table. She seen God and asked Him if this was it for her. He said no, He was sending her back for 42 more years. When she came out of the anesthesia, she was totally healed of her condition. So excited about the new life God had for her, before leaving the hospital, she’d consulted with some specialists and had a face lift, liposuction, and a tummy tuck and even had her hair dyed. As she was leaving the parking lot and going across the parking lot, an ambulance came roaring in, hit and killed her. When she found herself so unexpectedly in heaven, she asked the Lord what happened to the 42 years she’d been promised. He answered that to be honest, when she was crossing that parking lot, He didn’t recognize her! J While you’re shaking your head, just know I truly did hear this on the radio today.

While reading through the Old Testament, I keep noticing in 2 Chronicles that when someone new was made king, many times God mentions who their mother was. Why was that significant? I don’t know either. J But since this is the month of May it’s a good reminder that if moms were significant to Him, they should be significant to us also.  Like the little boy trying to pull in this fish that is obviously too big for him, he should have listened to his mom when she said don’t bite off more than you can chew. He’s probably wishing he’d of eaten his vegetables like she told him so he was stronger, but he won’t dare complain about struggling because she might ask him if he wants a little cheese with that whine.  He’s probably thinking he should of brushed his teeth and worn clean underwear in case this ends up being the accident she’s always talking about. As he keeps holding on, he’s trying not to let his eyes cross, because she did say they’d get stuck that way.  Is this what she meant when she said, “put that down, you don’t know where it’s been?”  But no matter how hard it is, he knows it can’t be as hard as when she had to walk two miles to school in the winter with no coat and shoes that had holes in them.  If only he’d of held onto his horses and not ran out of the house with ants in his pants. Why? Simply because she said so.  Moms, what would we do without them!    All you moms, have a blessed Mother’s Day!

“For of Him and through Him and to Him are all things, to whom be the glory forever, Amen.” Romans 11:36

Love,

Pam

 

 

 

April 2019

Hello Saints!

Hallelujah! The tomb is empty! If He is isn’t in there, then we have no business being in there either! John 14:3 “And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you unto Myself, that where I am, there ye may be also.” Well, we know where He isn’t!!! I have to confess, my mind gets so overwhelmed with the sin in the world, with the blatant disrespect of God and disregard of His Word, that often my thoughts are simply, “Come Lord Jesus and get us out of here!” If we look only at the darkness, it seems like this world has already become our tomb. While praying one morning this week I realized that all the evil over the past few thousand years, hasn’t erased the wonder of a waterfall, the breathtaking view of the mountains, the beauty of the landscape when you’re taking a country drive, the splendor of the sunrise and sunset, nothing has wiped out His majesty. “Indeed before the day was, I am He; And there is no one who can deliver out of My hand; I work, and who will reverse it?” Isaiah 43:13 Evil has not triumphed. Nothing can stop the flow of water throughout the earth, except God. Nothing can stop the sun from rising and setting except our Father. And what happens every morning? – His mercies are new! (Shame on you if you didn’t know that J) Come out of the tomb! Shed that cloak of darkness, it’s not yours. Don’t bear the burdens that aren’t yours to carry. Release them to the One who said, “Come to me all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30.

We are free to enjoy being in this world! He put so much here to delight us. We can be in it but not of it, and there is joy in that. We don’t have to feel guilty about being happy even when the ones we love are going through heavy trials. We can trust Him with their lives and with their outcomes.

I don’t say this lightly because mom and I have been closely involved with a single mom and her infant son, (they even spent a few nights sleeping in moms living room) and despite all our efforts she still keeps turning to alcohol and putting her son and herself in dangerous situations. A few days ago I kept breaking down in tears over the situation and during one of those moments mom started praying out loud and committing the whole thing to God and even though nothing physically changed, something happened in the spiritual because the burden is no longer mine. It was never supposed to be mine. We can be supportive without being overwhelmed. We can be free to enjoy today even when others choose not to. We can walk in the Light that dispels the darkness, so that when we’re around someone who’s in darkness, their darkness becomes a shadow behind them as our Light pushes it back. Their darkness does not diminish our Light. Because Who is the Light? John 8:12, “Then Jesus spoke to them saying, “I am the light of the world.” Can anything blot out Who He is? I think not! So this morning when I prayed, I began thanking God for every good thing that He’s put on the earth for us to enjoy and embrace, and my heart feels 100 pounds lighter! He is risen and if we’re to be where He is, then so are we!

The weekend with the women at the Blackford County Jail couldn’t have started out any more chaotic than it did. It was to be our first time ever having the women in the gym for an entire 2-day seminar. So the first evening we arrive, in comes a group of 4 men, Christians, who are there to finish their 3-day event with the men, in the gym. Their last day, our first day, and somehow the 2 events got overlapped and overbooked. We knew that no way, no how was the staff going to let both the men and the women in the gym. Since 3 of the 4 gentlemen looked to be over 60, and there were 7 of us women, it was obvious we could take ‘em. One of them was in his 50’s and quite vocal, I knew he might leave us a little bruised and battered but I was willing to tackle him for the glory of the kingdom! It turned out to be an awesome opportunity to be humble in the midst of adversity. Trying to be as polite as possible I told the ring leader that if they did not allow us to have service with the women we’d gladly join their service and serve the men the snacks and drinks we’d brought for the women. His response to me was, “And what are you going to do, sing Kumbaya?!” I replied softly with, “No,

but I have written a rap song.” He retorted that he was there that night to preach against rock music. I told him then apparently I had come on the right night. As sweet as this might look in black and white, he did not appreciate my sense of humor. If you’re ever in this type of situation, remind yourself, it does not matter if things go according to your agenda. It only matters that the name of the Father is glorified. During one of his rants, I kindly tried to inform this gentleman that he might have some anger management issues, to which he refused to acknowledge me and continued his rant.J

It ended up that their group was sent into the gym with the men, and we were sent to the women’s block. The Lord had the sweetest time of ministry planned for us with those women. Out of the 14 women who were in the block, only 2 stayed in their cell and didn’t want to participate. We sang, talked in small groups, shared testimonies, and prayed. Many tears were shed. It was simply beautiful. The atmosphere in that bleak, concrete environment was fragrant with the love of the Lord.

The next morning we were in the gym and I believe all the women but 1 came to the service. Had we not have been in their block the evening before and had that personal time of ministry with them getting comfortable with us, I doubt if we’d of had so many. The Lord is personal. He wants to reach those who would hold back. One woman was also brought from an isolation cell and allowed to attend. (People can be put in an isolation cell for disciplinary reasons, mental health issues, or physical issues where they need special attention and need to be watched closely.) We had a morning service and an afternoon service with them on Saturday. At the end of the day when the altar call was given all the women came up for either first time dedication or rededication. We formed a big circle, holding hands, and praying together. We ended with a time of shouting our love to the Lord and twirling each other around in circles, it was a celebration! The joy of the Lord fell on us. We had given them all pink leather Bibles with a cross imprinted in the front cover and silver edged pages. They loved them. A woman in her 30’s, said no one had ever given her a Bible in her entire life. Many of them asked us to fill out the front page with their name and ours. Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus. I can’t give enough glory and praise to Him for how He orchestrated the whole event. He is incredible.

I’m writing this on the 28th of March. Tomorrow and Saturday we will be back at that same jail doing services in the gym with the men. My option was to get this done either before or after, and to finish this on Sunday, but my heart has chosen to honor the Lord’s day and finish this before. It’s amazing how much we struggle with His command to rest. The following weekend we will be at Westville men’s prison. So be looking forward to next month’s newsletter to hear about our awesome Savior and His continuing faithfulness! There’s no better job in the whole world than serving Him.

Thank you once again for your faithful support. When dad passed, there was a time of unsettledness for me. I was so uncertain about how to continue without him. But as the donations kept coming, it was obvious that we needed to keep going. My confusion was in thinking it was dad’s ministry. The whole time it belonged to God.

 

Be blessed in the Name of our glorious Savior, Jesus!

Love, Pam                

March 2019

 

Hello Saints!

Glory to God in the highest, the One who is worthy of all of our praise!

While sitting in a parking lot this morning, waiting on someone in a shelter to come out so I could give them a ride to work, who called me to say they had literally just woke up when I texted them to say I was there, (mind you, I had gotten up at 6:30 a.m. just to be sure I wouldn’t be late to get them to work on time and it was now 8a.m.), I had the wonderful opportunity, as I waited for 15 minutes, to reflect on nature. J (Yes this is my subtle way of venting.) There was a cluster of trees on the far end of the lot, completely bare on this brisk morning of 12 degrees, with their arms raised as if they did not know any reason as to why they shouldn’t praise the Creator. What struck me was their bareness. All their covering had fallen away, yet they didn’t look stricken that their fullness was gone. In fact without the leaves you could see more clearly how strong and diverse the branches were. Regardless of if there was any hope of a season of abundance, their only thought was to continue reaching upward. What option do they have? They know that every good thing that comes to them comes from somewhere above themselves, so sight unseen, they just keep reaching for it. I didn’t think any less of them for standing there in their vulnerability, but admired their determination to wait. When everything that we think defines who we are has been stripped away, will we be as determined to keep reaching for the Only One who can add to our worth? I would love to be so noble as any one of those trees, not moving, not bending, not looking for a better location, not blaming the tree next to me for blocking my light, but standing firm, holding my own ground, knowing without a shadow of a doubt that the One who brought me to bloom in previous seasons, will be the One to fill my arms with new life this season also.

It’s with a heavy heart that I write this letter because just a little while ago someone called to say that a woman I knew in prison died there this morning. I met her in 1985 at the Indianapolis Women’s Prison. We were both 22 years old that year. She had been arrested the previous year and was given a 98-year sentence for aiding in the deaths of 2 men and helping dispose of their bodies. Her mom was arrested on the same charge and was given more than 100 years. (Her mom died at the prison some years ago.) When she passed this morning, she was my same age, only she’s never left prison during these past 34 years. She had 5 more years to go before she’d of been eligible for release. I have no idea if she had a relationship with Jesus, which is heart breaking. “The thief comes only to steal, kill and destroy.”

During my prayer time this morning, I looked up out the window, and seen the branches of the tree next door, kind of tangled together, and immediately the image of the ram caught in the thicket came to my mind. “Then Abraham lifted his eyes and looked, and there behind him was a ram caught in a thicket by its horns. So Abraham went and took the ram, and offered it up for a burnt offering instead of his son.” (Gen 22:13 NKJV) How refreshing is that thought! A sacrifice has already been made on our behalf! Provision has been made. We are not without remedy. No matter how bleak the day may seem, no matter what bad news may come, He has made a way for us to get to Him. We always have this hope! We have the blessed joy of stepping through Jesus to come into the presence of the Father. How wonderful to be at His feet, the One who looks at us with complete compassion and mercy and find our refreshing there. Praising Him releases that fountain.  As I continued kneeling there, bowed down, I had the impression of someone coming to me and saying, “The King will see you now.”

My heart melted, and I said to the Father, “I want that job.” How awesome it is that we have the opportunity to tell others, “The King will see you now.” All because of the sacrificial Lamb. If they will only accept it, they can then step through the veil of Jesus love, into the presence of the living God. And we, as servants of the Most High Court, have the prestigious position, the highest honor, of leading them in.

So although my heart is grieved for a life lost, my hope is in a God of mercy, who knew her completely, who sent His Son for her redemption, and whatever her end, I trust in His wisdom, His righteousness, and His perfect will which He will and does accomplish. We can spend hour after hour letting our hearts anguish over thoughts of where someone is spending eternity after there life here has ended. Or we can simply tell God, “I trust Your righteousness.” Just like the trees, stand firm. There is nothing in this world that could possibly be offered to a tree that could make it any more complete than what God has designed it to be. How wonderful to be in that place where nothing here can either add or take away your value . Where dramatic news doesn’t sway you. Politics don’t bend you. Good days or bad do not change your point of view. You simply keep reaching up.

In two weeks, on the 15th and 16th of March, we will be going into the Blackford County Jail and spending our whole time with the ladies! This has never happened before and we are very excited. We’re taking them pink leather bibles! Normally during a 2-day event, we’d get approximately 1 hour with the ladies. Then the last time we went, the officer in charge, offered to bring the ladies for 1 hour during each session, which was the first time they’d been brought to us in the gym. In the past we always went to the ladies block for the hour. This tells us that God sees the ones who no one else sees and His desire is to bring them forth and let them know that His heart is for them. The least of these. His eye is on the sparrow. He leaves the 99. Your time is never wasted when it is spent on only one person. That’s exactly who He’d have you minister to. It’s what He did at the well. The chaplain has generously arranged this special time for us with them and then two weeks later, on the 29th and 30th, we’ll go back and do the same with men, minus the pink bibles J.

I pray the God of all love and mercy shines upon you so greatly that you become Son-tanned!

Be a reflection of His radiance and your wrinkles will be lost in His glory!

Be blessed in the Name of our glorious Savior, Jesus!

Love, Pam            

         

February 2019

Hello Saints!

Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. Have you noticed this is the phrase Paul most often started his letters with? With the exception of his letters to Timothy and Titus. For them he also added the word “mercy”, those boys needed something a little extra. God’s grace and peace can carry us a long way. If that was all He gave us, it’d be totally worth it to follow Him.

Although I’m writing this from Alabama, by the time you receive it, I will be safely frozen in Indiana. When watching the weather, I keep wondering what I was thinking to return home in the middle of winter! I’m actually writing this a week early because from January 27th to 31st, is the Renew Hope invasion of all the prisons in Alabama, where about 400 volunteers will come together on the 27th to receive instruction, worship and pray together for the prisons. We will then be divided up and sent to all the institutions in Alabama over the following 4 days where we will minister day and night. It’s a whirlwind week where you have so many encounters with people you’re not exactly sure at the end of the week what happened but you know God has the tally and all the glory.

I have to confess to you, there were times during this season when I wanted to pack up and run home. The darkness in the prison caused me to have some mornings when I just did not want to get up and go back in there. The Lord caught my attention one morning in the book of Exodus. Specifically chapters 28-32. Moses was on the mountain and the Lord began giving him instructions as to how to design this royal garment for Aaron. The Lord was very specific about the kind of thread to use, how it should be “skillfully woven”. Not just hastily thrown together and not by just anyone but by someone who had the skill to do it right. He went into intricate detail about braided gold chains and onyx stones on the shoulders, the breastplate with the precious stones set in it. You should read it. The whole chapter is about this garment, all the way down to bells and pomegranates around the hem. The part I love best is the headdress. The Lord says they shall make a plate of pure gold and engrave on it, “Holiness to the Lord”, and it shall be on the front of the turban. The first half of the next chapter is all about the ceremony to honor Aaron as he is consecrated to the priesthood. God is laying out this elaborate plan to honor Aaron and his sons in front of all the children of Israel to make it clear that God has set them apart as his royal priests. Do you know what Aaron was doing while God was giving these careful instructions to honor him? Making the golden calf. I wish I could make a long dramatic pause right here. For the first time I seen this in a whole new light. Don’t you love how God does that with His Word! Aaron was doing the very thing that was an absolute abomination to the Lord in front of hundreds of thousands of witnesses, and it did not change God’s mind to dress him in His righteousness. (Other than the one brief moment when He wanted to wipe all of Israel out of existence and Moses begged Him not too, but we all have those moments J)

How great are the mercies of God! There is not one thing any of these inmates have done or are currently doing that has changed God’s mind about clothing them in His righteousness. Proverbs 4:22 tells us that God’s words are life to those who find them and health to all their flesh. Reading this word about Aaron gave new life to my spirit and health to my flesh, which was becoming weak. It renewed my vision. He doesn’t see what we see. Poor Moses. Can you imagine after being in the presence of the God for 40 days having to return to that! I probably would have agreed with God about wiping them all out and just making a great nation out of me. But that’s why God chose Moses. After seeing how incredible God was, Moses knew if anyone could fix that mess, God could. In 32:26 he said, “‘Whoever is on the Lord’s side-come to me!’ And all the sons of Levi  gathered together to him.” Including Aaron. And although 3,000 men fell that day as a result of their unrepentance, God was faithful to His Word, and clothed Aaron in the royal robes just as He said He would.

This shouldn’t surprise us about God. Numbers 23:19 says, “God is not a man that He should lie, Nor a son of man that He should repent. Has He said and will He not do? Or has He spoken and will He not make it good?”  This passage is it’s own wonderful story about God’s mercy. It’s where Balak is trying to get Balaam to put a curse on Israel and God said to Him in Chapter 22, “You shall not curse the people for they are blessed.” Mind you, in Chapter 21 the people were telling Moses he should have left them in Egypt and their “soul loathes this worthless bread.” That’s a pretty harsh statement against God, when that “worthless bread” was the very thing keeping them alive. God sent fiery serpents among them and it says many of them died. But isn’t it interesting, God will not allow someone else to curse them. In Numbers 23:8, Balaam says, “How shall I curse whom God has not cursed?” To many onlookers, it may have looked like Israel was wondering around in circles with no direction. But God had a plan and He called them blessed. How dare I look at any individual and think God couldn’t possibly have a plan for them. (Oh yes, that thought has crossed my mind.) They look like they’re wandering aimlessly, they’re in constant rebellion against God, they love Egypt. But how do I know that He hasn’t called them blessed?

I’m telling you, this has been a growing revelation for me. I was in General Dollar last week. And this woman came in and asked the checkout guy about someone. He was so rude and short with her, that she started to respond then obviously bit her tongue, did an abrupt turn and went out the store. She looked like the type of person who was a million miles away from God and He would be the last person she’d want to hear about. Yet because of these passages I kept thinking what if God did want to reach her, what if He calls her blessed. I was thinking if she was still outside maybe I should say something to her. Sure enough she was in her car, just sitting there. I went to my van, thinking of how I’d approach her and how my words might encourage her, got into the van, still thinking, and drove off wondering if my words would have made her feel any better. I got a couple of blocks away, turned around and went back to the parking lot. She was still there. With my heart in my throat, I walked over to her window and told her I’d heard how the clerk had spoken to her and I just wanted to bless her. I gave her some money, which surprised her very much, and asked if I could say a pray over her. Her whole demeanor changed instantly. After I prayed, she asked if she could get out of the car and hug me. We looked like two of the most unlikely people to be hugging one another in the parking lot. No matter their appearance, no matter their attitude, what if God calls them blessed. What if His design is to clothe them in royal robes and put a gold plate on them that says, “Holiness to the Lord.”

Some people seem to have a natural gift for witnessing and the goodness of God oozes out of them. As much I as I have went into prisons, jails, halfway houses, and been with the homeless, it’s still hard for me to walk up to a stranger and share Jesus with them. I tell you this story because we’re all a piece of work in progress. Even when though it’s hard or awkward, and sometimes we’ll drive away knowing what we should have done and didn’t do, still try again. There is not one person who has done something so awful that God doesn’t want to complete His plan for their life.

 

Love,

Pam