January 2020

Hello Saints,

                 For those of you who have not heard, mom went to be with Jesus  on December 24, 2019. This picture is the closest example as to how the two of them are looking right now, so happy to be reunited, and rejoicing even more that they are in His Presence together. Only I am sure their bodies are in the best shape ever! And there’s a possibility that there may not be any motorcycles in heaven (if you can’t tell, that’s what they are leaning on), but then again, we won’t know until we get there.

On December 13th, I was in mom’s living room, having my morning devotions while she was still sleeping and reading the 1st chapter of Luke. I only know the day, because something struck me so profound about this chapter that I had to write it out. Zacharias was given this beautiful prophecy about John right after his birth from verses 67-79. I wonder what Zacharias and Elizabeth thought John would be like from this beautiful prophesy about John’s purpose and anointing. Since Zacharias was a priest, I wonder if he thought John was going to be a great priest who would lead the people in great victorious battles, where he’d hold his hands up over the army like Moses and the army would prevail tremendously. Or maybe he thought John would have visions like Ezekiel that’d fill peoples minds with awe and wonder. Or maybe he’d give prophesies like Isaiah that’d be written down and read in the temple for generations to come. Whatever it was that John was going to do, he knew it was going  to be incredibly awesome for through his own mouth the Holy Spirit had said that John “will be called a prophet of the Highest”… going “before the face of the Lord to prepare his ways…” giving “salvation to His people by remission of their sins”…(surely this meant he’d serve in the temple!), “to give light to those who sit in darkness and the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the way of peace.” I’m wondering if Zacharias ever dreamed about the day when John clothed in priestly robes would stand before great crowds of people reading the scriptures and explaining all the mysteries of God as he gave “light to those who sat in darkness” & guided their “feet into the way of peace.” What else could words like this mean?

As John grew in the wilderness, do you think Zacharias doubted the words he thought he heard? Maybe it wasn’t the Holy Spirit at all, maybe he’d just spoke out of his own wishful thinking. Do you think he ever felt self conscious being at the temple, dressed in his robes, carrying out his priestly duties, wondering if the people there were whispering about his son, who was “supposed” to be this great prophet full of such insight and holiness, who was living like a wildman on locusts and honey? Who in his way of giving salvation to people by remission of their sins broke every tradition that Zacharias had ever been raised in? How did his son think that by simply pushing them under the water their sins could be forgiven? Where was the sacrifice? People bathe in the rivers everyday, if this was all it took, wouldn’t their sins already be washed away?

Unless if the Holy Spirit was giving Zacharias and Elizabeth a super natural download throughout John’s life (which He totally could have), then they were probably like most of us, wondering if they’d actually heard from God at all.

 

Luke 1:80 says “So the child grew and became strong in spirit and was in the deserts till the day of his manifestation to Israel.” That’s what the scripture tells us. Which gives us the comfort that his parents must have known he was in the will of God. Did they? In hindsight, knowing the whole story, it makes perfect sense. But in truth, we don’t recognize the trials that cause us to become “strong in spirit.” We don’t see them as nutrition for our inner man and definitely not as building blocks for our character.

But what an insight as to how God sees it! While people are shaking their heads at what appears to be our failure, especially after such a great proclamation at John’s birth, this son who’s spending his days aimlessly in the wilderness, God sees what’s building on the inside. He didn’t let John waste his time building a house he was never meant to live in, or to spend in years in a profession he wasn’t called too. What looked foolish to men, was wisdom to God.

In light of mom’s passing, this insight has become so dear to me. I believed with my whole heart mom was going to be healed. She had a tremendous healing in late August/early September and for weeks the Lord overwhelmed her daily with his goodness. He literally was showering her with His presence so much that many times she said she didn’t know how much more she could stand. About 2 weeks before she passed, she got up one morning and said she’d dreamed that night she was healed, doing all the things she used to do. We were doing exercises, and even though she could only do them while sitting, I had no doubt she was going to get stronger. Then one day she woke up confused and extremely weak, and within 8 days she was gone.

In Luke 7:19-20, while in prison, John sent his disciples to ask Jesus, “Are you the coming One, or do we look for another?” John didn’t ask Jesus to deliver him from his circumstances but he needed to know if Jesus was Who He said He was. On Christmas eve throughout the day as I walked around mom’s room, watching the signs as her body was shutting down, remembering all that I “thought” would happen, how I had interpreted what I “thought” I had heard from the Lord, what I really needed to know was if Jesus was who He says He is.

That night, Patty, her husband, and I, along with some faithful saints were praying in her room, and moments before she passed, her face transformed so beautiful, so soft, her breathing which had been labored all day, became natural and relaxed, and then with a wisp of air, she went from here to glory. We knew in that moment, without a shadow of a doubt that He is Who He says He is. And how appropriate that she went on Christmas eve. It’s the whole reason that He came, “For there is born to you this day in the city of David, a Savior, who is Christ the Lord.” Luke 1:11  He came to give us this hope of glory. To grant to us the inheritance of eternal life through forgiveness of sins. Our hope all through her sickness was never displaced. It was right where it was supposed to be.

I pray that whatever you’re believing God for, that you will see His goodness and His faithfulness. No matter what it looks like, trust in His wisdom. In Luke 7:24, concerning John, Jesus asked the people if they’d went out to see “A reed shaken by the wind?” John was not blown about. He was sure in what God had sent him to do. And apparently Jesus liked that about him because he certainly took time to point it out. Stand. Know that He is God.

God bless you in this New Year and grant you peace.

 

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam

December 2019

Hello Saints!

What a delightful time of the year to rejoice in all the Lord has done for us! No longer a baby in a manger but now King of Kings! He came in so silently, so sweetly, so tiny to have such a massive purpose. He gave a divine example of how we can be flesh and bone, and yet carry out a Holy calling. He promised that when we are weak, He will be made strong through our weakness. Even if He hadn’t of come, He would have been qualified to make that statement, but just to make believers out of us, He left His heavenly home, to prove to us that He could live on earth as a Son of God, in order to strengthen our faith that we could also. How can we not be thankful that He has provided a way of escape for us! Not only a way of escape but a direct path to the Father! He is the way, the truth, and the life! He is the door that will lead us into everlasting life. He is the shepherd that will lead us beside the peaceful waters. He is the vine that will strengthen and support us. He is the living water that will nourish our spirits so that we never thirst again. There is nothing else we need to run after to fulfill us because He is what we have always been searching for and in need of. He is awesome and amazing and marvelous!!!

Just like a lot of you, we have been in a season of valleys and mountains. A lot of people complain of plateaus, feeling like they’ve reached a place where nothing’s happening. And then there are those of us, who see a plateau coming, and our heart speeds up as we think we’re about to land and just rest a while. Then all of a sudden it seems like the landing gear isn’t working, and instead of landing, we skid across what we know would have been a beautiful place to just sit and reflect awhile and we slide right over the edge! And our brain is screaming, “Lord, I don’t want to learn anything else right now!” We have to believe that either His grace is sufficient or its not.  When you look at the place you’re in, just think “I can do this with hope or without it”; I’d choose hope if I were you. What have you got to lose? J It doesn’t cost a cent to put your hope in God and leave it there. But the benefits, oh the benefits!!! “Bless the Lord, O my soul; and all that is within me, bless His holy name! Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits; Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases, Who redeems your life from destruction, Who crowns you with loving kindness and tender mercies, Who satisfies your mouth with good things, So that your youth is renewed like the eagles.” (Psalm 103:1-5) I think that is pretty self explanatory! Those are all good things!

The first sign of mom’s cancer in May of this year was a cough that eventually became so bad it’d keep her up most of the night. She couldn’t rest without coughing. She couldn’t talk without coughing, so much so that we had to resort to mostly texting to communicate. The fits grew worse. It was at an appointment with the cancer doctor either in July or August when again she was asking them wasn’t there anything they could possibly do for the cough and he very matter of factly told her, it would never go away. Due to the progression of the disease, there was simply nothing to be done. I can’t tell you the number of times we prayed for it to stop. We prayed, proclaimed scripture, listened to scripture, and prayed again. After a few months, when she’d cough, I’d mostly ignore it, but mom diligently would pound on her chest and tell that thing to be gone in the name of Jesus. Guess what – mom is not coughing. I don’t know when it actually happened, but she pointed it out to me last week. It’s gone. And her voice is getting stronger. And one day, her feet didn’t even swell. What has it cost her to keep believing in Him? Nothing. What did she have to lose by not proclaiming His promises? Everything. What did she have to gain? Everything! It’s a victory worth shouting about! Mom keeps saying she wants to go see that doctor and show him she’s not coughing! She has a Physician who will never leave nor forsake her, whose promises are Yes and Amen!

Last week I had a dream about the end times, the sky was full of helicopters, people were running in mass, someone started shooting from the ground at the helicopters, and then I woke up. Immediately I heard, “Do not be deceived.”, and that left me wondering….  So it further surprised me when a while later, I opened my bible to read and seen my bookmark was at the 1st chapter of Revelation. It definitely made the dream seem more ominous. We’ve heard about the book of Revelation so much, heard so many end time prophecies, seen so many times past when people thought for sure it was coming, (December 31, 1999, my heart was certainly in my throat as the countdown for midnight took place) that it’s easy to be lulled into this sense that we will never see it in our lifetime. Do not be deceived. Do not be deceived by the overwhelmingly bad news on the television so that you think certainly the sin in the world is winning. Do not be deceived by the looming darkness. Do not be deceived by despair. Do not be deceived into believing for one minute that maybe it’d be easier without God, it won’t be!!! Do not be deceived into thinking that maybe He doesn’t even care. He has a plan.

This has actually been my best reading of the book of Revelation ever! In 5:13 it talks about every creature which is in heaven and on earth and under the earth and in the sea, and all that are in them shall be saying, “Blessing and honor and glory and power Be to Him who sits on the throne, and to the Lamb forever and ever!” “Every creature in the sea…” Have you seen those shows where the ocean specialists are trying to interrupt the sounds the whales and dolphins are making in the water? They should read the bible! We can tell them! They’re giving praise and honor to the One who created them! Every creature “on earth and under the earth…” I had this image pop into my head of Jesus coming towards the earth in the clouds and every ant on the face of the earth and in the earth stopping in it’s tracks, legs sprawled out in front of it and it’s head touching the earth as they bow to the Lord of Lords and proclaim His glory. The birds will be going crazy all chirping at once, the elephants sounding their trumpets, lions roaring, cows mooing, chickens squawking, frogs croaking, ducks quacking, all of creation sounding off in a glorious symphony, unlike anything we have ever heard before. Can you imagine it?!!! Doesn’t that stir something inside of you! And if that weren’t enough commotion, verse 7:9 “After these things I looked, and behold a great multitude which no one could number, of all nations, tribes peoples and tongues, standing before the Lamb, clothed with white robes, with palm branches on their hands, and crying out with a loud voice, saying, “Salvation belongs to our God, who sits on the throne, and to the Lamb!” These are only the ones who have come out of the great tribulation, so this isn’t even the total number of the saints who will be worshiping Him! Can you imagine the sound!!! Thank You Jesus for coming so we can be a part of all this! This is our inheritance! This is all part of the package of eternal life.

I know Revelation hardly seems like holiday reading material but if you’re going through any kind of holiday blues, I strongly suggest it. It embodies the persona of a mighty, powerful God who has not left us without remedy. He has a plan that will not fail. Our hope of glory is not a far off fairytale. He is not sitting with His hands tied, wondering how we’re going to get out of this mess. If your situation is so dire you don’t have time to read all the way through, skip right to chapter 20:1-2 “Then I saw an angel coming down from heaven, having the key to the bottomless pit and a great chain in his hand. He laid hold of the dragon, that serpent of old, who is the Devil and Satan, and bound him for a 1,000 years and he cast him into the bottomless pit, and shut him up, and set a seal on him…” One angel binds Satan, count them; One! We often give him credit for being more powerful than God, not sure if God can deliver us from his works against us, but ONE angel lassos him with a great chain! But don’t stop there, read chapters 21 and 22, you’ve come this far, you may as well get to the best part! 21:4-7, “And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes, there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away. Then He who sat on the throne said, “Behold, I make all things new.” And He said to me, “Write these words for the true and faithful.” And He said to me, “It is done, I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. I will give of the fountain of the water of life freely to him who thirsts. He who overcomes shall inherit all things, and I will be his God and he shall be My son.”

Hold on saints! You are counted among those who are faithful, you are an overcomer, He is your God. He shall wipe away your tears, you shall see no more death, no more sorrow, no crying. He will make all things new for you. He is your Alpha and Omega, your beginning and your end.

Have a wonderful Christmas and a blessed New Year!

Love, Your sister in Jesus,

Pam             

November 2019

Hello Saints!

“Oh give thanks to the Lord!  Call upon His name; Make known His deeds among the peoples! Sing to Him, sing psalms to Him; Talk of all His wondrous works! Glory in His name; Let the hearts of those rejoice who seek the Lord! Seek the Lord and His strength; Seek His face evermore! Remember His marvelous works which He has done, His wonders, and the judgements of His mouth…” I Chronicles 16:8-12  Even His judgements are wondrous because through Jesus, He has judged us to be righteous! While reading the word this morning and coming upon the armor of God in Ephesians, I thought of how patiently this week, the Lord stood me up, and He, Himself, girded my loins with His belt of truth as He reminded me that He will not fail me and that all things will be made manifest by His light. He patiently put His breastplate of righteousness over my war weary clothes and whispered that the battle is not mine, but His. He shod my feet with His gospel of peace and unswervingly told me that He gives me peace not as the world gives, so don’t let my heart be troubled, nor let it be afraid. He picked up the shield of faith, that I had so carelessly let fall under the bed, and put it back into my hand with the assurance that faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen, because everything that I do see, the trees, the ocean, the earth, was made by that which was not visible, and yet here it is, so surely I can trust Him to accomplish everything that He has sent His word to accomplish. As He straightened the helmet of salvation over my disheveled hair, He kissed my forehead and my heart rejoiced with the knowledge that He is my light and my salvation, whom shall I fear. It was so easy then to pick up the sword of the Spirit, the living word of God, and to delight myself in it. Just like your own children, when learning to dress themselves, don’t always get it quite right, God doesn’t mind to come in and make the adjustments.  I love Him for that!

This month was a turbulent whirlwind. Sometimes, the best thing you can do is hold on. The first weekend of the month we were at Little Sandy Correctional in Kentucky with about 1,000 inmates. The Lord’s strategy was phenomenal! He has the best plans. In this prison, we also give out snacks. However, we usually set up the snack table over by the chapel, and although a lot of inmates come over there to get them, it hasn’t seemed like an effective ministry time. Good but not great. This time, we set up over in front of the dorms, by the basketball court and literally hundreds of men were standing out there in lines, as well as all around the area. We had the sound system set up with a constant flow of musicians and speakers sharing testimonies, while individual volunteers were talking & praying with the men. It was like a heavenly carnival. The Spirit was flowing like living water. The presence of God was beautiful. I watched one young man standing with his arms folded in front of him for almost two hours listening intently to everything being said. Finally I made my way over to him and started a conversation with him. He told me how the Lord had delivered him from drugs in jail. He had been coming in and out for 8 years. But this time he knew the Lord was changing his life. However, he had only been at this facility a short time and didn’t want anyone to see him going to church. Since he was new, he didn’t have any reputation here and he didn’t want them to think he was weak. We talked about if you deny the Lord before men, He will deny you before His Father.  Although he understood this, he still wasn’t convinced it’d be a wise move for him. That evening he didn’t come to our service. The next morning, we’re walking in, across the yard, and he was sitting at a picnic table. I said, “Hey, I didn’t see you at church last night.” He started to give me an excuse and I told him I didn’t want to hear it. It was Sunday morning, so we had to get straight to the chapel for the service. After a little while, in he came. At the end of the service we had baptisms.   When the men who had signed up for baptisms were finished, Pastor William Bumpus, kept asking if there was anyone else who wanted to get baptized. Finally, this young man, stepped up to the plate! Afterward he told us how the Lord kept working on his heart after I’d walked by him. He had been waiting for another guy from another dorm to come outside and braid his hair, then it started raining, so he went back to his own dorm. He tried to get on the computer and the computer kept kicking him off. Then he went back to his bed area, and one of our male volunteers came on his dorm and started talking to them about coming to church. So he said, he threw his hands up and said “Okay, Lord, I’ll go!”

The weekend after that we had a retreat for some men from the halfway houses in our area at Stillwater Retreat in Yoder, IN.  If you’re ever in the market for a great place to have a retreat, look them up! The men who came are in recovery from alcohol and drugs.  A lot of them have been recently released from jail or prison. They loved being out in the woods! They fished, canoed, did team building activities, ate, ate, and ate some more, had testimonies and times of sharing. My friend, Johnny Hill, from Indianapolis, who did 38 straight years in prison, came and at almost 70 years of age, roasted a hot dog for the first time in his life! Darius D’Vine Wordz, also out of Indy, came ( who I believe did about 5 years in prison, and is now serving the Lord while working at the Wheeler Rescue Mission in Indy ((where Johnny also works)), and did some great christian rap for the guys. Who knew, that serving the Lord could be both fun and recreational!!!

The third weekend we were at Westville Correctional. A totally different weekend than the first two weekends of the month. I think that’s why we never tire of prison ministry. Every facility is different in set up, in what they will and won’t allow us to do, what type of program can be done, and how we are allowed to interact with the inmates. And yet God shows up. He is not put off by the conditions or limitations. When you see Him move on someone, when their eyes are enlightened by what the Spirit gives them understanding to, as a heart of stone turns into a heart of flesh and they allow themselves to feel the love of the Father, you realize it was worth the drive and totally worth jumping through the hoops.

Mom is so grateful for all the cards and prayers she has received that she wrote a note for you:

  “ To My family in the Lord, all these years, 

         I love the family of God, and keep you in my prayers. Thank you for your prayers and all your cards and love for me. 

      I can hardly describe or explain this wonderful place where the Lord has me. He fills me full everyday with Himself, peaceful, free from pain, praising Him morning until night. I don’t understand it, I don’t really know why. I do know that He can love us more than we can ever stand it!

     Many years ago, He gave me a dream. We were living downstairs, and one day I decided to go upstairs. I climbed the stairs and the first thing I noticed was the light, it was so full of light. Next, there was a kitchen so full of modern equipment, everything you could possibly need in a kitchen. Next was a room full of flowers, plants, trees, so much beautiful life. Next, the room was full of beds, all shapes, sizes, even one hanging from the ceiling. There were many resting places. I threw up my arms and said, “How come we’re not living up here?” This is where He wants me to live. I know the Lord gave me this dream. I have never forgotten it all these years. When you know He has given you a word, vision, dream, and you are sure it is from Him, I encourage you to watch over it, keep it, believe it. No matter how long it takes, He will bring it to pass and put you there. This is where I am now. I am overwhelmed. This is where He wants me to live, in His light, His provisions, His beauty, His rest.”      Love, Jane                                              

Isn’t that a beautiful dream! “14 For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, 15 from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named,16 that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, 17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— 19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.”   Ephesians 3:14-21 NKJV

We have so much to be thankful for!!! Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam 

October 2019

Hello Saints!

                        Glory to God in the highest! Praise be to His blessed Name! Let our faith be stirred up as we remember how great and awesome He is! Galatians 6:9 tells us “And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart”. It may seem like you’ve prayed the same thing over and over, or that a situation just isn’t changing but in Psalm 77, it tells us to remember the works of the Lord. Remind yourself of the situations where He has been faithful, even if you have to look all the way back to Moses! “Will the Lord cast off forever? And will He be favorable no more? Has His promise failed forevermore? Has God forgotten to be gracious? Has He in anger shut up His tender mercies? And I said, This is my anguish; But I will remember the years of the right hand of the Most High. I will remember the works of the Lord; Surely I will remember Your wonders of old. I will also meditate on all Your work. And talk of Your deeds. Your ways O God, is in the sanctuary; Who is so great a God as our God? You are the God who does wonders; You have declared Your strength among the peoples.” Psalm 77:7-14  See how the whole tone changes when you start recalling Who He is? You can start out questioning where He is, wondering if He is ever going to move again, but when you look back at all He has done, your faith stirs up and hope arises within your spirit.

Last night I pulled up some videos on YouTube of the charismatic movement of the 70s. Watching stadiums filled with people raising their hands to the Lord, tears streaming down some of their faces, stirred my faith up. What He did then, He can do again. His mercies are everlasting. He can certainly move across our nation and cause multitudes of hearts to return to Him. He can send His glory down in waves and open the eyes of those blinded by this world, to see the One who created it all.

I say all this after my own faith was wavering this past weekend when Patty and I went to the Luther Luckett men’s prison in Lagrange, Kentucky. I felt like we were the fishermen in the boat pictured at the top of this letter.  From our understanding there were 29 volunteers going to meet us there. When we showed up on Saturday morning there were 4 others who showed up. Had it of been a chapel event, this would have been totally fine, but we were to minister on the open yard. So 6 of us went into a prison of 1200 men with a couple hundred of them on the yard at once. It seemed like a lot of fishing to be done with very few poles and not enough nets! Somehow the instructions had gotten mixed up and even though we were asked to be there that morning, when we were escorted out into the prison yard where the chaplain already was, he said, “I wasn’t expecting you but you’re welcome to walk around the yard and talk and pray with whoever you want to.”  ????? (That’s what my brain said.) We had printed copies of the emails with us that said it was a 2-day yard event, and we could have made an enemy out of him by proving him wrong in front of the inmates with our written proof, but you have to choose between validating yourself or just taking the opportunity the Lord has put in front of you.  He could just as easily have told us to leave and come back the next day. That morning was overwhelming enough, then in the afternoon, the chaplain gave out snow cones in the yard, which is an unheard of occurrence in prison, so there were literally hundreds of men that came out! There was no preaching. We simply walked, around and either sat with them at tables or talked to them standing up. The yard was huge. There was a baseball field, soccer field, volleyball area, weight bench area, and tables sporadically placed throughout.  There was also an outside track that went around the whole thing.  I spent some time walking the track the next morning with a few of them. The first group I walked with told me it was 2 laps to make a mile, then the next guy I walked with told me it was 3 laps. Either way, I did 7 laps that day, so I figured that was enough walking for about a week.

We often have in our mind what ministry should look like. That first day, it looked very unorganized. For the most part we split up because the task was so big and it looked like we could cover more ground if we had individual conversations than if we worked in pairs. You listen a lot in those situations. Patty and I always keep an eye out for one another and can recognize when we need to go to the other one, and sometimes we just get near one another so we can pass the guy we’re talking to off to the other one. (Patty’s got that down to a science!)  By 3:00 pm, when the yard whistle blew for the men to go to their dorms, we were grateful to have made it through the day.  I don’t know how many conversations a person should have with different people in a single day, but if there’s any legislation on the legal limit, I say it shouldn’t be more than 3!

The next day, including Patty and I, there were 20 of us that went in. During the morning time on the yard, we did the same as the day before and moved around talking and praying. During the afternoon, some of the team served hamburgers, chips, and cookies, while some of the team was doing music and speaking on the yard. Patty and I worked the yard, engaging men in groups and individually. There will always be a group of them around the PA system paying attention to the music and speakers, but there were literally hundreds of them standing off, as they stood and ate their food, where the sound of the service could not reach them. It was a blessed time of meeting brothers who knew the Lord and those who did not but were receptive to listen and glad to talk to someone.

The family of God is so important. The other 4 who came on Saturday morning were warriors. They didn’t complain or get bent out of sorts. Their attitudes were so much better than mine! They looked at that field like it was full of hidden treasure.  Seeing their faith, stirred mine up. That’s why we need one another. Standing alone, feeling like you need to be an island, is a deceit of the enemy. We often think that if we don’t reach out to others, we’ll have less chance of getting let down. Often we put our expectations too high on how we expect others to be. None of us will ever have it all together in every area. But that doesn’t mean that each of us can’t be used by God. Patty can reach people who’d never receive it if I said the exact same thing to them. We all have different gifts, talents, ways of saying things, or of showing God’s love, that will uniquely touch someone. Don’t look at anyone and discount them for use in the kingdom, or for the way God will use them in your life. I can walk into a garage, see all the tools laying around, and think, “there’s nothing in here that can help me right now.” A man can walk into the same garage, see the very same things, and start thinking of all he can do with those same tools. Lets not be limited by our own vision, but ask God what He sees.

Let hope arise in your spirit. May you draw from the One who is everlasting with new mercy and fresh anointing. Dip your cup into the springs of living water and drink heartily. He is good. His plans have not changed. He will do what He has said He will do. Remind yourself of all His good works.

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam 

 October Schedule

Oct 3, 4, 5; Little Sandy Correctiional Facility, Sandy Hook, Ky

Oct 7; Faith Based Mentoring, Ft Wayne, IN (pm)

Oct 10: Family Court, as a mentor, Ft Wayne, IN

Oct 12: Stillwater Camp, Retreat for men dealing with addiction and previous incarceration, Yoder, IN

Oct 13: Women’s Work Release Center, Ft Wayne, IN

Oct 14: Faith Based Mentoring, Ft. Wayne, IN (pm)

Oct 19, 20; Westville Correctional Facility, Westville, IN

Oct 21: Hope Probation Court, Ft. Wayne, IN (am)

Oct 21: Faith Based Mentoring, Ft. Wayne, IN (pm)

Oct 24; Family Court, as a mentor, Ft Wayne, IN

Oct 28: Hope Probation Court, Ft. Wayne, IN (am)

Oct 28: Faith Based Mentoring, Ft. Wayne, IN (pm)

Prophecy: UNITED STATES OF AMERICA, I AM BREAKING THE DELAYS!!!

Recently mom and I heard Dutch Sheets read this prophecy. Even though it was given in 2018, don’t think it doesn’t apply to today. Remember in the Bible, prophecies were given long before they were fulfilled. Read this with an open mind and let the Lord speak to you through His Spirit. – Pam 

Lana Vawser, Prophecy from September 2018

Over the past few days I have been feeling a sense of urgency over the United States, and an excitement in my spirit that the King of Glory is stepping in (as I released in a previous word)

As I have leant into the Lord to seek His heart concerning this, I had an encounter with the Lord where I saw the Lion of Judah positioned OVER the United States and He was HUGE. With each one of His paws on the four corners of the United States, HE was covering the entire nation.

As He was positioned over the nation, He opened His mouth and out of His mouth came a LOUD ROAR.  It was a roar of Joel 3:16:

“The Lord will roar from Zion and thunder from Jerusalem; the earth and the heavens will tremble. But the Lord will be a refuge for his people, a stronghold for the people of Israel.”

It was the ROAR of God releasing the FEAR of God across the nation. It was the ROAR of His authority that decreed “NOTHING can stand against My power and who I am”

As this ROAR of the Lion of Ju dah was released I saw John 3:16 exploding all around.

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

His ROAR was being released demonstrating His power and His authority but the ROAR of His heart was RELEASING THE SOUND OF THE GOSPEL louder than before. LOUDER than before that the world would know His great love and His power. A greater unlocking to prepare the nation for a MIGHTY HARVEST of souls.

As the Lord roared loudly, I could hear His loud roar, but I also heard the LAUGH of God. It was SO LOUD it shook EVERYTHING. Nothing could stand against the ROAR and LAUGH of God.

Instantly I heard the verse declared in the spirit from Psalm 2:4: “He who sits in the heavens LAUGHS”As soon as I heard this Scripture the Lord spoke to me: “Psalm 2:4 and Psalm 24:7-9 are keys right now for the United States. NOTHING will stand against My plans and what I am decreeing and establishing within the United States. I am releasing My laugh of VICTORY over the nation. I am stepping in! I am stepping in! Decree it with Me! The King of Glory is stepping in! I am the One who will have the last laugh, for nothing stands against My plans and purposes! I am Yahweh.”

I then heard the Lord ROAR loudly again and this time as He roared I heard the declaration being made in the Spirit: “ALL DELAYS BROKEN! ALL DELAYS BROKEN, NOW I DECREE “ACCELERATE!”

As the Lord roared over the nation, I watched as His power and justice flowed from His mouth and all delays that were attempting to hinder the mighty extension of His Kingdom and plans, were SUDDENLY falling. They were suddenly crumbling. They were SUDDENLY coming to nothing.

He spoke again: Where there has been a BATTLE OF DELAY in some ways, I now declare UNITED STATES ACCELERATE FURTHER INTO YOUR NEW DAY! UNITED STATES ACCELERATE FURTHER INTO YOUR NEW DAY!”

I could feel it in the atmosphere the joyful expectation of the power of God being demonstrated in such significant ways across the nation BREAKING DELAY!!!!

THERE’S A BREAKING OPEN OF THE WELLS – OPEN UP! OPEN UP! OPEN UP!

As the Lord was roaring over the nation I could hear the LOUD SOUND of intercession from the saints that was flowing with His ROAR. I heard Him say: “Many have heard My ROAR. Many have heard the RHYTHM of My ROAR and are interceding what My heart is decreeing and it is CHANGING a NATION from the inside out, it is changing the nation from the inside out”

I watched as HARD ground was suddenly being broken open by His roar. In the “breaking open”, hidden things were being exposed in greater ways and the victory and justice of the Lord was being released. There was a mighty move of the Spirit of God breaking chains of the “hidden things” that have been rooted for so long with their fruit being to cause major delays, these things were being broken.

Where these chains in the hidden things have attempted to cause delay in some ways in the United States, now SUDDENLY they were breaking and I watched as WELLS were opening up.

These wells were breaking open but the thing that struck me was out of the well exploded FIRE AND WATER!!!! FIRE AND WATER!!!

The Lord spoke again: “IT’S TIME FOR FIRE AND WATER!!!! It’s time for the FIRE of My presence, My love, My purification, My revival and the waters of My Spirit to cleanse and flood the nation. It’s time for the FIRE AND THE WATER! The time has arrived!! The FIRE AND WATER FLOOD!!! The United States will be MARKED by FIRE AND WATER!!!! There’s a new day of divine marking and commissioning upon the United States.”

A NEW DAY OF COMMISSIONING

The Lord showed me that there is a new day of commissioning upon the United States. There is another threshold that is about to be crossed over and that is why the Lord is brooding heavily upon His people right now to intercede and to partner with Him to see the birthing of that which He has decreed.

This new day of commissioning upon the United States is about to burst forth and in this new commissioning I saw a MIGHTY DECREE being stamped upon the nation.

“UNITED STATES OF AMERICA! THE NATION THAT CARRIES THE JUSTICE OF THE LORD”

The Lord then spoke to me again: “There shall be MIGHTY DEMONSTRATIONS of My divine justice upon the nation like never before. The roar of My justice that is being released over the nation is not only breaking delay but it is releasing DIVINE IMPARTATIONS of My justice into the land by My spoken Word, that is going to be carried in the nation and RELEASED into other nations by the decree of My people. Many words have been spoken in and over the nation that have decreed injustice. Where words have been used to release injustice, I am now decreeing that the United States of America shall be known as a nation of MY JUSTICE as My people continue to rise up, grab hold of what I am saying and DECREE IT. There is a MIGHTY BIRTHING of My justice taking place and it will not be stopped. It will not be hindered, the ROAR of My justice is being released and the world will hear it!! The SOUND of My justice being released will RESOUND!”

“As My people seek My heart and hear My voice, align with My roar of justice that is going to be mightily demonstrated, there shall be a mighty tidal wave of My justice that will flow INTO and FROM the nation!!!”

AS MY ROAR OF JUSTICE IS RELEASED THERE WILL BE A GREATER ACCELERATION OF RESTORATION

As I continued to watch the Lord roaring over the nation I heard the Lord say: “There shall be NO MORE DELAY in greater breakthroughs of RESTORATION!!! As My roar of justice is released there will be a GREATER acceleration of RESTORATION.”

“I am drawing lines in the sand over the United States and I am decreeing “NO MORE! I am breathing acceleration in the restoration that I have decreed over the United States of America.”

As I heard the Lord decree this, I heard the Chris Tomlin song in the Spirit “How great is our God” being sung all across the nation by the people of God.It was being sung almost as a “SONG OF THE SEASON” over the USA. It was a LOUD victory cry and the time for a greater demonstration of the triumph of God has arrived. In greater demonstrations of His power and outstretched arm there shall be a MIGHTY TURNAROUND!

Our God Is Greater – Chris Tomlin
Songwriters: Chris Tomlin / Jesse Reeves / Jonas Myrin / Matt Redman
Lyrics copied from Google

Water You turned into wine, Opened the eyes of the blind
There’s no one like you, None like you
Into the darkness You shine, Out of the ashes we rise
There`s No one like you, None like you
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power, Our God, Our God
Into the darkness you shining, Out of the ashes we Rise
No one like you, None like you
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power, Our God, Our God
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power, Our God, Our God
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us?
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us?
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?  Then what can stand against?
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power, Our God, Our God
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God

And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us?
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who can ever stop us?
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against? Then what can stand against?

September 2019

Hello Saints!

Our God is so incredibly awesome! We can trust Him with our fears, with our emotions, with our families, with our finances. There is no situation in which He cannot prove Himself faithful. His Word is completely true. He meant what He said and He said what He meant! If He is for you, who can be against you?  “For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:38-39) My heart is so full of love for our God who is immovable, unshakable, and undefeatable that I hardly know where to begin! While praying this morning I thought how are we going to feel when we actually see the God who we have been pleading with for all these years? I was specifying very specifically, how I needed Him to intercept the disease in the body of the son of a dear friend of mine. And I thought, if I could see Him right now, in all His magnificence, would I be so specific? Or would I realize this magnificent God, who towers over the heavens and the earth, who created every fragile thing on the planet, who was so precise in creating everything in our physical bodies to work in harmony, who made the whole universe to be in harmony, might know better than me what actually needs to be done? That’s why He said “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28) Because we will absolutely wear ourselves out trying to figure out all the pieces that need to fall into place to beat a disease. But He sees it from the inside out and He knows the exact process because He created all of it. So we can take our eyes off the situation and put our complete trust in the One who holds it all in His hands. When you drop your car off to a mechanic do you call him every few minutes with a suggestion for something he should try, or constantly text him your thoughts of what might be wrong and how he can try to rewire the dashboard and tell him all the things he might not have thought of? Of course not. You trust that you have left it with a professional who knows more than you do. When you pick it up, you cry a little as you empty out your wallet, but overall you drive away grateful that your vehicle is once again reliable. The only payment God asks of us is our praise. And it’s not even a sacrifice, because He is certainly worthy of it!

We had a phenomenal weekend at Northpoint. There was definitely warfare going on. On our first morning, the staff told us an inmate had just attacked an officer right before we got there. Over the weekend, we learned from the chaplain that inmates have attacked more officers this year than ever before. He said one day an inmate hit an officer so hard, he knocked him out cold with one blow, then took the officers can of mace out of its holster and sprayed two female officers in the face. There are fences inside the prison that separate one recreation yard from another, so that not all the inmates can be out in the same area at the same time. On the second day, from our fenced in area Patty seen an inmate, in a different fenced in area hit another in the face. On the third day, a fight broke out in a hallway of one of buildings between several inmates. This was the first time that I have been aware of, that there was evident violence all 3 days while we were inside the prison. We are in such a time of disrespect for authority that it is only the hand of God holding back chaos. However, in the midst of this, we seen God move! We prayed with men who had tears roll down their faces as God touched their hearts, forgave their sins, washed them with the blood of the Lamb and made them new creations in Christ. One young man told me he didn’t know why he came forward. He’s there for a sex crime and thought this now branded him for the rest of his life. As we talked, God was working on restoring his value. We cannot focus on their crime. That’s not our job. There is only one Judge, and we do not carry that title, nor do we want it. God commissioned all of us to be reconcilers. To show them there is a way to the Father. I was able to provide him with the address of a ministry that was founded by a man convicted of a sex crime who has overcome by the blood of the Lamb and now has a correspondence bible study for inmates. God knew exactly what this young man needed. What’s so beautiful about the family of God, is we all have different backgrounds, different personalities, different ways we communicate, and in the ministry setting, God pairs each of us up with the ones who need what He has given us. “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.(2 Cor 1:3-4)

Patty was a ministering machine on that yard! You should see that girl in action! The only thing missing was her superhero cape. She went from table to table, sitting and talking with the men, giving them the joy the Lord has put in her. She was relentless! There was no shame to her game as she professed the good news of Jesus Christ. Whenever I felt weary, I looked for her. There was no way I was going to let her outlast me!

One man I spoke with was raised by his grandmother, who now has the same diagnosis as mom. This put him and I on level ground. We prayed together and you could see the relief as he was able to share his fear of losing her. In men’s prison, they don’t show fear or emotional weakness. On Sunday morning most of our group, and most of the inmates were in the chapel for the baptismal service. (Patty told me the power of God in there was overwhelming!) Only four inmates were in the yard. The Lord had set that time apart for this young man to be able to talk openly about his grandmother, while no one was around who would ridicule him later. The evening before he almost fell down as the power of God hit him while 2 male volunteers and myself were praying over him. Without a shadow of a doubt, he knew that God showed up for him.  Since I couldn’t be in the baptismal service, here is a post from one of our volunteers who was…. 

By Terry Herman Dorohoff:”12 baptisms on Sunday! Many more touched by the power of God’s Truth and Holy Spirit, some had no words to even express what they experienced. One young man who accepted Jesus as LORD and Savior said he was so grateful to us for coming to them and when he tried to put it into words why, he said he could not even find the words to describe what God had done for him this weekend. ❤️   Nothing compares to watching a hardened man come up out of the water changed and praising the One True God!! It was nothing less than pure GLORY this past weekend as we watched men with hardened hearts fully consider what it would mean to invite Jesus in as the Lord of their lives while incarcerated and make the choice to Follow Him. It was nothing less than pure GLORY as we watched the Truth of the Gospel supernaturally fling open the eyes of their understanding and change the hardened man’s heart right before our eyes. To watch the Truth through the Holy Spirit open a Muslim man’s understanding to Christ the Messiah, who grew up in a Muslim community and that being all he ever knew. Watching God move on a completely wounded and destroyed heart and through his Spirit soften, love on, begin the process of healing and deliver the hardened man from anger towards God to a place of wanting to forgive God, others and himself. I am honored that God would even allow me the opportunity to be a vessel used by him in this world. I myself owe God EVERYTHING for delivering me from hell to heaven!”   Thank you all for praying for us and for making it financially possible for us to do this ministry. It’s the best job in the whole world!!!

Mom wants to thank everyone who has sent cards and prayers. It has meant so much to her. She just spent five days in the hospital but is now back home. God showed up in a mighty way to strengthen and encourage her. While in the hospital, her and I watched a message from Dutch Sheets. In it, he read a prophecy from a woman in Australia about America. Her name is Lana Vawser. I am enclosing it with this letter.  Please read it and be encouraged! Keep praying for America! God is not finished. We found out with mom this week, God’s word will accomplish what He sends it forth to accomplish! His hand is not too short to save! Apply His scriptures to your life the same as you would vitamins or medicine  – daily! Mom’s ministry is that of an intercessor and she has not stopped her work. I have noticed when her voice has been a weak whisper, once she starts praying, it gets stronger, and when she starts speaking scripture, watch out! The strength of the Lord fills her and raises her up. You have to keep casting your line. Those prayers matter. Speaking the Word matters. His Word will change the atmosphere of your situation. Believe that He is Who He says He is, The great I Am.   Be blessed in Jesus Mighty Name!

Love,

Pam

August 2019

Hello Saints!

July certainly went by in a blur. The first two weekends Patty and I took a small group into the Blackford County Jail for a Friday night service followed by a Saturday morning and Saturday afternoon service. The first weekend was for the men, the second for the women. The weekends went completely different but were completely phenomenal. Pastor Pat Haskins was our speaker. At the end of one of the sessions, he called the men up for prayer, 8 to 10 men came forward (I’m never taking count, so afterwards I’m always trying to figure out the numbers, but who can count when the Spirit is moving?!!!), this was after them saying the salvation prayer, and now they were coming up for healing and deliverance. The very first thing he says is, “Someone needs delivered from lust, whoever this is step into the middle of the circle.” My brain froze! I thought no one is going to admit that! A man immediately jumped into the middle of the circle and I mean, he leapt into the circle! I was so grateful for a man of God who is not ashamed to call out what needs to be called out. It was a great lesson to never underestimate the power of God and what He wants to set men free from. While we’re worried about offending someone, God is wanting to deliver them from the things we are ashamed to name. By the end of the 2nd day, most of the men who attended were truly changed. You could see the impact God had made on their hearts. Our joy when we left there was overflowing!

The weekend with the women had some interesting disruptions to say the least. While Pastor Haskins was speaking one of them would throw out random questions, meant to cause confusion, but he was not shaken. He’d look up scriptures give her Godly answers and then continue on.  It ended up that what was meant to disrupt, caused their attention to be more intent because they could see that there are answers in the word of God. We prayed over all of them individually afterward. The pastors wife, Judy Haskins, had gotten her guitar out while we were still praying and the ones who’d already been prayed for, went and formed a circle around her and were lifting their voices in worship. The atmosphere in that place at that moment was heavenly! On the drive home, we ourselves, could not quit praising the Lord!

Again, we cannot thank you enough for how you support us in this. We were able to take food in for the inmates each session and pay for our travel expenses. Because of how you bless us, I always leave town knowing the van is reliable because for once in my life I have a vehicle where the maintenance is able to be kept up to date. Last weekend I drove by myself to a men’s prison in Kentucky. At those times I’m especially grateful to be a in a reliable vehicle. But even for all the trips during the week of driving around and picking up women who are still struggling with life and all the issues that come with drug abuse, being able to take them by the van full to meetings is such a blessing. I thank God for all of you and how you have supported our family so we are free to minister as God has led us. A couple weeks ago I spent a Sunday evening with a homeless man who said he hadn’t eaten. I went through Lee’s drive-thru and got him a chicken dinner. We sat in the park while he ate. The way he attacked that food broke my heart. Sometimes we talked and sometimes we just sat in silence. And then I drove him to a place where he was going to go into the woods and find a place to sleep for the night. I was frustrated at first because I was supposed to be somewhere else and the way I ran into him, I couldn’t possibly just drive away knowing that he needed to eat. At those moments James 2:15-16 seems to hang over my head, “If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, and one says to them, ‘Depart, go in peace, be warmed and filled’ but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit?” It didn’t feel like I accomplished much that night, but He’s a son of God and God wanted him fed.

 

Something our ministry needed this summer was a couple more canopies, which we were gratefully able to get with your donations. Last Sunday in Kentucky, when it was about 100 degrees and we were out there for more than 6 hours, there were a lot of volunteers, prison staff and inmates who were very grateful for that shade! This month we will be taking those same canopies to the Northpoint Correctional Facility in Burgin, Ky. We will be there for a 3-day event, for which we have already prepaid for cookies and chips for more than 1200 inmates. It may seem silly to spend that much money on snacks but in order for them to get the snacks, they have to come out of their dorms and walk across the yard, where we have music and testimonies going on, as well as volunteers who can interact with them and speak life into them. Mom and dad attended this event for many years. It’s a blessing for me and Patty to go where they have gone before us.

Speaking of mom….At the beginning of July she was diagnosed with lung cancer, which they thought was stage 3. This past Friday we found out it is actually stage 4. It was a pretty devastating diagnosis for us. Through that night and early Saturday, the Lord spoke to me and mom both. He gave mom Hebrews 10:35-38 “Therefore do not cast away your confidence, which has great reward…” and told her not to shrink back. She says she is going to say what He says about her. The scripture he gave me was Isaiah 43:26, “Put Me in remembrance; let us contend together; State your case that you may be acquitted.” So I proceeded to state mom’s case to Him and although His word says for us to put Him in remembrance, He is so gracious to us that He actually brought all the scriptures to my remembrance that I needed to remind Him of! How awesome is that! Our flesh is quick to jump on the sinking boat. And true, it has been an emotional struggle but at some point we have to decide if we want victory, how can we walk in the shoes of defeat? How can we walk and talk as if we’re hopeless, when Hebrews 6:19 tells us “This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast…” We have this hope! An anchor keeps something from drifting away. So this anchor of hope holds us steadfast, unwavering, not drifting off into the murky waters that our thoughts would try to take us into. A dear friend sent us this scripture, Isaiah 46:4-5 “Even to your old age, I am He, And even to gray hairs, I will carry you! I have made, and I will bear; Even I will carry, and will deliver you. God’s promises are lifesaving. We stand on them, cling to them, and rejoice in them. When we think things don’t make sense, Mom has told me before that “God has more at stake.”  Isaiah 55:8,9, “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord, “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts.”  He knows what He is doing and what will be accomplished. It’s up to us to trust Him. “What can we say then, If God is for us, who can be against us?” Romans 8:31. He promises us that although our afflictions are many, He will deliver us out of them all, and tells us not to fear because He is with us and He will strengthen and help us. His ways are perfect, His word is proven. He is our shield and our staff. I’m finding myself wavering back and forth like a flag in the wind trying to find my footing when I know she is in pain and there is nothing physically we can do to help her. And I can’t imagine what those moments are like for her. That’s when your thoughts start swirling and you have to tell yourself, “Wait, We have this Hope!” And once again you secure yourself to the anchor, start rereading the promises and pick up the shield of faith that a moment ago you forgot you were holding and had dropped to the floor.

In Romans He tells us that we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us. In Isaiah He tells us He will uphold us with His righteous right hand, and that when we wait on Him He shall renew our strength, and we shall mount up with wings like eagles, and we shall run and not be weary, and we shall walk and not faint. He goes on to say that when we pass through the waters, He will be with us, and through the rivers, they shall not overtake us, and when we walk through the fire we shall not be burned and that the flame will not scorch us. In Psalms He tells us to look up to the hills because our help comes from the Lord, the One who made heaven and earth! In Hebrews He tells us to come boldly to the throne of grace that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam 

July 2019

Hello Saints!

Have you caught the big one yet? My roommate caught one last night and what a glorious reason to celebrate! She went to do some gutter work for a man she has known a long time. He has a lot of chronic pain and a serious skin condition. Before she left, she led him to the Lord and prayed over him! On an ordinary day, while doing an ordinary job, she led this man into an extraordinary encounter with an extraordinary God! We all want the big revival to come, when we will see hundreds of thousands come to Christ, but to Him, the quiet moments of just one individual surrendering to His embrace is cause for a celestial celebration!

In my last newsletter I promised you a glorious report. Well…..drum roll please….God is phenomenal!!! The event in the women’s prison June 1st, was held in the yard, so the women were scattered everywhere. There are over 900 women there. Most of them came out to get the snacks & soda at the beginning and then a lot of them went back to their dorms. I’m not good at guessing numbers but I think at least a couple hundred stayed outdoors to hear the music and speaking. Patty and I began by walking around the yard talking to women and praying for them. (Patty actually worked the yard the entire time.) There were about 14 other volunteers with us. I honestly was only going to interact on the yard & didn’t know until after we arrived that I was the main speaker. For all the boasting I do in the Lord, my confidence in myself is not so great. My mind went blank. A few minutes before I was to get on the microphone, a male volunteer, one of the singers, looked at me and asked if I was all right. My dazed stare must have given me away J. He asked if he could pray over me and without hesitation, I gratefully accepted. There are so many things I love about God. He never leaves us without help. I shared, shouted, rejoiced in the goodness of God, and at the end it came on my heart to ask them if they wanted to be refreshed, renewed, filled with the fire of the Holy Spirit, to jump up and tell Jesus they were all in. Women all over the yard were jumping up and we were all yelling “I’m all in Jesus!” It was exciting! After we prayed the salvation prayer and ended in prayer over them, the music leader was playing the keyboard and asked everyone to raise their hands who wanted individual prayer. All of us volunteers spent the next 30-40 minutes going from one woman to another praying with them. You could hear women crying, rejoicing, laughing, it was sooo beautiful. The Spirit of God was flowing through that place like living water.

Two weeks later, I was at the banquet in Louisville, Ky for Evangel Prison Ministry, that’s who Patty and I went into the women’s prison with. A woman got up to speak about what happened in the prison that weekend. She didn’t know I was in the audience and she started talking about this woman who came “all the way from Fort Wayne, Indiana” (that tickled me because it sounded like Fort Wayne should be famous), and she said at the end, when I was praying over the yard, one inmate had her hand up, opening and closing her fingers, saying, “Look! Look!”  This woman, (the one sharing at the banquet) went over to see what was going on. She said the inmate had tears pouring down her face and the inmate next to her as well, because the one with her hand up, this same hand had been frozen and she had not been able to open it or to raise her arm. Sometime during the time of them saying they were “all in” and the closing prayer, her hand opened and her arm went up! How awesome is our God!!! He seen her when we didn’t. He knew exactly what the cry of her heart was. More than anything, He wanted her to know how much He loves her and how much she matters to Him.

Two days after hearing this glorious report, my sister-in-law and I were on our way to the children’s camp, Camp David of the Ozarks. It was Sunday morning so we stopped in at a church in West Plains, Mo, called “His Place, House of Worship”. A prophetic word was given in tongues and then interpreted, all about God’s love for us. When the pastor got up to speak, he said “God wants us to know, He’s all in”. How’s that for confirmation!

So, after all that, you probably can’t wait to hear about the kid’s camp. I think this picture sums it up. (in the paper copy of the newsletter, there’s a picture right here of Jonah flying into the mouth of the whale, however I have not figured out how to get that image on here!) One minute you’re catching the big one, and the next you’re inside the belly of the whale wondering what happened. In one swift move you can go from the mountaintop into a landslide. If it wasn’t for my firm

belief that God is Who He says He is, that week would have put me back on medication and a lifetime of counseling. Did I fail? I think so. Did God fail? Absolutely not. My sister in-law, did great. Her team won all the medals, came in first place for memory verses, and bonded beautifully. She is the picture of what a role model camp counselor should look like. Only one person in my cabin memorized one verse for the whole week! And that’s not even the bad part. Like last year, I was supposed to have this cushy position, in a room by myself as the camp grandma, writing notes of encouragement to the campers each day, and going around and interacting with them at various points of the day to see how they were getting along. However… just like last year, not enough counselors showed up and I ended up in a cabin with 6 teenagers, who decided I was absolutely homophobic because the god they know loves gay people. One of my campers was in my cabin last year, and I had shared that nobody is born gay, because God doesn’t make those kinds of mistakes. Last year she tried to start a relationship in my cabin with another girl who was definitely trying to be gay, and the two of them were not happy with me when I had to keep splitting them up. She was quick to share this with the new campers and it went downhill from there. I could write pages from this point on and share with you the roller-coaster we were on every day as we went from struggle to triumph back to struggle again.

I love God so much for giving us that miracle healing at the women’s prison. But when we do ministry that doesn’t end up feeling so good, are we going to praise Him just as much? One of the new campers opposed me so much all week, that I woke up every morning dreading waking her up. The last time she got sarcastic with me was Friday morning about 11:30. They were leaving at 1:00 pm, so my heart was watching the clock! When her ride came, I was saying goodbye to someone else and didn’t see her get in the car. I was walking past it, and she rolled down the window, yelled out my name & when I turned to look, she jumped out the car and ran to hug me. The owner of the camp told me, if I felt confused by it, imagine how confused she is. She desperately wants to be loved, but is so afraid of being hurt, she doesn’t know how to receive it. Its hard to love those who despise us. And yet that’s exactly what we’re called to do. God loved us when we were unlovely. He showed me some hard things, very hurtful things about what the lives of those kids are like, and when you feel like you failed to give the love they needed, you feel like you failed all the way around, to God, to them, and to yourself. I definitely do not feel called to children’s ministry, so did God make a mistake by placing me there? Probably not. He’s good. He’s sovereign. His plans are perfect. When you have a discouraging ministry experience, you have to make a choice, you can stop and stay in a place of defeat, or you can surrender those feelings to Jesus. Why not, He paid for them. We have to learn from it and ask Him to prepare us for the next thing. Skinned knees build character.

I read the most beautiful passage in Isaiah 35:8-10 this morning. Verses 8-9 says, “A highway shall be there, and a road, and it shall be called the Highway of Holiness. The unclean shall not pass over it, but it shall be for others. Whoever walks on the road, although a fool, shall not go astray. No lion shall be there, nor shall any ravenous beast go up on it; it shall not be found there. But the redeemed of the Lord shall walk there…” What stood out to me is “although a fool”. That would be all of us at one time or another. The Lord knows we are going to make mistakes, yet He still has this place for us to walk in, where we won’t go astray, where no lion or any beast can get us. It’s a place of perfect peace, perfect safety, where we will obtain joy and gladness, and all our sorrow shall flee away. It made me think of a vision I had that I shared with you some time ago about me being on a swing with Jesus, & I burst into tears because the relief was so overwhelming. I knew I was safe forever at that moment. From the mountaintop to the valley, He will never leave nor forsake us.

A verse that tickled me while I was at the camp was Isaiah 6:8. “Here I am! Send me.” That’s me being so bold before camp, Then by Tuesday at the camp, I was like Isaiah 6:11, “Then I said, ‘Lord how long?” Ready to throw in the towel and run! Take heart saints. He will give us just what we need for every situation, and before we know it, we will be on the Highway to Holiness!

May God bless and Keep you through it all!

Your sister in Jesus!                                                                         

Pam

June 2019

Hello Saints!

It’s fishing season! And here are your fishing instructions from John 17:18-21“As You sent Me into the world, I also have sent them into the world. And for their sakes I sanctify Myself, that they also may be sanctified by the truth. I do not pray for these alone, but also for those who will believe in Me through their word: that they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in us, that the world may believe that You sent Me.”

Instructions:

  1. Are we supposed to fish? “And He said unto them, ‘Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.’ ” Matthew 4:19  “As You sent Me into the world, I also have sent them into the world.” John 17:18 Jesus has sent us. How often have we stopped ourselves from telling someone about Him because we weren’t sure if God was telling us too? If you wonder whether or not you’re supposed to share Jesus with someone, let’s clear this up right now – Yes! It’s open season!
  1. Do you need a license? He sanctified Himself that we might be sanctified by the truth. This morning. I was asking the Father for forgiveness for my thoughts and a wave of relief came over me that I didn’t have to beg or plead, or figure out what kind of sacrifice I needed, because Jesus did it already! I’m  sanctified because He was sanctified and His truth has ensured my freedom. There is nothing we can do to make ourselves worthy to share this gospel, except the simple act of accepting what He did for us. So are you good enough to share the Word? Absolutely! Not only good enough, but sanctified!
  1. What if you’ve never cast a pole before? In verse 19 He says, not only does He pray for us, but also for those who will believe in Him through our word. He has already prayed that they will believe what we’re saying. He’s praying for us and them at the same time. This actually is a new revelation for me. It gives me more courage and confidence knowing that He’s covered it with His prayer because His prayers carry POWER!
  1. What if it seems like your line is going to break? Then here’s your net; “And I have declared to them Your name, and will declare it, that the love with which You loved Me may be in them, and I in them.” John 17:26 Trust in His Word. “So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; it shall not return to Me void, but will accomplish what I please, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.” Isaiah 55:11 Whether you think it was a good day fishing or not, His declaration, His word, will not return void.
  1. What’s the ultimate prize at the end of this fishing tournament? Vs 21 “that they all may be one, as You, Father are in Me, and I in You” Jesus knows what it’s like to be One with the Father, He knows the awesomeness of that union every single moment, and His heart’s desire is to pull us into that with Him and the Father. We’ve had beautiful high-five moments in our life, those times when everything is right in the world and something happens that puts the icing on the cake, but we have no idea how complete and absolutely over-the-top our joy will be/can be when we are one with Jesus and the Father. For every person who has no hope, who are struggling for everyday existence, who are floundering trying to catch their breath; what a great catch when all of a sudden Jesus fills their lungs with His breath of life and for the first time ever joy wells up in their spirit and spills over into their soul. Yep, it’s fishing season!

Mom and I have been at the Cedarville Community Church the past few Sundays, and pastor Monte Sheets has shared this scripture about the world will know the Father sent Jesus when we are one, John 17:21.  And that resonated in my spirit. If we the body, inside our own body of believers and with believers outside of our church body, were one, not speaking against other churches or other Christians, but being willing to forgive their faults as Christ has forgiven ours, how much more of an impact would that make on unbelievers. Watching the government since President Trump has been in office, I’ve wondered how have they gotten anything governmental done with all the infighting. We don’t want to look like the rest of the world. And we have help with this because Jesus said, “I do not pray that you should take them out of the world, but that You should keep them from the evil one.”John 17:15.  He has prayed that we wouldn’t be taken out by the enemy. We have the power to walk in love when it’s uncomfortable, to be joyful in the midst of a stressful situation, to share peace when there seems to be no answer, to be longsuffering at the grocery store, to demonstrate kindness in traffic, to show goodness to someone who has wronged us, to live faithfully by the word of God, to be gentle while exercising self control, and yes, against such there is no law! Does that stir your spirit? It should, it’s scriptural! Galatians 5:22-23.

Its no different for me than it is for you, my brain was so full that it seemed to be spilling down into my lungs and my belly as I tried to pray this morning. So I had to imagine myself dumping all that out in front of Jesus.  It was a big tangled mess and I knew it looked horrible because there was no way I could organize it and lay it neatly before him, so I gave Him the whole thing as it was and what a relief! We have the freedom to do that! That in itself is worth shouting about!

This weekend Patty and I are off to the Kentucky Women’s Prison in PeeWee Valley, Ky. It’s always fun doing ministry with Patty. She never fails to give me new material for things I can make fun of her about.  And if I’m truthful, vice versa. The first time we went to this prison, we went to look for it the evening before so we’d know how to get there from the motel in the morning. Since it was November, it got dark early. I left the motel and promptly got on the ramp going to the highway, but I turned onto the off ramp, which meant I was going down the ramp in the wrong direction, in the dark, and had to quickly back up around the curve to keep us from getting smashed to smithereens! Since mom and dad had let us take their van on that trip we kept that little mishap to ourselves, sorry mom. Mom’s prayers are definitely our travel insurance.

June 14th, I will be going to the Evangel Prison Ministry Black and White fundraiser in Louisville, Ky, and from there, on June 15th, I will be traveling to Rolla, Mo for another week at Camp David of the Ozarks. Before writing this I reread two newsletters I wrote last year and one of them was from after I returned from that camp. Never, never did I think it would be necessary for me to do this again. I love their ministry, love how many children they reach, and love that they were the ones called to it and not me. Somethings we go out of obedience and then pray we learned whatever God wanted to teach us so we don’t have to do it again. Well, they asked me to come back. I’ll repeat my own instruction to myself, “We have the power to walk in love when it’s uncomfortable”. Next month, I will be giving you a glorious report.
The day I leave there, I’ll drive back to Louisville, and on the morning of the 22nd, will be going into Roderer Men’s Prison in Lagrange, Ky for the all day cookout that Evangel Prison Ministry does there each year. This is the blessed thing about ministry and the body of Christ. You don’t only have to do your own ministry, because it all belongs to Christ.

Exciting news for us is that COPE, Coalition of Prison Evangelists, will be having a regional COPE conference at the Cupbearer Café in Auburn, IN, Aug 1-3. The details and registration will be on the website; copeconnections.org.  This is an event for prison ministries to come together for worship, testimonies, prayer, insight, and encouragement. You don’t have to be in ministry to attend. And if you’d like to go, but can’t afford the registration cost of the whole conference, the evening sessions of worship, testimonies and speakers, is free to everyone. At the evening session on Aug 1st, there will be former inmates giving testimonies about what it meant to them to have ministers coming into the prison and sharing the word of God and the love of Jesus with them. On Friday afternoon, William Bumpus, who was arrested around 30 times I believe, will be speaking. He now runs the Jesus House in Indianapolis, for men coming out of prison, and ministers in prisons across the United States and in Nigeria. Also speaking with him will be a man who spent more than 30 years in prison. These are testimonies about the amazing restorative power of our merciful God.  If you need encouraged, need to see that God is still in the fishing business, this will definitely refresh your faith.

We pray that whatever your circumstance, you will find your peace, hope and strength in Jesus. He is faithful to the end. Thank you for your prayers and support. We appreciate you all so much.

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam

May 2019

 Hello Saints!

He loved us first! We’ve heard that for so long, that it seems like old news but His love for us is alive and vibrant! Has someone ever come up to you and told you that they’ve been watching you and they admire you? All of a sudden you have a connection with this person because you realize they were admiring you when you didn’t know anyone was paying you any attention, and you start paying them attention because you want them to know their admiration was well placed. J When you know they’re in the room you walk a little taller and greet others with more cheerfulness and try and keep a smile on your face, because now you know someone’s watching. God is always watching. And still loves us. I don’t want you to be jealous but I have to tell you how He woke me this morning. While my eyes were still closed, I sensed this presence all around me, loving me, watching me, and I realized it was Him! He was there, waiting for me to wake up. I was in a full glow of warm, beautiful light, although it was 6 am, cloudy & gray outside and only 37 degrees. It surrounded me. He was loving me first. Before my brain could even register a single thought. When I was fully awake and had my prayer time, all I could do was tell him over and over how much I loved Him. In my mind, I said it, shouted it, sang it, and danced it out before Him. He loved me first! It’s so easy to pour love back to someone who’s pouring it out on you. The more you praise Him, the more you open the door to receive from Him, until it’s like one of those water wheels with all the little buckets on it, as some buckets are filling, others are emptying and it keeps the wheel turning round and round. He loved you first. He loves you still. He’s watching you like someone watches a loved one they wish would wake up just so they could talk to them. Let your heart sing to Him with abandonment and unhindered adoration. He loves you!

Now I have a great faith story to tell you! I’m on the board of a recovery meeting called Faith Based Mentoring. We meet on Monday nights, share a meal, and have a message with people who’ve been in trouble with the law and/or drugs. One of the young men who attends has been on a program called Hope Probation. It’s a good program but because of the number of classes it requires the participants to be in, it can interfere with their ability to hold a full-time job. This young man had an excellent full-time job opportunity come up and decided to go ask the judge to let him off the program two months early. While waiting for the court session to start, he ran into two of the male mentors from Faith Based Mentoring. At the same time his probation officer came down the hall and asked what he was doing there and told him that he had absolutely no chance of speaking to the judge or of getting off early.  The mentors, seeing how dejected he was, prayed with him about the situation. He went into the courtroom and sat down. At the end of the day, all the cases had been called and the spectator seats were empty, except for this young man. The judge had turned off the court clock. A lawyer was at the bench talking with her. The prosecutor was gathering his things and talking with one of the mentors. It looked as though the young man was going to walk away empty handed. Yet he still sat there. The judge happened to look around the attorney she was talking to and seeing him sitting there, called the young man forward. As he presented his request to her, the judge asked the two men from Faith Based Mentoring if the young man had been faithful in his attendance, to which they responded, “Absolutely.” She granted the young man’s request. He had already spoken with the employer, prior to coming to court, and had asked them if he could start his new job the next day. He dared to believe God!

God is no respecter of persons! Whether you’ve been a Christian 20 years or are a new Christian on probation, (not with God, but with men.  Hmmm, if God had us on a probation period, what would that look like? Maybe we all are on probation…… this is going to require some thought!) He is the answer to your dilemma! What I love about this, is that this young man made plans as if God had already answered. What a great example of James 2:22, “Do you see that faith was working together with his works, and by works faith was made perfect?” Or like my dad used to say, “Even a mosquito doesn’t get a slap on the back until he starts working.” There are times when God will unexpectedly bless us when we are sitting perfectly still, but what a blessing to step out and find Him already waiting for you when you get there.

On TCT (Totally Christian Television) there was a testimony of a young man who was in prison, walking by the chapel and seen a movie was playing inside. He went in. It was The Passion of the Christ.  He was an active heroin user there in prison and was in a gang, head shaved, tattooed all over, looking like the last candidate on earth to ever become a Christian. God touched him during that movie. As tears rolled down his face, he quietly asked Christ to become his Savior. He is now out of prison, married, and has a ministry helping street people. The power of God is alive & well! It never diminishes!

By both of these stories we can see that honestly God can save the whole world all by Himself. He moved on one young man to believe Him for a miracle and moved on another to make Him Lord of His life. Our involvement is a privilege. And definitely for our benefit! God loves us so much that He lets us in on it! Has it ever taken your breath seeing someone get their answer from God? Or being there when they first realize how much He loves them? It’s soooo beautiful! Hallmark is great for anyone who likes a tearjerker, but there is nothing like the amazing power of the Holy Spirit when He washes over someone and brings the brokenhearted back into right relationship with their Creator.

The Lord gave us an unexpected treat at our weekend with the men at the Blackford County Jail.  We had a good turnout Friday evening and the ministry went very well. When we went back in Saturday morning, an officer came to us and said there were some men in isolation cells who were saying it wasn’t fair that they couldn’t come to the service. The officer explained that they couldn’t be mixed in with the other inmates and wanted to know if there was any way we could minister to them. I told her to bring them on in to the gym. There were only 3 of them. We gave them the whole show, snacks, music, preaching, as if it were an auditorium full of people. At the end, we had a unique opportunity to minister to them individually. The Lord would have showed up even if it had only been one of them. We can’t ever get caught up in numbers when it comes to ministry. When Jesus rescued me, it was only me, sitting in a chair in the living room by myself. It didn’t bother Him a bit that there wasn’t a whole building full of people to see how He moved, and it felt like He stopped the whole world just to speak to my heart. Don’t you love that about Him! We did get to minister to the rest of the men for a short time that morning after those 3 were taken back to their cells, and for a couple of hours in the afternoon. It simply shifted our agenda and reminded us Who’s really in charge.

The following weekend we were able to go into Westville with Sue and Dick Brooks for a weekend of ministry. We were so blessed to be able to join this faithful couple in kingdom work. Their humble steadfast dedication is in inspiration to all who have the privilege of seeing them in action. My best guess is that there were between 160-180 inmates who attended. My favorite part was the Sunday morning worship. You cannot help but be inspired when you see so many men in prison uniforms raising their hands unashamedly to praise the One who came for them. They have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Despite their living conditions, the fact that all their earthly possessions have been stripped away from them, and they are separated from family, they find hope in Jesus. It reminds you what really matters.  When nothing else is left, He remains.

Now that I’ve went on way too long, I may as well tell you a story I heard on the radio today. It was about a middle-aged woman who was having surgery and died on the table. She seen God and asked Him if this was it for her. He said no, He was sending her back for 42 more years. When she came out of the anesthesia, she was totally healed of her condition. So excited about the new life God had for her, before leaving the hospital, she’d consulted with some specialists and had a face lift, liposuction, and a tummy tuck and even had her hair dyed. As she was leaving the parking lot and going across the parking lot, an ambulance came roaring in, hit and killed her. When she found herself so unexpectedly in heaven, she asked the Lord what happened to the 42 years she’d been promised. He answered that to be honest, when she was crossing that parking lot, He didn’t recognize her! J While you’re shaking your head, just know I truly did hear this on the radio today.

While reading through the Old Testament, I keep noticing in 2 Chronicles that when someone new was made king, many times God mentions who their mother was. Why was that significant? I don’t know either. J But since this is the month of May it’s a good reminder that if moms were significant to Him, they should be significant to us also.  Like the little boy trying to pull in this fish that is obviously too big for him, he should have listened to his mom when she said don’t bite off more than you can chew. He’s probably wishing he’d of eaten his vegetables like she told him so he was stronger, but he won’t dare complain about struggling because she might ask him if he wants a little cheese with that whine.  He’s probably thinking he should of brushed his teeth and worn clean underwear in case this ends up being the accident she’s always talking about. As he keeps holding on, he’s trying not to let his eyes cross, because she did say they’d get stuck that way.  Is this what she meant when she said, “put that down, you don’t know where it’s been?”  But no matter how hard it is, he knows it can’t be as hard as when she had to walk two miles to school in the winter with no coat and shoes that had holes in them.  If only he’d of held onto his horses and not ran out of the house with ants in his pants. Why? Simply because she said so.  Moms, what would we do without them!    All you moms, have a blessed Mother’s Day!

“For of Him and through Him and to Him are all things, to whom be the glory forever, Amen.” Romans 11:36

Love,

Pam