November 2021

Hello Saints!

Hallelujah! We have arrived at the month where we can rejoice and remember all that we are thankful for! In the midst of where we are today, what a relief it is to have a day where we can just sit down and say, “Thank You Lord!” He is so incredibly awesome! He certainly deserves it.

Our ladies retreat was phenomenal! Way greater than I hoped for. Why do we underestimate God? These big ideas pop into my head, (like having this retreat, which obviously was God’s big idea) and then I go forth in fear and trembling imagining everything that will go wrong. Two days before the retreat it hit me that it was going to happen in 2 days! And to say my knees were knocking would be an understatement. The halfway house ladies all had to come because their house staff said so, and I figured the ladies from the work release center were only coming to get away from being locked up for a day, so my biggest hope was that their attitudes would only be mildly hostile. So why did I want to have the retreat in the first place? Because I had felt like God said so, and then the whole time leading up to it, I’m thinking, “Was that really God?” The weather 2 days before the retreat was in the 70’s. Then the day before it dropped to the 40s overnight and the best we were looking at was 58 degrees and some of the activities were going to be outside. I was sure the women were going to hate me. All my fears were for nothing! The day turned out completely beautiful! The sun was shining! The birds were singing! All the animals in the forest were dancing…… The Lord is so amazing.

We had 3 sessions of worship, teaching, and then broke into small groups to discuss the topic and allow the ladies to share their thoughts & feelings. In between the sessions, we had some outdoor team building activities, which to my surprise the ladies actually enjoyed. In the afternoon, we gave them some free time before the last session. A couple of the ladies fished, some took out canoes and a peddle boat. Two of the ladies from work release weren’t out in the canoe very long before they promptly tipped it over. One of the male mentors had made them put on life jackets before they went out, which I am so grateful for. They could both swim but since they had shoes and jackets on, the life jackets certainly helped with that extra weight. Since some of us had spent the night and since as women we always overpack, we found some suitable clothes in their sizes while we put their things in the dryer. One of the ladies from Grace House actually had a brand new outfit that fit one of the drenched work release ladies and she gave it to her. You can see God in those things. It gave the lady from Grace House value to have something she could give to someone in need and it gave the lady from work release an opportunity to see God’s provision when the unexpected happens.

As their free time was wrapping up, and I looked at how much they were enjoying themselves, I was begrudging the last session. I thought we should have just ended it with them enjoying the outdoors having fun. Having been there since the night before and gotten up early to prepare breakfast for the Grace House ladies, it had been a good day but a full day. After seeing all the Lord had done during the day with the ladies worshipping, being prayed for, receiving from the Lord, laughing with one another, I thought what else could He add to that? Besides that, I had a little speaking to do at the last session, and after listening to myself all day, both out loud and in my head, I didn’t even want to hear myself anymore.

However, in obedience to both the Lord and Jim Stoppenhagen, (who had made the schedule with me and said all this was necessary) we gathered them in and started the last session at 4pm. During the first song, the ladies got up on their feet (with no encouragement from us but from one another) and formed a huge circle, holding hands and singing “I am a child of God.” The atmosphere was dripping with the Holy Spirit. The ladies had already waded in and now they wanted more of what God had for them. It ended with ladies asking one another for forgiveness, group prayer, individual prayer, and many, many tears. And had I have kept my eyes on them having “fun”, they would have missed all that.

I heard a minister say, “America is distracted from God by entertainment.”  If people aren’t going from one activity to the next, they immediately get on their phone, to continue flipping from one thing to the next to keep themselves entertained.  At that retreat, I saw firsthand how important it is to balance fun and ministry. Those ladies tipping over in that canoe brought a lot of laughter and I’m sure they will remember it every time they look back on that weekend. But what will sustain them is what the Lord did in them. How many times will they look back and remember how powerfully they felt the Holy Spirit, how wonderful it was when they felt the Lord wrap His arms around them, how amazing it was when they realized that they themselves could have such an encounter with God. Both the inside and the outside activities worked toward the end result, but fun doesn’t break chains. That only comes from the power and mercy of God. I’m so grateful that God didn’t limit Himself to my expectations. He simply overlooked my thoughts and did what He had planned to do all along. Thank You God!

Salem Community Church in Salem Indiana volunteered to make gift bags for all the ladies who came. After dinner, while the ladies were making s’mores over the fireplace, we handed them out and that was the icing on the cake. I’m pretty sure some of them have never had a gift bag before. For those of you who don’t know it, most ladies love fuzzy socks and they were delighted to discover them in their bags. Thank you Salem Community Church, it was truly a blessing. And thank all of you who continue to send contributions to this ministry. We are so grateful. Without it we could not do these things. This next Monday night we will be providing a meal for people in recovery (coming off drugs and alcohol, some recently released from jail or prison) and through that we are then able to share the word of God with them. I’ve never been a mom who spent years preparing meals for a family so never had any idea of what it cost to feed more than just me – food is expensive!  With feeding the homeless and now with the craft ministry the Lord has given us at the halfway house, the expenses add up fast. I also recently received approval to start going into a county jail hopefully on a monthly basis. I am just waiting on the schedule to see when that will start.

I almost forgot to tell you, at 5 am Friday morning, before the retreat, I fell down my basement stairs. So I went through the weekend with a broken little toe, a bruised tailbone, bruised shoulder, bumps on the back of my head and a swollen elbow. A whole lot can happen to the body in 3 seconds. “Therefore we do not lose heart, Even though our outward man is perishing, ( I was perishing alright!) yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For out light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, which we do not look at the things which are seen but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary but the things which are not seen are eternal. 2 Cor 4:16-18

We can’t give up, even when life is painful. When you’re limping, He is not. Put your eyes on the prize and believe that God will be faithful.

All of this to say, we serve a good God, an amazing Father, Who’s ways are higher than ours. He certainly delights in us having fun or else He would never have given us water to play in and trees to wander through. He gave us an array of animals that can simply be hilarious to watch at times. But nothing should replace spending time with Him because certainly nothing can compare to being in His Presence.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving! Be blessed in His presence!

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam   

Nov 20:   COPE Connects,   Lakeview Church,   47 Beachway Dr., Indpls, IN 46224   9 am to 3 pm          www.copeconnects.org

October 2021

Hello Saints!

                   To them that are sanctified by God the Father, and preserved in Jesus Christ and called; Mercy unto you and peace and love be multiplied. (KJV) Isn’t that a beautiful way to start a letter? That’s from the beginning of Jude. He starts by reminding us that we are sanctified, preserved and called by none other than the highest almighty God and the Savior of the whole world who sits beside Him on the throne. While reading Psalm 104 last night, I was amazed and awed all over again at the expanse of God’s creation, the wonders of all He has made. As long ago as that was written, His glory has not diminished. In the midst of all His greatness, He chose us to love. Chose us to be intimate with. Chose us to draw us to Himself. He chooses to love us so much “that God was in Christ reconciling the world to Himself, not imputing their trespasses to them…” 2 Cor 5:19  He chose to not count our sins against us.

He has so impressed that on my heart these past couple weeks. When there’s an opportunity to be offended we have a choice to make and when you deal with people who have not surrendered their lives to Christ there is plenty of opportunity! Over and over I have to keep reminding myself that He does not impute their trespasses against them. I had a little debate with God about this yesterday. Not only did I want to do some imputing, I thought we should do come computing and figure up exactly what the balance owed was. He said the balance was nothing and in fact He wanted to extend credit to which they would owe nothing back. Knowing how much He has done this for me, in humility and honor of the One who is far more merciful than I, there was nothing to do but walk it out in obedience.  If we are truly surrendered to Christ, where is our argument?

Patty and I had the privilege of going to Alabama a few weeks ago to celebrate the 50th Anniversary of We Care Prison Ministry. Actually this year made it 51 years. Their original celebration was last September but had to be postponed due to all that was going on in the world. What an amazing ministry that started with one man wanting to reach inmates for Jesus. Now they put volunteer chaplains in every prison in Alabama as well as some jails and work release centers. I believe it’s about 26 facilities across the state. And these aren’t just once a week chaplains, but people who have dedicated their lives to going in almost every day of the week and raise their own support to do so as they receive no pay whatsoever. These are mostly married men and women with children, raising them on the faith that God will provide all their needs according to His riches in glory, as long as they seek Him first. They had some former inmates share their testimonies of what it meant to them to have people come in being consistent in their walk with the Lord, loving unconditionally and teaching them love and forgiveness that leads to a transformed life. Now they themselves are ministers of the gospel! We are so blessed to be in the family of God.

Also I want to tell you some news about COPE, the Coalition of Prison Evangelists. You may or not remember, and maybe I did or didn’t tell you, dad used to be on the board of this ministry. A few months before he passed, he called me and said he had put me on the board in his place. (This seemed a little odd to me as it had never been a dream of mine to be a board member, not to mention it made me feel completely out of my league with these people who were light years ahead of me in growth both spiritually and in maturity. But I knew better than to argue with him.)  Many of dad’s overseas trips were with COPE. Our former president has had to step down due to severe illness of their spouse, so now we have a new president, Andy Foster. He is the founder of Inspiration Ministries in Auburn, Indiana. They have two coffee shops, a thrift store and both men and women’s halfway houses to help people coming out of prison, or to get off drugs, or simply need some support getting grounded and rooted in a biblical community. A few years ago, I asked him to take one of our homeless guys into their program and they immediately accepted him. This is the beauty of the family of Christ. It’s his women’s house that Pam Harvey and myself meet with once a week to do crafts. The purpose of COPE is to inspire people in ministry. The conferences have always been very uplifting. We need to meet with people who have seen the power of God change lives, work miracles, and open doors that no man can shut. Psalm 145:4 says “One generation shall praise your works to another.” That’s what this ministry is all about, encouraging believers of the gospel so we do not lose heart in doing good. November 20, 2021, we (COPE) are have a day conference at Lakeview Church, 47 Beachway Dr., Indianapolis, IN 46224 from 9am to 3pm. There is no charge and lunch will be provided.  If it is not too far of a drive for you, please join us. In the midst of everything that is going on, it’s a great time to get together and lift up the body of Christ.

The work release center here in Fort Wayne has said yes to allowing their women to join us for our women’s retreat this month at Stillwater Camp in Yoder, IN! Hallelujah! Thank you Jesus! The Grace House ladies are coming as well and we will have it open to any women in recovery who would like to come for a time of healing and refreshing in Christ. If you are a woman who would like to come, simply contact me at 260-445-5617. We would love to have you. The Grace House ladies are spending the night on Oct 22nd and will be arriving at 5pm. You can come spend the night, bring your own blankets and towel, or you can come Saturday the 23rd from 9 am to 7 pm, there is no charge. Just please let me know you’re coming so we can have a head count for the meals and provisions.

Be blessed this month and rejoice in the Lord! May His love surround and overwhelm you. Our God reigns! He is triumphant! He has declared the beginning from the end! Your whole future is already held in His hand. What an amazing God we serve.

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam

Events:

Oct 22 & 23: Women’s Ministry, Stillwater Retreat, 10001 Yoder Rd, Yoder, IN 46798                      Friday night 5pm to overnight       Saturday 9 am to 7 pm

Nov 20: COPE Connects, Lakeview Church, 47 Beachway Dr., Indpls, IN 46224  9 am to 3 pm      www.copeconnects.org

September 2021

Good Morning Saints!

It’s a glorious day to worship our Savior!I just want to sing and dance and twirl around in His Presence!  He has joy for us that is unspeakable!  After that sentence, I literally just took a dancing praise break! We will get to do this forever! As I was waking up this morning it seemed as if I were seeing a picture of scenery and the Lord was telling me I could add whatever I wanted to the landscape. I woke up thinking that was odd. He made everything so beautiful what could I possibly add to it? There was nothing extraordinary about my mood. My bible reading was pretty normal.  Then, as I prayed, I asked the Lord to show me His plan for me so that I could fulfil what He has created me for. A picture immediately came into my mind of me placing one hand on His heart and my other hand on the heart of a stranger. How beautiful is that?! We are simply conduits to pass His heartbeat from Him to others. After that, joy was inevitable! I’ve been trying to calm myself down to stay in this seat and get this written but sometimes your spirit just won’t be silent!  So I’m thinking that what was added to the scenery was joy. It takes an ordinary landscape and turns it into an extraordinary one. And we can add it whenever we want to.

I heard a great message on a pure heart the other day. The pastor said that if a heart is black then no matter what situation that person is in, their view is going to be darkness. Changing their job, their living situation, their mates, nothing makes them happy because the darkness is within them. When we enter the presence of the Lord, it’s true that the light dispels the darkness.  Jesus said, “I have come as a light into the world and whoever believes in Me should not abide in darkness.” John 12:46. If there is light in our hearts, then our outlook should be brighter because of the Light that lives in us. We will have times of discouragement but we don’t dwell there, that’s not where we live. We have a pilot light that should be lit at all times! A pilot light – get it – a light that guides us. Psalm 119:105, “Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.” And then when we enter His gates with thanksgiving in our hearts and into His courts with praise, that’s when the happy feet starts! Don’t wait until Sunday. You can go there right now today! I know, at first I felt silly too, but once you get a good dose of that joy flowing down into your spirit, you will keep coming back! The more

time we spend with Him, its not to earn a higher status with Him, it’s for our own good. It opens our spirit to fall more in love with Him and the more we love Him, the more our desire to honor Him changes, and the more our thought patterns change and the more we flourish. How silly would it be if every time you tried to water a plant, the plant pulled all its leaves close to its stalk and refused to let any of the water soak into itself!  Allow yourself to get soaked!

A couple of days ago as I was praying and asking Jesus to sit on the throne in my mind, a memory came into my head of when I was 14 years old and was doing a drug called purple microdot. It makes you hallucinate. I seen a hole open in the wall in my bedroom and a little man came running out of the hole, ran across the floor and jumped into my ear, into my brain and sat on a seat in the middle of my brain and started pulling levers that opened and closed my eyes. Every time he did, I opened or closed whichever eye he pulled the lever for. I thought it was the funniest thing.  All these years later, the Lord showed me that was a demon I gave permission to sit in my mind and run the controls. At that moment (current day) I told him his assignment was over, kicked him out in the name of Jesus and invited Jesus into that place. I can’t even put into words the freedom that flowed into me at that moment. I laid there (on the floor) just praising the Lord, shouting the scripture, “who the Son makes free is free indeed!”, giving Him glory and thanking Him over and over. When I got up I was literally walking all around my apartment on my tiptoes, doing half twirls, and curtseys, and just loving Jesus with every step. I felt lighter than I have ever felt in my life! I’ve been a fully committed Christian for 13 years and the Lord still wanted me to have more freedom. He refines us because He loves us.

The Break the Dawn day of prayer and praise went really well. It was hot!!! But as it turned towards evening and more people filled the park, it just became more and more beautiful. At the end, they had baptisms. It was a great way to end the day.  Some ladies from Heartland Church here in Ft. Wayne have started coming to our Sunday service and bringing flags with them! It’s added so much to the service! It just looks glorious to see those flags waving during the worship as if to usher in the presence of our Savior.

On the 22nd of August, I talked to a homeless woman in a motorized wheelchair during our service in the park. It was the 3rd week in a row I had seen her down there. Each time I talked to her she was very tearful. She had a boyfriend who was homeless with her but really was just using her so he could spend her check on drugs each month. On the 22nd she told me she hadn’t seen him in a week. So we put her in a motel room for the past week. Today she was accepted into a shelter that helps women who have been physically and mentally abused. We called this shelter last week but they had no openings, so we prayed and asked the Lord to make a place for her there and He did!  Just as He provides for the lilies of the field, so has He provided for this beautiful daughter of His. Last week she had no idea how her situation could ever change and this week she has opportunities that she didn’t even think were within her reach.  Thank you for supporting us and making things like this possible. It was such a blessing to hear her talk about how great it was to take a shower! And a joy to have her give me a shopping list and be able to run right to the store and get items she needed. She wore the same diaper for 4 days. We bought her a nice big fresh pack of them! What a blessing it is that you support us in this! Thank you! I have the best job in the world!!!! There was a moment yesterday when I was driving to a motel taking donated food to some people and someone texted me asking for a ride somewhere and I had to tell them no. I felt like if I drove one extra block after I dropped that stuff off before coming home, I would fall apart. And that happens, so don’t fault yourself when those times come. So I came here took a break, let the Lord refresh me and then went back out to meet with the homeless woman at the motel. A wise person told me a few years ago to know my limits. There comes a point when we need to retreat, refresh and reload, & then hit the ground running! (I’m kidding! Don’t run! That just seemed the appropriate way to end that sentence J)

I pray the Lord does refresh you. That He fills your heart with joy overflowing. That living water flows out of your belly. That those dry bones get anointed with new oil! I pray He waves His banner over you and suddenly you get lost in His overwhelming love for you. Let His strength be your strength. Let His joy be your joy. And most of all, when you go to bed at night, let your mind rest and let Him be God.

Have a great month my beautiful family!

Love,

Pam

 

 

August 2021

Good Morning Saints!

Yep, the Lord is still dealing with me on the body of Christ. Colossians 2:19 talks about “the Head, from whom all the body, nourished and knit together by joints and ligaments, grows with the increase that is from God.” Literally our body is supposed to be subjected to the head. If our head tells it to walk, it should get up and walk. I Corinthians 6:19-20 says, “Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, and you are not your own? For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s”.

I look completely different in the grocery store than when I am in the presence of a group of Christians. With the Christians, I prefer them before me, I wouldn’t want them to think I’m not Christ-like. In the grocery store, it’s survival of the fittest! My face does not reflect the glory of God when someone is carrying on a conversation with the check-out clerk, long after their order has been paid for. I’m next and they need to move it. Or when I’m driving and someone ahead of me is doing 25 in a 35 mph zone, where I would normally be doing 40. I’ve been asking the Lord where am I grieving the Holy Spirit and I can’t help but wonder if it’s in these things. If I pictured my literal head being Christ, how would my face look? All the time? Compassionate. Maybe even younger.  Isn’t it funny, for those of you who are women & maybe even a few of you men, who knows – if we thought the countenance of Christ was a wrinkle reducer, we would be looking Christ-like around the clock!

If Christ were our literal head and our body was being nourished as it was being knit together by joints and ligaments (that were also receiving life and nourishment from Him) which was growing from an increase that was being given by God, how healthy would we be? How much more eternal would we feel?

Two homeless guys showed up this morning for coffee, some fruit and a breakfast sandwich. They were here one morning last week also. I don’t let all the homeless know where I live but these are two of the ones who helped move me in here and I gave them an open invitation for coffee which they’ve never abused. They came shortly after I had my time with the Lord and so I was all lit up from spending time with Him. They asked how I’ve been and I let them have it! My cup was so full it was a blessing to spill it out! In Ezekiel it tells of Assyria being a cedar with fine branches, of high stature, that grew because of the underground waters giving it height with rivers running around the place where it was planted and sent out rivulets to all the trees of the field. What if we were like that tree, with the Word of God running under our skin like the water that ran under that tree. These are the pictures that come into my head when I read His Word. I’m believing God to saturate these two gentlemen with living water, that will wash over them and run through them until they themselves become fountains that overflow onto others.

One of the ladies who stayed here has now received her disability as well as a voucher from an agency that will help her with her rent. Doors that were closed to her are now open. She has seen God’s provision and what a blessing to hear her testify of His goodness! She just got insurance on her car yesterday. She’s finally driving legally!  She was the one who actually came here 3 different times. It wasn’t until the last time, when she stayed about a month, that she was able to get still and begin to trust the Lord. To be honest, the first time when she left, I didn’t know what, if anything, the Lord would be able to do with her. I had to keep reminding myself what I mess I was and how completely He changed my life to remember that if He could do it for me, He could do it for her. Peter is a perfect example of the Lord making someone a new creation in Christ. When you read in John about him cutting off the ear of the high priest’s servant and then read I Peter, what a contrast! From the time he says, “Grace to you and peace be multiplied…” all the way to the end where he says, “Greet one another with a kiss of love…” his letter is full of encouragement, humility and sprinkled with sweetness.  It’s like – who is this guy?! He’s the new Peter, the redeemed Peter. The way he quotes scripture all through his letter you can tell how much the Word of God has become a part of his life. He certainly no longer sounds like an uneducated, hot headed fisherman. Brand spanking new. We can’t change anyone but the love of God can change everyone.

A group called Awaken the Dawn, has contacted us and asked if they can use our tents for a 12-hour prayer/worship event in the very park where we do church with the homeless every Sunday. The mission of Awaken the Dawn is to do a 100-day procession of worship, prayer and Gospel proclamation across America from June 12th to September 20th. Anyone can go to their website and pick a date to participate. If you simply type in Awaken the Dawn tent America it will come right up. Our date is August 21st, 8 am to 8 pm, Friemann Square, 201 E. Main St, Fort Wayne, IN 46802. If you plan to come anytime during the day to worship and pray with us, feel free to contact me, 260-445-5617. I’m so excited and so grateful to the Lord for giving us tents that can be used to bless His Name! This is what makes us family! It’s why we are family!

We’ve gotten an invitation to go into a county jail in another city. The date has not yet been set but the chaplain is working on it. And our ministry at the women’s halfway house is definitely beginning to blossom. There are stretches when you do your ministry out of obedience but you’re just not sure if you’re having any impact. But I guess that’s why the Lord gave us the beautiful references of the kingdom of heaven being seed. There’s so much that goes into planting as far as weed pulling, tilling, planting, watering, waiting.  And then all of a sudden…..it’s like it happens overnight. The work then seems like a small thing in comparison to the harvest.

One of our faithful partners who is an integral part of this ministry, Sam Tash, turns 90 this month! He prints the newsletters, the envelopes and then he and his wife stuff and mail them out. They have been such a blessing and an encouragement to me since mom & dad passed. They stepped right in and embraced me as their own. Plus I love how young I feel when I hang out with them.

In the words of Peter, “Grace and peace be multiplied to you in the knowledge of our God and of Jesus our Lord, as His divine power has given to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of Him who called us by glory and virtue, by which have been given to us exceedingly great and precious promises, that through these you may be partakers of the divine nature…”        May you partake in His divine nature and be enriched through the knowledge of Him as you walk in His precious promises! Exceedingly precious promises!!! Glory to You Jesus! Thank You Father!

Your sister in the love and grace of our Lord Jesus,

Pam

July 2021

Good Morning Saints!

Rise and shine and give God the glory! In this month when people are paying homage to “Old glory”, we shall be faithful to give all our glory to the One who has truly given us freedom. If all these people in the “land of the free” truly understood the freedom that Christ offers, they’d have fireworks going off in their hearts year round! My daily reading these past few weeks has been in Isaiah. What a treasure! This is buried treasure that is worth digging into. It makes us rich beyond measure. He promises us perfect peace when our mind is on Him. He tells us of the Highway of Holiness that the redeemed shall walk on. He says that those of us who He has ransomed, (the hostage negotiators always say don’t pay the ransom, but Jesus paid it in full!) shall have everlasting joy and gladness and sorrow and sighing shall flee away.  No more sighing! He declares His firm position when He says “I am He, I am the first, I am also the Last, Indeed My hand has laid the foundations of the earth and My right hand has stretched out the heavens.” No doubt about it, He owns it all. If all the fireworks displays all over the world were to be put into one spot and went off at the same time, they could not compare to the glorious magnificence of our God. And you know what else about fireworks; they have no stamina. For all their brilliance, in an instant they fizzle out. It takes a lot of power to maintain that type of illumination and there is only One who possesses it. As brilliant and as bright as the sun is, its days are numbered. But the days of our God will never come to an end.

I have an awesome story to share with you. This past Monday as I looked at my electric bill I was a little dismayed to see the amount and the due date. Sometimes these things just creep up on us. It looked like it was going to be groceries or electric. I was not feeling inclined to go on a fast so I simply said, “Lord please pay my electric bill,” and went on about my day. That afternoon I received a letter from Alabama. It  had been forwarded to me from the music team that did music in prisons for dad for multiple years and then continued to do so with Patty and I. An inmate at an Alabama prison got their address from his chaplain. In his letter he wrote that he was at the prison where we did ministry outside the prison fence last June, (the inmates were in the yard of the prison where they could see and hear us.) He said he had also been in the services in 2019 and 2020 where we went to Alabama in January each year and did four days of prison services.  He continued on that this past February the Lord impressed on him to send both the music team and “Pam” $100 each. He apologized for taking so long to be obedient and asked them to please forward the money onto me.  He ended his letter with Ruth 2:12, “The Lord repay your work, and a full reward be given you by the Lord God of Israel under whose wings you have come for refuge” and Nahum 1:7. “The Lord is good. A stronghold in the day of trouble; And He knows those who trust in Him.” The Lord used an inmate from Alabama to pay my electric bill! He answered me in my day of trouble, the same day! The Lord had already set in motion in February what he knew I would need this week. How phenomenal is that! The Lord’s hand is never short. He never runs out of ways to rescue us. And what an unexpected, double, triple blessing that He used an inmate. The man not only said he continues to pray for us but then gave us a scriptural blessing. My heart wanted to jump straight in the car and head south! It’s worth it all. It’s worth the long drives, the uncomfortable situations you get in when you’re away from home for a week or two, the sleepless nights, the hoops you have to jump through for various reasons that are just a part of working with people. It’s worth it to know that one person is hearing the voice of God and learning the joy of walking in obedience. It was so worth it to read that letter and see the fruit that is blossoming in this man’s life.  And very much worth it to have my electric paid.

How can we not fall madly in love with God over and over again. “For your Maker is your husband, The Lord of hosts is His name; And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel; He is called the God of the whole earth.”  He’s an awesome husband, the best provider, He takes care of this whole earth and never runs out of provision.

One of the young ladies who was staying with me got a summer job and housing in Ohio for the time being. Another one is still here, waiting, but actively applying at places. She is growing in the Lord and it’s amazing watching the things He does to cradle her. His love and mercy are without end. Seeing it from the outside looking in, I realize how much He does for us in the beginning. When you’re a baby Christian, you’re working so hard to get your footing that you can’t see how many times He just picks you up and sets you safely down at the next step. Another lady who was here is now back outside in a tent. It was very hard to go see her there. The first time I went it was cold and had been raining. I bought her firewood and a hot meal. The other Pam who does ministry with me, had taken her a cooler with food and supplies. When you see someone at their tent in the rain, and even when Pam and I went on a day when the sun was shining, it was heartbreaking to see what they are accepting when God has so much more for them but you can’t make them see it. All our stories aren’t success stories. God released us from caring for her and we’re confident we can trust Him to finish what He started. We have to be. He is God and we are not. When God has you doing something, stay with it as long as His hand is in it. When His hand lifts, trust that He is smarter than you are and He can do what you can’t. And know that nothing you do in His name is ever wasted.

My sister Patty and I have had the pleasure these past few weeks of sharing in two different churches about the ministry. The first church was where mom and dad attended for more than 30 years. It was such a blessing to sit in their pew! They are both churches that started supporting our father in the 1980’s! It put me in tears at the second church as a couple talked to me about dad coming to their church way back then. It just overwhelmed me that they’ve supported us all these years.  There’s no faithfulness like the faithfulness of the Lord. The Lord melted my heart with the beauty of His family. No wonder He says don’t forsake the assembling of ourselves together. How beautiful it is to walk into a place and to be loved simply because you’re in His family. Those contributions have literally sent us 1000’s of miles, enabled us to speak to 1000’s of inmates, has provided bibles and has fed and clothed countless people. It’s a perfect picture of the body working in unity. One plants, one waters, and God is faithful to bring the increase. There’s no part that’s too small. It’s all vital. Thank you all for your prayers, for mountain moving faith, for believing that God’s word will accomplish what He sends it forth to do. Thank you for your support. My heart overflows with gratitude to the Living God who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us.

Be blessed family, in the Name of our Lord, Jesus Christ. May you walk in favor and kingdom authority!

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam                                                 

June 2021

Hello Saints!

Our God is the best Father ever, so Happy Father’s Day to Him!!! He cares for us from the beginning to the end! Everything He tells us to do in His Word is because it is what He has done and would do for us. He doesn’t ask anymore of us than what He Himself has given. No one has ever loved us more purely or more deeply. How great is His mercy and grace!

There’s a church in New Haven, Indiana called The Crossing that has a 12-hour worship event once a month from 8 am to 8 pm. I believe the worship teams change every 2 hours. If you just want a good soaking in the Lord, it’s a great place to go. You can walk in at anytime and leave when you want as your schedule allows.  During the last session of the evening, as my eyes were closed and arms raised, I seen an empty wheelbarrow in front of me. As I continued to worship, it filled up with gold coins. I lifted up both arms of the wheelbarrow, walked forward and dumped the gold coins at the altar, then set it down and continued to worship. Just a simple vision but how great is the meaning. We come to the Lord completely empty. Our praise turns into a currency that we can present as an offering fit for the King! There is nothing in this world that we could lift up as an offering that would add any value to heaven, except our praise.

Its been a rollercoaster in my home this past month with the new additions. It looks so nice and neat when you type out what you feel the Lord is calling you to do. There is nothing neat about growing pains. Except when you get to the end of a growth spurt and you have this great sensation of realizing you lived through it. That part is neat.

The Allen County Jail has contacted me and said the jail is close to opening up soon for outside ministry to come in again. That means the Work Release center should be opening up as well. My soul sings!  Throughout this whole pandemic adventure, the lockdowns and shutdowns, we have never lacked for any ministry to do. It is true that when one door shuts, He will open another. He is not limited by what we think our calling is.J  But man oh man, will I have happy feet when those prison doors open! Never in a million years could someone have convinced me that I’d be anxious to run back into a prison. Our God is so amazing.

Would you say procrastination is a gift? If you were procrastinating crossing the street and all of a sudden a car ran through the red light, you’d think wow, I’m glad I was procrastinating! Sometime over the course of this past year, my friend Naomi, who is also now our ministry secretary, said I should write a book about my story. I told her I already had. (Probably 5 years ago or so.) She asked where it was. I said on my computer.  She has asked me a few times to email it to her so she could read it. Yep, you guessed it, I have been procrastinating. We had a ministry board meeting this week and since she has the gift of being as diligent as a dog with a new bone, she asked me again. Finally, I sent it to her, which has caused me to reread it so I could refresh myself on what Naomi has now learned about me.

My mom told me once that my gifting is starting things I never finished. I’m happy to say she was right. As I was rereading through my past, I came across the part where I had determined I was going to die doing drugs. I’m elated to say, I am not finishing my life that way! I’d also determined in my early 40s that I was never going to accomplish anything. I started out on a journey of worthlessness but I am not finishing it! As far as procrastinating, 5 years ago was not the time for me to do anything with it. But maybe now it is. The only reason I wrote it was in the hopes of being able to give it out freely in prisons. I’m a little excited now to see if God says now is the time. I will keep you posted. J

Rereading it has done a reset in my heart of how truly amazing God is. His grace is so incredible. If I shouted a million times “I love You God!” it would only be the beginning of my gratitude towards Him.  Every day we know He’s omnipotent. We know He’s all powerful. We know His mercy endures forever. We know that He is over all, in all and through all. We can agree on all the right words to say about Him. But sometimes we need to remember all He’s brought us through, even when we were ungrateful, when we were undeserving, when nothing was bigger in our mind than our own ego, when we were sinking and no one else even seen us, to be reminded of what a truly great Father He actually is.

Happy Fathers Day God, to the best Dad ever!!!

Thank you again for your continued support. I can’t tell you how overwhelmed I am that even all this time after mom and dad passing, we’ve had more than enough to continue the ministry because of your faithfulness. There’s no family like the family of God. I pray you all have a great month. Be blessed!

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam

 

 

 

 

May 2021

Hello Saints!

Our God, hands down, is the most holy One, the most worthy One, and the uttermost faithful One in the whole universe and beyond! I pray this song, Great is Thy Faithfulness is stuck in your head for days!!!

So much has happened this month! Remember the woman I asked you to pray about that I was waiting on to come here? She came. She was sick the whole first day. The second day she seemed to be a little better but not quite steady. On the third day, she got up, seemed to be ready for a fresh start, was looking forward to the day. I went to the store to get some things she’d asked for. It took a little longer than I thought because someone else had asked me to pick them up and take them to the store also. By the time I got back, she had packed her things and went back to her boyfriend, that she’d just escaped from. The next day she was texting telling me she’d made a mistake and could she come back. I said no. I didn’t want to start a revolving door service, where someone can come here, get clean for a few days, go back to using and come back when the drugs are gone and they need a place to crash until they can figure out how to get more money to do the same thing again. It felt like failure. Since I wouldn’t take her, she went inpatient to a rehab facility and after more than a week of detoxing, she was accepted back into the halfway house I had first met her at and now I’m getting to see her every Tuesday again when we go there to do crafts. She has since thanked me for not letting her come back. The Lord is doing a marvelous work in her. She normally is constantly moving her legs back and forth with anxious energy. Yesterday when we went to do crafts, there was a peace over her. She made me a beautiful picture of seashells in the sand with a flower as the sun in the upper corner and birds in the sky. So beautiful! Thank you for praying! The Lord answered our prayers! And we’re seeing this over and over again right now! Keep pressing in! Keep waving the banner. Our Rescuer sees and is actively on the move!

She left here on a Wednesday. The next Wednesday, a homeless man slept on my couch one night. He was one of the ones who helped move me in here. I prayed about it first and definitely sought the Lords advice. My first answer was NO. Then about 20 minutes later after talking to the Lord, I texted the person back who had asked me if he could come here and said okay. He left the next morning before I got up.

The Next Wednesday, another woman came from yet another shelter! She stayed 10 days. She was a joy to have here. She loved the Lord so much!  We prayed together, and spent hours rejoicing in His goodness as we shared the things He has done for us. What a delight! She then moved into the house of the woman who let me share her house for a year and a half after I came back from Alabama at the beginning of 2019, so her story continues…. J

This past Sunday as I was getting ready at 6 a.m. to go to the outside service, a spasm went off in a my back that took my breath away and bent me over. There was no standing, no walking, no going anywhere. I crawled into bed and it was 7 hours before I could get up. It honestly felt like a 911 emergency. I wanted to call everyone! But I told the Lord I wasn’t calling anyone but Him. A little over an hour later, my dear friend Naomi, who has never called me at 7:17 a.m. on a Sunday morning, called me. Tears just rolled down my face, (I was so relieved there would be someone to find my body J, have you ever felt like that?) The Lord had her call me to pray with me and to let me know He seen me and would not forsake me. I love Him so much!

 

Dad always said, “You can’t lose with the stuff we use.” God will always come through for us. Throughout the morning as I laid there, I was thinking of all the places I was going to have to notify to cancel everything for the week. Then I realized, even though I was in pain and couldn’t get up, that if I started canceling everything, I wasn’t even giving God a chance to move. That afternoon a woman at a shelter, where everything was going wrong, texted me. Her and another girl couldn’t take the confusion that had been going on there for more than a week and asked could I please come get them so they could go put a tent up somewhere and sleep outside where they could have peace and feel safer than they felt at that shelter. I told her I couldn’t come right them but that I would come the next day, even if I had to come in my pajamas. The next day as I moved about cautiously, I was grateful to be upright. I did go get her and not in my pj’s. The other one came yesterday. One of them is on a blow up mattress and the other on the couch. And by yesterday, two days after being unable to walk, I took the two of them up to Auburn with me, where we met Pam Harvey, and did crafts with the ladies from Grace House. I had no symptoms whatsoever! My biggest concern was getting the supplies out to the car and the Lord sent me not one, but two helpers who carried everything for me!

I only wanted to relay this to you to let you know that in the midst of glorifying the goodness of God, in doing everything we think is right, in believing with all our hearts that He is Who He says He is, we still have days full of tears and pain that seem unexplainable. But the Hope never disappears. How horrible it would be to go through those things with no hope. And when He shows up….oh my goodness, is there anything greater?!!!!! Today in my prayer time my heart was twirling and dancing and leaping!

I honestly have never seen myself as one bringing people into my home, especially in an apartment where the rooms are a little closer than in a house, but this is a new season. When I first moved in here, I kept asking the Lord, “All this space just for me?” It seemed huge! It gets a little smaller when you add people into it, but just like when the Israelites left Egypt the Lord gave them all kinds of material treasures, just so they could give it back to him in the desert to build the Tabernacle, so I think He gave me all this space just so I could give it back to Him.

I can’t tell you how blessed and honored I am to be a part of the family of God. So many people on our mailing list have been hands on in our ministry that it’s amazing to me. It’s not just a mailing list, it’s a family tree. We’re all grafted into this One Branch, this beautiful olive tree, Whose oil flows out through each of us. Never, ever, ever, would I have thought there would be so many people that I love who love me back! Who would have thought that your life is better with people in it! Who came up with this crazy idea of making us family and being in community???? The King of Glory, that’s Who!!! And we get to do this for eternity! Its only going to get better! We get to rejoice with one another in His Presence over His goodness and be floored by His excellence! What a mighty God we serve!

May His love and His peace and His joy wash over you in waves of refreshing!

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam

April 2021

 

Greetings Saints!

Doesn’t that verse thrill your soul! You can feel the goosebumps that must have run through their souls when the angels said, “Why do you seek the living among the dead? He is not here, but has risen!” (Luke 24:5-6) Hallelujah! And herein lies our whole hope. We do not serve a dead god but a living God! Who came for us, who made a way for us into the Holy of holies, who did for us what we could not do for ourselves. He redeemed us from every imaginable snare. Made a way for us to be set free from anything that could possibly entangle us and keep us from reaching Him. This is why we are without excuse. If we were still responsible for offering a sacrifice for our sins we could say, I have no transportation to get to the temple, my flight was canceled because of Covid. Or, until my stimulus check comes, I just can’t afford a lamb. And then when it does come, we could say, well so many other bills were due, there just wasn’t enough left over to pay for the sacrificial animal. Or, every time I go to the temple that priest is so arrogant and rude to me, I’ll never step into that place again, they’re a bunch of hypocrites. But because He is risen, we are without excuse. As my pastor said this past Sunday, our High Priest is already in heaven! The sacrifice that ended all sacrifices has been made! We don’t have to wait until we’re righteous enough, we simply have to accept His Righteousness. The highest priest could only enter into the Presence of God once a year, that’s how Holy He was and still is. His Holiness has not changed or diminished. He humbled Himself for our sake & said He will forego the honor He is worthy of anytime anyone enters into His Presence and will accept us coming to Him in arrogance and with accusations when we feel He has not held up His end of the deal. He is the same Holy God. After our pastor’s sermon yesterday on Hebrews 9, I’ve really been awestruck by how amazing it is that we can come before God as often as we want to. How great the moment was when the veil was torn in two!

This picture was taken this past Sunday down at Friemann Square. The woman I’m talking to was very tearful, has a lot of anxiety and fear. Her and her husband are living in someone’s basement. Her husband is not a Christian and she has a lot of mental and physical issues. I’m going to pick her up and spend some time with her this week. I don’t think it was quite 7am at this point, so not very many people had shown up yet. We had an awesome service with great worship even though we got sprinkled on and the wind picked up to the point that volunteers had to hold down each leg of the tent. We should have been singing, I’ll Fly away! The man who gave the message was speaking about how great and awesome the whole universe is and how God created it and how His whole Word is true. He said if you don’t like the truth in the Word and want to create your own truth, then create your own universe! J Good word!

Here’s the side view of one of our new 10 x 20 tents. We only put up one since it was in the 40s & we didn’t need the heaters, but it was certainly great to have this over the food when it started raining!

As I’ve mentioned Pam Harvey and myself have been going to a women’s shelter and a women’s halfway house (for women in recovery from addiction) and have been doing crafts with them. We’ve done crocheting, made jewelry, and now we’re painting rocks. This rock was painted by one of the women at

the shelter! She did it in just under 2 hours. She first drew it in pencil on the rock then set out painting. When we see a homeless person, we so often don’t consider their talents and abilities. Four of the homeless guys just helped me move 10 days ago. After moving my stuff in, they then went with me somewhere else to pick up furniture that was given to me. These guys moved couches, love seat, recliner, dining room table and chairs, after already moving in my bedroom furniture and personal things, as well as a ton of ministry stuff; books, paperwork, folding tables, tent, and coffee pots, slow cookers, its a lot! And they did it without complaint. They were such a blessing! Two of them are coming over this week to help me with a few other things around here. A homeless guy who lives in a tent, came up to me Saturday when we took the food downtown and brought me a bag of utensils for my kitchen since he’d heard I had just moved. In it was a strainer, a meat thermometer, a hand potato masher, whisk, serving spoons, all kinds of stuff. He’d found them in an alley where they’d been thrown out. I have no qualms about where they came from. I put them in the sink, washed them up & put them in the drawer! What a great family!

Jesus made the way for everyone of these to come to the throne, into the Holy of holies. We have the privilege of leading the way if they don’t already know, or of reminding them that the door is still open. I’ve been waiting since yesterday for a woman who’s trying to get off drugs to come here. She says she wants to leave her boyfriend and get clean. She keeps texting saying it’ll be just a little while and she’ll try to leave. I offered to go get her and then she told me to wait, that she’ll make it here. Even though I don’t want to put her name in here, please pray for her, that she’ll accept the sacrifice that was made for her freedom.

I’ve moved into the downstairs of a duplex that’s in a great location for ministry. I’m less than a mile from downtown where we have our Sunday morning outside service, and there’s a church a few houses from me that fixes bicycles for the homeless. The women’s shelter we go into on Thursdays is ½ mile from me to the south and there’s 2 other women’s halfway houses even closer than that to me! I’m praying the Lord will use this place to bless His Name! That it will be a place to have these women over for coffee, prayer, and a good time of soaking in the Lord.

Thank you so much for your contributions to all that we do. Thank you for your prayers. Thank you for being family. May the Lord bless you as you enjoy this Resurrection Sunday. Rejoice in the Lord always, again I say rejoice!

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam 

 

March 2021

Hello Saints!

From the time I wrote the February newsletter, to the time it reached you, our treasurer passed. It all happened so fast, it just seemed like a whirlwind hit and then it was gone and so was he. And we’re left with the wind knocked out of us, trying to get our footing to take the next step. Loss is so hard. He and his wife have a home in the country. The day he died, the well went dry and she has not had running water since. We know there is going to be a phenomenal message out of all this, but his wife is definitely not to the phenomenal part yet. She did make the discovery that it takes an unusually long time to melt enough snow to flush the toilet. If you’ve ever seen a baby colt trying to take it first steps, that’s where I see his wife right now. Her name is Beth. She works at a woman’s halfway house in Auburn and has a beautiful heart to rescue women. So now you know how to pray for her – I’m putting you on assignment.

As I was reading in Deuteronomy this morning, I was struck by all the offenses listed that I would have been put to death for, even rebellion as a teenager. God had no tolerance for that at all! For any of you who would like to let your children know how fortunate they are to be alive it’s in Deuteronomy 21:18-21. Many of us would not have lived past the age of 15! Its very humbling to serve a God who had so much mercy that He sent His Son to take our place.

Here are a couple of pictures from what we call the Friemann Square church, because normally it’s held in Friemann Square Park in the spring, summer and fall. This is where dad would still be preaching if he had of hung around. The morning these were taken, I think it might have been 9 degrees or so. In the top picture, the 3rd guy from the left, in the overalls is Mark Harvey. Him and his wife, Pam, have a powerful music ministry and they’ve shared this in Friemann Square for a number of years now. They’ve supported and participated with our ministry for more years than I can keep track of.

In the bottom picture, the guy on the right in the green coat, isn’t homeless as he looks. His name is Chief, (Steve Delarosa). He’s not only one of our board members, but he does worship and alternates with other men who give the Sunday message at this ministry. Chief brings the tents, the sheets of plastic to put up as sides, a generator, and some salamander heaters and that’s what makes this a real party.  I wish I could introduce you to all the volunteers, they are a phenomenal group of people.

“Coffee Dan” brings coffee, Ms. Glady brings homemade cookies, sausage sandwiches, and a ton of hugs, which she has done for multiple years! All the guys love her. Some men from a gas station bring donuts, milk and juice. What’s so unique about this, is that in different seasons, different people just show up, bringing their own flavor to the pot. There’s no committee, no board meetings, God is the overseer and the director.

This is the first winter, since we began participating with this ministry in 2010, that the services have remained outside all winter.  We’ve knocked on some doors and they’ve stayed shut. I honestly don’t know how the guys who live outside make it. After being out there with them for a few hours, I go home feeling traumatized.

We’re there from approximately 7 a.m. to 9:15 a.m., and one Sunday, I honestly did not feel warm until about 4pm! As I was pleading with the Lord one Sunday to please not let me lose any of my toes, (that was before I discovered the insertable foot warmers at Walmart), it didn’t make sense to me what we were still doing out there! Is this what church is really supposed to look like? I was perfectly comfortable getting down there about 7:15 after everything was set up, (after all I’m a girl), but the Lord showed me after that freezing day, that I needed to be more invested. So this last week, I went earlier and was actually the first one to arrive. When one of the homeless guys showed up, I told him to get in, and then a woman walked up, so she got in also. We sat in the car in the dark, it was 6:30 a.m. and talked. There was nothing uncomfortable about it, just sitting with family before church. When the equipment showed up, what unfolded was so beautiful to be a part of. As we worked, more homeless and volunteers came and everyone picked up something and contributed. I’d been part of the tearing down process and honestly thought that was enough for me. But seeing it from beginning to end made me see it totally different. This is exactly what church should look like. When Chief had told me a few weeks before that he was getting down there at 6:30, I thought “you go ahead on brother, I’ll just be finishing my first cup of coffee.” (There’s no need for all of us to be overachievers. J)

This is not to be condemning in any way, shape or form, because we are all called to something different, but we have such a view of how comfortable church should be, that it’s good to be reminded that it’s not about us. Watching the homeless jump in and work along side us, you’d never be able to pick them out from us and it reminds you that they are ordinary men who have talent, skill and value. Through this ministry we purchased two new 10 x 20 canopies this week with sides! Two of the ones we’re using are more than 10 years old and when we put them up some of the frame hangs down in the middle and the legs don’t quite latch right and have to be rigged up with grips to hold them in place. So thank you for continuing to support us because without you, we certainly wouldn’t be putting up new tents this Sunday, and we’re super excited about it. As me and Pam Harvey were on our way into the women’s mission yesterday to do crafts with them, we seen the guy who had sat in the car with me last Sunday morning and I told him about the new tents. He promised me he’d be there to help get them up. The family of God is so diverse, so beautifully unique.

As the verse at the beginning of this letter says, we can do all things through Christ, Who strengthens us. Where would we be without Him? Even in the hard times, it’s just better with Jesus. Have a wonderful month!

 

Your sister in Jesus,

Pam  

February 2021

Hello Saints!

I woke up early this morning thinking, if Jesus sent us a message through sweetheart candy, what would it look like? I’m pretty sure He was the first one who ever thought of asking us to “be Mine”. The other day I was reading the instructions in Leviticus for the priests of laying their hands on the head of the animal to be sacrificed for the sins of the people.  An image came into my head of Jesus on the cross and my hand reaching out to touch Him to transfer my sins onto Him.  It was heart wrenching.  Even though we have been taught it and have read it in the Word over and over again, that made His love so much deeper to me.

He was the original creator of love language. Yet in view of all the Hallmark cards and love songs that have been written, I’m pretty sure He doesn’t get much credit for it. Without Him, where would love have come from? “Beloved let us love one another, for love is of God, and everyone who loves is born of God and knows

God. He who does not love, does not know God, for God is love. In this the love of God was manifested towards us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world that we might live through Him. In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.”  I John 4:7-11  How’s that for a love story! And there’s more!!!  I John 4 gives us a wonderful outline on how to love one another through the love of God. It says when we love one another, God abides in us and His love has been perfected in us. We can walk in true love when we are His! I’ve never seen Valentines Day as a day to honor the Lord, but Who else has exhibited  such unconditional, selfless love for us? Who else keeps His hand extended no matter how many times we have walked past it, too busy to sit with Him, too preoccupied to dwell in His Presence? It’s easy to get so caught up in caring for others even, trying to fit one more thing to do for someone into the day, that I’ll find myself trying to do it all in my strength. I forget that He is the One who created my heart and through rebirth, has given me the compassion to even reach out to them.

I woke up at 3 a.m. and couldn’t go back to sleep thinking about everything that has to be done each day for the next week for the ministry, 3 halfway houses, the homeless, the recovery meeting… my brain was spinning. Then, in an instant, the Lord changed my whole thought process. I look at the calendar and everything on the “to do list”, and think, “what was I thinking?!” While someone else would look at it and become energized and excited at getting it all done. I became so grateful that this is what my life is now. That the challenges are no longer whether I am going to get evicted or not, or how long will I be without running water. But instead there’s this wonderful well of Living water that we have the privilege of being vessels for. He not only first made our hearts, but when we tainted them, He was completely willing to pave the way to remake them for us. So that’s what led me to think of Him as the very One we should honor this month as the absolute best lover of our soul.

He loves us so much, that He calls us His bride. He proposed to us before we were even born. Yes, I guess you could call it an arranged marriage, but the benefits are phenomenal! You may think I’m going a little overboard, but I have to tell you, I have fallen completely in love with This Guy all over again this morning!  I hope as you read this, your heart is crying out with a resounding “yes!” “I will & I do!”   Be  fully committed to the One who is fully committed to you. If you need a reference, I will vouch for Him, He says what He means and He means what He says! He is the Way, the Truth & the Life. He will never leave you nor forsake you. All His promises are yes and amen. “And the Spirit and the bride say, “Come!” And let him who hears say “Come!” And let him who thirsts come. Whoever desires, let him take the water of life freely.” Rev 22:17  FREE!!! Does it get any better?!!!!

And that takes us back to I John 4:19 “We love Him because He first loved us.” His word and His love are complete for us. We are completely cared for, completely held, completely secure because of who He is.

At the time of this writing, our treasurer has declined rapidly. He is only 6 weeks out from his cancer diagnosis and is now on hospice. Please agree with us as we speak against the devourer in the name of Jesus.

(I apologize if any of your end-of-year donor receipts were incorrect. Please do not hesitate to call me for a correction. It’s totally my fault. One of our supporters, who I am very grateful too, called to tell me I had left the amount out completely.) Its hard to understand suffering. Words fail. But Jesus does not. I had a dream a few nights ago. I was looking at this long winding, curvy, hilly road, with severe highs and lows. It was amazing how far I could see. I was on a journey that I was excited about because the destination was a place I’ve always dreamed of being and knew when I got there, I’d never lack for anything and the circumstances were going to be amazing. As I looked at the road ahead, the dips actually made me feel like I’d faint and I wondered if I’d remember how hard the trip was when I got there and all of a sudden all of my troubles would be over. Then I woke up.

He loves us. His plan for us is perfect. The journey is difficult but if we could see what’s ahead, we’d press on with every ounce of strength we could muster because it is going to be fantastic, beyond beautiful, absolutely everything we’ve ever hoped for.  “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.” Romans 8:18

“But if we hope for what we do not see, we eagerly wait for it with perseverance. Likewise, the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.” Romans 8:25-26. I had a dream minutes before the one about the road, of a stranger walking up to me who said he was sent to pray for me. Jesus has not left without One to intercede for us, not only does He intercede at the right hand of the Father, but He sent us a backup, the Holy Spirit.

As for the ministry, we are now going into a 3rd women’s shelter and teaching crafts. And our feeding the homeless has increased dramatically. It’s a busy time! I’m so grateful for all of you who have sown into our ministry. You would be amazed if you seen the crowd you are blessing! I can’t thank you enough for loving the Lord and being a part of our family.

Yesterday, I was on the phone with a dear brother, who actually makes up our envelopes each month. After sharing some of my stress, he prayed for me.  He was a friend of my parents and so it was like getting a fatherly hug through the phone! I didn’t ask for the prayer, he just did it. If the Lord puts it on your heart to pray with someone, don’t question it, don’t worry about it, just do it and He will be faithful to accomplish what He wants done with it. There is no value we can put on being part of the body of Christ, it is priceless!

Have a wonderful month and enjoy loving Jesus!

Your sister in Him,

Pam