August 2018

 

Hello Saints!

It’s a glorious day to praise our blessed Savior! Has He set your feet to dancing yet? Lately even when walking around my kitchen, I feel like I’m doing a waltz with the Lord. My spirit has this growing expectation and excitement, that makes me want to twirl with Him. The other morning I awoke from a terrible dream about my past. Satan never tires of trying to remind us of our failures. As I got up for the day, there was a heavy cloud of oppression over me. The radio wasn’t on, but all of a sudden the song, “Who the Son sets free is free indeed” popped into my head, “In my Father’s house there’s a place for me,” and my feet felt like dancing. My spirit started swaying, my heart sprung up from the darkness. Who can stand against the Lord our God! He is our Defender! He is the One who fights us for us! Satan didn’t stand a chance that morning because God came to my rescue without a moment’s hesitation and said I’m His, with a place in His house!

Something the Lord spoke to me on yesterday was the desires of our heart. We all love the scripture “Delight thyself also in the Lord; and He shall give thee the desires of your heart”, Psalm 34:4. (Actually we like to leave the first part off and just wait for Him to give us our hearts desire.) When I finally, absolutely surrendered my life to Him for the last time (my final offer) 10 ½ years ago, at age 44, I thought certainly He would give me the desires of my heart, a house and a husband. (Yep, hard to believe that a great catch like me is still single, right?) Yet, here I am, all these years later, in an efficiency apartment, me and the dog. And yes, He has fulfilled the desires of my heart. God is so incredibly amazing. I wouldn’t trade my time with Him in this place for anything in the world. As you grow in Him, and walk out this walk with Him, you will be amazed at how your hearts desires change. When I wanted to have a pizza party in the downtown park for the homeless and the low income people in that area, the Lord provided money for 70 pizzas and plenty of sodas. He gave me the desire of my heart. When I wanted to begin taking sausage and egg sandwiches to the homeless on Saturday mornings instead of just cookies and coffee, He gave me the desire of my heart. When I needed 3,000.00 to go to an orphanage in Africa and had no money at all, He gave me the desire of my heart. When my desire was to give away lots of free stuff to low income families, He gave us a connection with a warehouse of damaged goods and for at least 4 yrs we were able to give away literally hundreds of pounds of toilet paper, diapers, and hygiene items each month to families in need. Over and over when I wanted to go into prisons with dad, near and far, He opened the doors. When I wanted Bibles to take into the prisons to freely give away, He gave us 1,000 Bibles, immediately! I can’t even count all the requests I have laid before Him that He has answered and provided for in abundance. He is a great and awesome God. Take a moment and reflect on your hearts desires, the simple things, the beautiful things that He has been faithful in. As I looked back on it, it was overwhelming and even now brings me to tears.

The Lord has been telling me to dance at church, to grab someone and twirl them around, the way He twirls with me. Simple, right? He’s so great, how can I deny Him? Yet this has been a challenge! Last week, I’m looking around, no one knowing that any of them are about to have what hopefully will be an awesome dance with the Lord, (at least that’s what I was hoping for.)

In the back of the church was a young pregnant woman, who is usually up front worshiping, and I knew immediately she was the one. When I went to her, she was crying. I hugged her and she started crying harder. (This wasn’t what I had pictured.) I prayed for her, and then stepped back, took her hands and said, “We need to dance.” We started stepping side to side, and I said, “When I count to 3, we’re going to twirl together.” And we did, and it was wonderful. We repeated that 5 or 6 times, stepping side to side a few times, counting to 3 and twirling. During the stepping process we told each other how wonderful God was and she began worshiping Him during the dance and her whole countenance changed as she entered into the dance with Him. We weren’t as graceful as my mind had pictured, and no one stopped to admire us, but the audience we had with the Father was amazing.

Wow, I haven’t even gotten to tell you about the Madison Women’s Prison yet! So much went wrong the week before we went, that there was at least 3 days when I wanted to call and cancel. Yep, I know you find it hard to believe, that me, such a victorious defender of the faith would want to throw in the towel, but there I was, absolutely empty, wore out, overwhelmed, thinking, “I’ve got nothing….” When you find yourself there, you simply have to say, (as I did), Lord this is Your time, Your event, do what You will with it. And He did!!! Haven’t I told you He is faithful! We can spend all the time in the world, planning, worrying, stressing, and in the end He will still be God. Its always a little to our disadvantage when we give out snacks, because the women become very animated when they see all the candy and chips. The chaplain had told me seldom, not often, at one of their best services, they might get 100 women to attend. At our first service there was 120, manageable. Once word went around that we had snacks, the second service was 230, and it was a circus! Which is exactly why we take snacks, to lure them in to the love of Jesus. But there are moments when your nerves become a tightwire, and mine were strung to capacity. Trying to keep them quiet during the worship was nearly impossible. Impossible for man that is. One of our worship leaders started playing and the Spirit of God fell so strongly that a hush fell over the room like a warm blanket and God began to move. One woman was openly weeping and others began crying softly. There are times when you feel moved to go to them, and times when you know to stand still and let God do what He is doing in them. We let them engage the Father for a few songs and then our volunteers began moving around the auditorium and praying with them individually. We will never know the impact of what God did that night, and it’s none of our business, but we can give testimony that His word is true when it says, “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways, My ways”, says the Lord, “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.” His ways are best.

The next morning we had to make an emergency run to Walmart for 250 bags of chips and honeybuns, as we were running out of chocolate. What I had thought would last us 3 sessions, had only last 2. So thank all of you for your faithful support. It was such a blessing to not be frantic about what we were going to do. Because of your faithfulness, the Lord had already prepared the funds and we were able to go in and get all that we needed. That afternoon, (Sunday) was a repeat performance of the night before, with God showing up and showing off. A man who dad had ministered to in many different prisons over a period of about 20 years, has been out a couple years now and is going into prisons with us sharing his testimony. He was with us and spoke that day. His testimony is such a powerful story of what God can do with a life that to society looks like will never be worth the effort.

This is why we dance. This is why we praise the One Who never fails and never falls short. Our expectation of God should only grow greater as we see how much He is capable of.  Isn’t it something that we read in the Word about all that He created, He has sustained it all since the beginning of time, and yet we wonder if He will really come through for us. I pray He releases a dance in you. Not just in your imagination, but in your feet. In your living room, or bedroom, it’s only you and Him, bow before Him, take His hand and step back and forth while looking into His beautiful face. If you have a partner, the two of you dance, (even if it looks like this) and tell each other how wonderful God is, and remember all the desires of your heart that He has fulfilled.

“I will remember the works of the Lord, Surely I will remember Your wonders of old.” Psalm 77:11 (NKJV)   He is a good God and He is worthy of our adoration, our joy, and our dance.

Be blessed in Jesus Name!

Your sister in Him,

Pam

 

August 2018 Schedule

August 4, 11, 25: Cooking for homeless

August 5; Speaking at Liquid Church

August 12; Allen County Women’s Work Release

August 6, 13, 20, 21; Faith Based Mentoring. (This is a recovery meeting with a free meal for people in half-way houses, on drug court, on house arrest, or anyone just needing help with their walk with Jesus. I have recently been elected to the board of this group.)

August 2, 9, 23, 30; Cupbearer Café, Auburn, IN (Another recovery meeting, to which I pick up a few people who are in halfway homes, and 2 from their own homes, who are recovering from drugs. This meeting offers a free meal, worship, and a message.)

August 17-19; Northpoint Correctional, Burgin, Ky